Evil Is Live Spelled Backwards

For today, my long-term goal is:

1) M.Sc at Harvard/ Stanford / Tsinghua/ PekingU/TokyoU graduating at 2014
(…alright, I know wht u are thinking, I know im not THAT smart, thank you)

2) If not, I will go back to Hong Kong right after grad

a) Consulting Firms
(quite sure my bro will discourage me from doing this)

b) Government, AO or EPD
(but my lang skill is just not good enough for AO…im as shy as a shrimp)

c) HK universities
(and now u think u r one of those superior intellectuals?)

d) Financial institutions
(u just said u hate ibank!)

e) Be a Pig
(yes, this is the most honest self, cheers)

again, it is only for today.
always tentative to change

so in order to achieve my long-term goal:

1) got really good academic result (5.0)

2) gain more research experience (UROP please and learn JAVA)

3) be career-wise competitive by doing internships (M1ST1 JAPAN!!)

4) further improve my interpersonal skills (write more blogs! 誤)

5) and those stuffs I wrote before about ennoblement, haha.

月巴

I have never thought that “LOSS WEIGHT” would be a term applicable to myself…

Because for 18 years , my BMI indicated that i am underweight…

and now I am Normal Weight !!

okkk chill, im not freaking out or wht…

but my go-to-work pants are getting suffocatingly tight

so i really have to do some more exercises…hahaaa

and one day of biking already gao dou me muscle pain…ai

sorry it is such an unplanned blog entry

and thank you everyone who has told me that they enjoy reading my blog

or those who has made feedback for some entries

thank you so much as it is such a big motivation!!

1 year passed so quickly~~ (but why could one day at work be so long?! haha)

again its sendoff party… strangers 1 year ago become familiar faces

new admit now became one of those who shared on stage~

real world is not harmonious at all
still a long way to learn the true rule of this game
i’m no longer surprised by those non-friendly behaviors of the grown-ups
becoz I gradually understand why they did so.
attack and defense.
so never take others genuine friendless for granted , no kidding.
its very, very precious.

labyrinth

Read Only/ Read and Write?

未解決。
Am I suitable for / Am I strong at/ Do I like:
academics / career?
science / arts/ engineering/ econ/ finance/ research?
government/ ibank/ consulting/ R&D/ media?
public speaking/politics/ opinion?

I am already almost 20 years old
and still i have no effing idea What I am
how can an individual with
no talent, no passion, no interest, no preference for 20 years..
pave a unique path for herself..given that being random is not a choice?

i’m still so “undeveloped”
and I have spent so much time “exploring” different area of interests…
and the fact is nothing interests me particularly…dang ._.
after a quarter of a lifetime, I am still confused about who am i …how pathetic.

Future is really sth BEYOND IMAGINATION.
it’s out of bound, its like
how can you imagine
an Earth-sized asteroid crash on Jupiter???
A CRASH creating an EARTH?
my future is as unimaginable as this.

i can’t  even identify myself
im always changing
and im always hiding some, and showing some…
ai …. ng g dim

Bipartisan

They say bad luck comes in 3’s.
I think that I got signs of Stockholm syndrome. (<–click for wiki)
(its really nothing too well-known,
somehow I’ve read it from a book some years ago…
hmm suddenly recalled it after one night of worrying,)

though might not be 100% appropriate, or even a bit exagerrating,
it might kind of explain why I would start to idolize kazu sempai
or would even feel thankful to my source of worries these days.

hmm 被略施小惠 is the point. hahha

p.s. stephen colbert is really the king of satire hahaha

童年你與誰渡過 聖詩班中唱的歌
再哼一哼可以麼
當時誰與你排著坐 白色恤衫灰褲子
再穿一穿可以麼

遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識 餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
能留下印象 閱覽你家中每道牆
拿著你歌書 與你合唱

從前你與誰路過 逛的公園有幾多
再走一走可以麼
當時誰對你凝望過 是否真的比我多
再演一演可以麼

遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識 餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
遺憾印象 沒有你家中那面牆
拿著你相簿

從前拍過的相
多麼妒忌你昨日同過的窗
早些看著你美麗模樣
對你天真的讚賞
從頭細看 你六歲當天 已是我偶像