hot hot hot

very hot…no aircon…30 degree. T-T

today acapella i went for audtion for singing soloist again
but as i didnt prepare at all so i didnt get it
well anyway, chances are given to the prepared ones
but i do think i sing quite okay =P happy~

Major: Environmental Engineering Science
Minor: Management and Japanese or Energy

=(

im worried
i dun want summer to come, i wont e able to make any positive contribution
i duno what to do if im paid to do something
that i have 95% probability to screw up
and its for 3 months, i will be defeated every day ….=((((((
feeling sad and inferior for my whole summer…every week…
i will keep letting people’s down, making myself and others disappointed
but they are bounded to keep me becoz is 3 months long….and i have to do it too
and ppl will be very harsh and demanding..
they will scold me and hurt my dignity….
but im just a piece of rubbish going there….
the things i hate most is appearing being foolish….
but now im in a situation that i cant avoid being very foolish and a bak chi…
i dun nothing about these……..
wuwuwuuuuuuuuuuuuwuwuwuuwuu

but this is namely challenge.
doing something out of your ability but within your potential.
damn but isnt 3 months just too long, its like 25% of a year!!!!

im truly very worried.
but i guess they wont have high expectations on me neither =_=

Fakebook status

i really think what people put on their facebook status
is quite an accurate reflection of wht kind of ppl he/she is.
AT LEAST, the image that he/she wanna build up.
here are some examples (they all are real) and see how different they are:

1. XXX got straight-aced in his first semester.
(a very cool statement, fine, ok)
2. XXX aced her xyz test! yay!!!! =D
(i prefer no.1 then this…this is like =>OMG LMAO i got an A!)
3. econ 101   ♥

or like
1. GO MIT TEAM !!!
(but i never see that person getting passionate in any sense in real-life)
2. XXX is doomed.
(ahh~ i like this, seriously, i like to see ppl in deep shit haahaha)

anyway, for myself
what i typed in my facebook status is really very very fake hahaha
it kind of shows what i wanna shape myself as
but totally untruthful XD

I just spent 7 hours on my UROP. FML.

MIT 必勝法

after stumbling through two semesters,
getting lost, falling into deep shit,
getting good grades, crying for bad grades,
doing pset, and anti-group-studying,
here I come up with a MIT ひっしょうほう!
(まあ、人によって違うけどね。)

[disclaimer: i just believe that if i follow the ways below next sem, I will have significant improvement.I failed to do the things below so I guess thats why I am not maximizing my potential at all]
1) Befriend your TA.
they know the answers. they are the one who grade you. they are paid to teach you.

2) Don’t EVER miss recitation sessions.
even lectures are useless, recitations are not.

3) take neat notes.
u’ll lose the passion to study when u’re busy searching for relevant inelligble notes.

4) Don’t feel clueless.
i.e. dont-leave-all-your-stuffs-to-the-day-before-exam-and-study-everything-by-brute-force. it may work but there are better alternatives to get even better grades. …that’s what i do for all exams this term.

5) Some study time every night even there is no homework or tests.
because you will feel so much better and prepared ..instead of ending up begging people to teach you or giving you so-called hints.

6) Don’t miss anything because you won’t want to beg for notes from others.

7) PSETs are much more difficult than exams. i.e. do PSET smartly

8) Don’t have to prepare before class. but must review after class. your professor is not that good.

9) WHAT YOU WORK IS WHAT YOU GET FOR GPA. U ALREADY X-ed your freshman GPA. so please ganbatte.

(man, but i still have U-ROP to do…and then acapella spring concert is coming up…ahh…and then i still hv to wake up at 8 for my part-time job…ahhh but ….)

10) there are still 1 exam 3 and 3 final exams, so please do 1-9 SERIOUSLY next week to try them out.

Heihei hates holidays

relax, i never call myself heihei…
well for the sake of alliteration …hahha

i dun reall like holidays now
becoz everytime after some holidays or some breaks ..
my life after that is always in a mess, no exception.

so i rather keep myself busy and working and hosed…
if not everytime turns disastrous hahha

today:
11-12 noon study a bit
3pm – 5:30pm study in hayden library
5:30 – 6:30pm office hour + dinner
6:30 – 8:30 review session
8:30 – 2:08am , study room angry study

given that i just start my revision today, this timetable is normal ._.