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recently i dun really look forward to my summer holiday
becoz i have accepted a ridiculous 3-month challenge

it is so ridiculous that whenever i think about it i feel stressed
becoz
1) i hv never work for 3 months that long before, not even school ..sometimes schools got long weekend
2) i hv to go to work 9am every day from tai wai to central, and very long hours (not really a problem)
3) im working at the tech dept..but the fact is my tech knowledge is really really really really ABC level compared to theirs
4) i duno how big companies work at all
5) normal expectation is, i will do things wrong, making them angry, being scolded, duno whts going on
6) again, my tech knowledge is so bad
7) i duno how to deal with adults like these…
8) im bounded to work for 3 months and should have no excuse to terminate at any point
8.5) about hardcore work instead of blowing water..i duno how to make things impressive anymore
9) my mum said fortune teller said 2009 will be a very tough year for me

i really wanna reject the offer becoz i cant convince myself i could take up such a challenge

but i really have to stay firm and conquer my fear becoz :

0)if just becoz it is near-impossible and i refuse to face the challenge at this young, when im older, i will be too lazy to welcome any difficulties or failures to my life.
1) he knows you know nothing, you are freshman, you got room for mistakes in the beginning. if say, im already a year 3 student and still perform like shit..then that will be a problem…
2) you wont be able to get a job at big companies like this with ur GPA anymore, grasp the chance
3) it will be a very valuable experience and a great start of career, it helps my further job apps too
4) you have made all those promises with ur boss and u hv him on facebook already
5) you still have time to polish ur tech skills a bit after final exams , there is 24 hours per day
6) prove to yourself that you are capable. or prove to yourself that you are not capable but you still tried.
7) to know the fact that i reallly wont like banks.
8) i will be jobless, and i only got 2 more summer for interns. cant waste anytime.
9) econ is bad, get a job like this is precious, dont be a badass.
10) learn to endure, be responsible for decisions that i have made.
11) its just intern, not long job, after 3 month u say bye bye

after this 3 months, if i could survive, i should become bulletproof of anything =D

a know-nothing bak chi work in tech dept for 3 months =
have korean oral exam every day for 3 months without knowing a word in korean

u surived many challenges, and you should ultimately conquer this one too.
no pain, no gain, ok. no regret, ok.
even its a wrong decision, try ur best to make it no regret, ok?