Cycle

while I am so prone to making mistakes.. I always try to avoid failures.
but wht’s sarcastic is that, the more I did preparation, the higher probability to do sth wrong.
maybe its not ability problem..its the fear that has hindered me to complete tasks smoothly

only if I could conquer the fear to look forward..maybe I would be a more successful person.

then School starts again, schedule is crazier than last term, wht’s more is that its finally a GPA term.
taking almost all science classes.. given almost all my hong kong upperclassmen are 5.0 ppl….
and i hv such bad emotional control… have to do 4 PSETs per week…
the schedule is so packed that i dun even know if I could go to office hour or not…….
have to wake up early for work, for class in such a cold weather……..

see, the game hasn’t started yet I am already so freaked out by all these possibiliies and pressure.

I guess, to face all these obstacles..
Work Hard , Work harder than anyone else, is the only solution.
for im not the smart ones..

I know I know I am always repeating myself , saying the same thing.
but its really important for me to keep my spirit high, and confidence, and motivation to work hard.

if not, im just a loser ..getting defeated by pressure so easily.

18.02, 18.03, 8.02, 7.014, 21f.504 …another 5 subjects.
I will play this game well.
I will do my best.

Hmmm

ahhh It is Saturday now and I got absolutely no plan,
I adjusted my alarm clock at 2:30pm..so I could kill half of the day by pure sleeping
but then I woke up at 10:00am …-_____________-”
Though a bit bored…it’s good to enjoy time in such a pressure-less and inner-peaceful mode
so in order to make myself sleepy again, gonna type random stuff hahaha

1. Reading the book “The Plague” by Albert Camus , the Nobel Prize winner who wrote “The Outsider”
Question: how can one manage not to lose time? Answer: experience it at its full length. Means: spend days in the dentist’s waiting room in an uncomfortable chair; listen to lectures in a language that one does not understand, …

2. Computer


my computer died , sometimes it revives but still it dies more than it revives. and my room stupidly lost its wireless connection.
so should I buy this with my intern salary and compensation? its US $949 at student prize…..hmmm I will think about it
and amazing that the shipping is within 24 hours…ging yeah

3. Before class starts………….
=___________= im still pretty unsure whether I could cope with this chiu full schedule or not…..=_=
anyway 生活就是鬥爭 ………………………………… please try my best and go to office hours !!!!!!!!!

4. Went to the bank, bought some college notebooks, got my transcript , ate at Kendall Food court.
originally planned to buy a heater today and maybe eat at mcdonald…dang…but its so cold out there
and my bed is so so warm o>_<o

Spring

gonna be extreme hardcore.
with 4 total different subs –bio, math x 2 , phy and japanese.
gonna deal with 4 PSETs per week.
gonna deal with 12 mid-terms.
classes ends at 5pm for 3/5 of the week…lonely and gloomy and cloudy

so

very important

保持心境開朗

and..min. have 6 hours of sleep……..thank you.

inferiority complex

深呼吸 用腳寫日記 要去哪裡好呢 我漫步在人海裡我的手也冷得要命
分開後 又幾年後 以為痛都好了 但是只要是一下雨就像天又彈著鋼琴 彈的是你
原來愛上寂寞 會怕去愛 害怕走 郤得往前走 已經忘了很久 每個鏡頭 那時候的我
遠遠地 車浪無聲離去 馬路上人少了 寂寞很美麗像一部沒有了字幕的電影 嗯….
停了電 自己煮了面 讓漆黑的世界佔領 未來怎麼都可以是屬於我的愛情 可會來臨
OH…… 害怕走 郤得往前走 以前快樂的我 給消滅後 還剩一什麼

things to do :
1) make HKSS poster and reply email
2) register PE class at wed night 11:00pm
3) reply intern email asap =_______= must be done by tomorrow night
4) buy C++ book and the outsider
5) buy clothes, esp long socks, trousers for winter, and some tops for winter , i got none.
6) buy snacks and noodles.
7) buy a new schedule book if there is any leng ones.
8) and of course pack my luggage ..= =

things to do after arriving:
1) go to SSN on Friday
2) find Tom on Monday for class reg
3) find my phy and bio books
4) go to the bank