fried dou cry the quiz..haahaha
anyway i know why la i just crossed away the whole correct set of answer
then re-do it with a a stupid way..anyway…i think i have passed 8.01 already la (merely)
don’t get 0 for final jau duc la..( CHOI CHOI CHOI CHOI TOUCHWOOD)
have last seminar today.
have to draft out my last essay today.
then study 18.02A today
now i will sleep.
once upon a time
she was so aggressive and ambitious. she stood for all possible elections at school.
she signed up for activities and volunteer services. she participated in different activities.
she was active in class and teachers loved it. she wanted to shine. she wanted to be outstanding.
she was once so into drama performances and speech festivals.
she tried singing in talent quest twice, debating as captain.
she was cheerleader of her school House for 3 years.
she was elected president and even lead a team of 40 to organize a joint school exhibition.
she just has this insatiable desires for challenges.
she wanted to know more interesting people,
so she wouldn’t ever miss a chance in joining student camps and stuffs.
though her innerself, she always prefer to be alone,
wants to avoid eye contact so people wont initiate pointless chats with her.
listen to her favourite songs, immerse into her own little world, and shut the door.
she wants a quiet world, putting on her earplug and watch animes online.
but she knew very clearly thats not the way to success,
or the mainstream norm for a normal student.
she knows an introvert is just too absurd to others.
but gradually she’s so tired of it all and she gave up trying,
she will lead a life just the way she is and makes friends with people she feel comfortable with.
she don’t need a play group or a he-he-ha-ha hang out group, but a group of genuine soulmates.
she didnt surrender in her comfort zone,
but she is trying to fulfil her responsibility in different roles in life
without distorting her realself.
that’s why her favourite writer in all years is always 陶淵明.
it really depends on how u judge wht’s right /wrong, acceptable/unacceptable,
passionate to life/not, responsible to society/ not.
she’s just those kind of person that .neither have passion or disappointment to life.
just don’t trouble her then whatever will do.
one might argue that a life with no strong enthusiasism/motivation =
no improvement/thrill/excitement in life.
again its personal choice and this is the art of foldness.
disclaimer: whtever i typed above could be ignored becoz im kinda in a bad mood right now. bad mood just blinds my rationalilty leading me to type non-sense stuffs.
still there is one more essay to go.
ahhh hate it.
anyway..hopefully i can officially start studying starting from tomorrow.
i really really don’t want to do this essay….
essay means that you need time to write up, need time to think, need time to refine and refine,
meet with your professor and discuss, then refine refine.
= time-consuming
i cant really multitask in such a way that..
writing up a globalization essay, then doing math at the same time
it requires two different souls from me
i don’t see the problem of being folded wor.
in particular, the last weeks here…………….
ok la i know exactly wht my flaws are
but they r getting more and more obvious somehow …
to a point that i really have to face it or do sth about it.
..hmm not now.
uncertainity reigns my mind again.
my essay, my finals preparation, my major, my future, my lifestyle, my way of life, life balance, friends, hong kong, money, career path, connection, networking, sleeping, food, famliy, my interest, my talent, my identity, my real personality and desires, tomorrow’s classes, physics, chemistry, equations, multivariable calculus, courses to take next term. i-just-don’t-know.
decided to remove “the mist” poster becoz it just reminded me of the scary story plot..haha
所以唔好係夜晚睇完恐怖片..我真係訓唔著的說………鳴
今晚玩了bang!, 煮了臘腸蝦仁炒蛋飯,
下午去了boston食午, 買了cheesecake factory
(刺激美國經濟中)
既然訓唔著..打下我d concerns
其實黎呢度讀書 讀到喊 做功課做到喊 既程況 壓力大到喊 灰到喊
實在太frequent
(which 係 LPC 時我絕對唔會咁….=_=)
總括黎講 我唔會話呢4個月過得話非常快樂
其一 我自己懶而唔識 咁係低死既
但有時候 d 野 係 你明左 唔代表你會識解答d 問題
就好似physics 咁, 每次都係好驚唔知佢會出乜
因為我識晒d theory 真係唔代表我會識做
成日淆底+frustrating …
咁講真 如果我花多d時間 做多d題目 花多d時間去多思考既話
咁冇話難既 as 我而家讀緊所以既都係 101 既班的說…
學業方面 已經唔會再同人比較了 當明白到自己再唔係 top student時
就要接受而家係點樣
其二就係, 除左對付學業 始終都係一個留學生 要適認 要認識既野 好多
所以我想講既係, 如果我未來要讀好多engineering class, 我怕我會有depression.
-_-
囉唔到高分又燥
底, 唔識做又燥底,唔明又燥底, 做唔到又燥底
所以讀d 我比較善長少少既野 i.e. chem/bio 會唔會令到我有快樂一點既校園生活呢?
但我又覺得, 你唔係expect MIT 會有一科 簡單 既科 下話?
就算係你讀緊科japanese 5 都幾難的說..=_=
Course 1- Environmental Engineering Science
why yes:
got passion
why not:
no ability for physics
why yes:
technically only two engineering classes
why yes:
quite promising career path no matter where
why no:
i will get low GPA with physics and will grey jor
why yes:
will study @ MIT only once in my life, why not try sth challenging
Course 9–Brain and Cognitive Science with Course 15-Management
why yes:
got passion and less physics stuffs, more interesting
why no:
if single major course 9, probably hv to do grad school and ng g jo mud
why yes:
could double major
why no:
double major then i have to take 5 classes per semester
why yes:
im taking 6 subjects in this term and i dont find a big problem
why no:
but when every subject is important for ur GPA..
so after all my main concern is:
given that both are my interest,
should i go for the challenge,
or should i consider if the subjects are suitable for my level so that i could get high GPA and find a good job?
and what job?
who knows..-_-
impromptuz 