I am too happy after the easyass BBQ gathering.
Happiness is not only limited to weekends!!
becoz of this..i’m just going to type
wht i’ve scribbled on my notebook earlier today
welcome to guess wht the original post would be like haaha:
– Modus Operandi synonym = routine
– underwent a spiritual crisis
– sycophantic?
– stranding
– Modern love column
– silence my own skeptics with truths
– Andriod, Chroms OS, Bing
– enter a new phase
– NYT ‘look up word’ function is so cool
跟爸爸聊天
突然記起了本來已經沈底的片段
but looking back, everything is like a dream.
七歲 小三 130cm高 數學功課
交功課前 跟好朋友對過後 我把答案全都改了
但是那時候 全錯的 steps 卻沒有改過
終於 副校長的數學老師 Miss Fong 發現了
一個下午 沒有說明目的 她叫我去副學長室見她
她要我站著 她一邊拿著我的功課薄
一邊用紅筆大力地 在我面前 一個一個圈去‘奇怪’的答案
一邊很嚴重地一問再問 ：“為甚麼你要這樣？為甚麼？”
一邊要我立刻答她 正確的答案應該是甚麼
我一句也沒有回答 我羞恥得 一邊低著頭
腳在震 手在震 耳鳴的很厲害 甚麼也聽不清
全身已經虛脫得沒力去應付這樣沈重的審判
最後 我半暈過去了
一撞就撞去桌邊 嘴角破了 在流血嘴角
我整個人沒力的 整個扒在地上面。。
然後怎樣
我也忘了
但同樣程度 的 我自犯的罪惡 同樣之後四年內
在 MCS 發生了六遍。
嚴重的 班主任激動地破口大罵：
“你做這樣可恥沒家教的事情 你還覺得你可以升中學嗎？”
完.
“Question: how can one manage not to lose time? Answer: experience it at its full length. Means: spend days in the dentist’s waiting room in an uncomfortable chair; listen to lectures in a language that one does not understand, …” – ‘The Plague’ Albert Camus
TBH, i don’t enjoy this summer at all.
(a) the heat could instantly melt me down
(b) got plugged by an energy drain , namely internship, in weekdays
(c) and many of my friends are going through (b)
(d) with that said, all fun-fun-fun 86’d.
but one good thing is that,
on top of usual singk-movie-shopping-gatherings,
I’ve got quality time in solace of thoughtful solitude.
Not that I am losing the human touch,
but sometimes I tend to value the hums of aircon and compu
over the meaningless gags and fake burst of laughter.
today is tomorrow’s yesterday.
today is 30-years-later’s 30-years-ago.
today is 2000-years-later’s 2000-years-ago.
I’m living in history, and an eyewitness to history,
a point at the infinite time-line of mankind.
What I do today is for the 60-years-old to look back.
then I will proudly tell my children without regrets
what I have been doing in 2009, or 2012, or 1995.
this thought dashed through my mind when I was in TW KCR station,
after hundred years, will it become a 古蹟? or, will IFC appear
in documentaries, with people wearing ‘old-fashioned’ clothes
as we see the 1960s people now?
People said studying in Ivy Leagues =/= cream of the crop
it only means your will be at high priority during HR job screening.
oh well, career is not the one and only thing that matters right?
Now I really think 求學是求學,
wht u’ve learnt and how much u’ve grown matter way more.
(Im ashamed to hv lost the ability to write long paragraphs,
[tin yum: sadly it won’t make you a Ballad writer, ..well, you wish..]
I truly love how people write blogs so beautifully, unlike mine, duh.)
“Hm, I do lie a lot. To myself and to others. At the end of the day, though, there’s no objective truth and everything we say are partial lies in one way or the other because language itself is an imperfect representation of concepts. Gee I sound so pretentious.” hedy
“””When I came to MIT as a freshman more than four years ago, I was excited for the challenge. One of the first things I heard at MIT was the oft-repeated parable about the bell curve, or, as we engineers might call it, a normal distribution. I forget who told me it first. Perhaps it was my freshman advisor, but it goes something like this: “If you were to put every student on a bell curve, MIT accepts only the highest one percent. You’re used to being in that top one percent, but now that you’re here, that curve starts all over. You won’t always be the best. You won’t always even be average.”””” The Tech
so i have just got this news that I can take 1.00 next sem
so…here comes the “thriller”..
no, i don’t think I can handle it.
yes, I have registered for all of the above.
I won’t let myself start worrying until im in deep sh!t XD
maybe bro is right that
the purpose of this ibank experience is just to
justify that ibank is really not my cup of tea.
(though cant deny that I’ve learnt a lot too)
at the same time, showing others that
not that Im not capable or too fai to do ibank in the future,
just that I’ve worked in this ‘dream’ workplace since Day 1,
and i dont give a duck. 
and after discovering wht the life at a prestigious bank is like,
I can relax and indulge into my own engineering research
without any regrets instead of saying
‘omg i should hv study finance!!! ibank ppl r so cool!’
knowing that the real front-office ppl hv to work 150 hours per week,
u know what? I would really rather sleep all day
or marry to richard li like isabella (if i’ve got this luck..==)
quality of life number 1.
(dilemma: but with those crazy bonuses,
I can retire early and have wud gay quality of life for many years!!)
today dad asked me what I want to be after graduation
I really don’t know, no kidding.
but my boss said to survive in HK
u could only work at FI (financial institution)
he’s got a point..but…
ai =( so i guess probably
government / consulting / japanese-related
but so far at halfway, ..generally speaking…
1) scale and scope of an reputational investment bank, integrity is very important
2) applicable to all businesses, profit ( or loss) and clients are the ultimate bosses
3) with that said, efficiency , quality and quantity must be at best level
4) i.e. maximum output in minimum time/resource
impromptuz 