我成名了

有人來問我是不是唱acapella的,因為他說他去了songfest對我有印象。
噢,我成名了。
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這個學期學到的是

每個人都有自己獨特的觀點,品性難移。

每個人做每一件事,說每一句話,都有他自己的意義跟intention

而每個行為背後,都有他自己的理由去justify。

謝謝跟對不起,這些客套話,不嫌煩一定要說。

bottom line 是 一定要有禮貌,因為禮貌反映家教。

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二十年後的承諾。

恢復正常

幸好一切恢復正常了。

謝謝所有人:)
懂自救才會成長

独木

喜欢坐火车,喜欢一站一站的慢慢南下或者北上,喜欢在旅途中间的我。
只因为,在旅途的中间,我就可以不属于起点或者终点,不属于任何地方和任何人,在这个单独的时刻里,我只需要属于我自己就够了。
所有该尽的义务,该背负的责任,所有该去争夺或是退让的事物,所有人世间的牵牵绊绊都被隔在铁轨的两端,而我,在车厢里的我是无所欲求的。在那个时刻里,我唯一要做也唯一可做的事,只是安静地坐在窗边,观看着窗外景物的交换而已。
窗外景物不断在变换,山峦与河谷绵延而过,我看见在那些成林的树丛里,每一棵树都长得又细又长,为了争取阳光,它们用尽一切委婉的方法来生长。走过一大片稻田,在田野的中间,我也看见了一棵孤独的树,因为孤独,所以能恣意地伸展着枝叶,长得象一把又大又粗又圆的伞。
在现实生活里,我知道,我应该学习迁就与忍让,就像那些密林中的树木一样。可是,在心灵的原野上,请让我,让我能长在一棵广受日照的大树。
我也知道,在这之前,我必须先要学习独立,在心灵最深处,学习着不向任何人寻求依附。

席慕蓉

life is fragile

after all,

we are just human.

there are disappointments, happiness, separations, betrayals, hatred, love, sad, appreciation, failures..

but when it comes to life-and-death problem, nothing is really that important anymore..

it is like, losing your HKID in ur wallet is still far better than the whole wallet….. (?!…)

becoz you can claim back ur HKID anyway, but the wallet is unique and hold a lot of other stuffs (orz.)

That day will come anyway, and no one knows when that day is,

so really… dun waste time anymore and live your life to the fullest.

and treasure people around for they are still alive.

(you really won’t know yourself, or any of friends, will die young)

follow your heart and hear your will for time is limited on earth.

let life affects life.

an unsophisticated list of stuffs to do before death:

1. Visit Rome with my beloved one (error 404)

2. Go travelling around Japan by myself (i kind of did it already)

3. Publish a book or publish my blog
(that’s really the reason why i am writing every day..becoz if it is not written down, the feeling and interesting stories will be forever lost when im dead. hahaha)...[so it is like..i have at least taken pictures of my unique wallet]

4. Learn philosophy

5. love my family (it should be a long-term thing until I die)

6. hug my friends

7. minimize the negative feeling

8. be less sentimental and open myself to opportunities

9. see the world!! (which is actually no.1 and no.2)

Sense and Sensibility

因為過往沒餘地的依賴和投入 ,

這兩星期的經歷,對我而言 在我的世界作成翻天覆地的改變。

這幾天的態度,心態,情緒,行為,觀點,處事方法

(跟《宮心計》裡的米雪沒差,有刺缺德,潑辣可憎,怨恨很重。)

變得前所未有地 像惡魔般偏激跟扭曲。

抑不住的怒火一發不可收拾,距離發瘋還有一毫米。

感覺事態嚴重,我覺得我被傷害了,就讓心魔大肆放縱。

對不起,原來我才是不可原諒的那個人。

對不起,像大家一樣,我也對自己的過分而失望。

對不起,講了傷害人的話。

從少到大,控制不了自己的情緒/糟劣的心理素質都是最明顯的弊病,

卻沒有認真改過。

我會好好反省,檢討,改過,要做到心理上的適可而止。

對不起,經過這一役,看到這麼誇張恐怖的我,我知錯了。

這麼不理性,我也沒有資格去批評甚麼。

書還是要讀,讓我好好地面壁思過。

越投入,越危險。這麼扯的態度不能再現啦。

“”的確,失去的已經失去,何必為之大驚小怪或耿耿於懷呢?””

 

 

而且,人生沒有這些經典場面的話,
我未來的自傳就沒有素材啦 haahaha

Viper in my bosom

朋友,我愛你們。

*kiss*
感谢虚伪突现诚恳。
In disbelief (without sleep for 36 hours) but no longer in denial.

Nothing can hurt more than this haunting experience.
Debunked the very dark side of human nature.
Revealed the most twisted truth hided by the most fake days.
When so-called trust and truthfulness and loyalty and friendship betrayed me
–all along,
Released the Satan and evilness in me.
Everything reduced to shambles but friends are all with me.
Everything reduced to an empty shell but family are all with me.
Everything reduced to dry tears but I can still walk around with justified dignity.
One day, one day I could forgive everyone with great glee.

but if it was really all that easy
don’t you think I’d have given up by now
and if the questions had an answer
they wouldn’t be believable out loud
and you know that I would tell you
even if it sounded like a lie
funny thing about the truth is that
no-one warned us to wonder why