impromptuz

ありきたりな生活は、退屈だ。

我想去日本。我想去日本。我想去日本。

我想去日本留學。我想去日本留學。我想去日本留學。

我想去日本番工。我想去日本番工。我想去日本番工。

我想去日本住。我想去日本住。我想去日本住。

我想去日本玩。我想去日本玩。我想去日本玩。

我想去日本国内旅行。我想去日本国内旅行。我想去日本国内旅行。

我中意㗎仔。我中意㗎仔。我中意㗎仔。

因為種種既定的constraints & expectations，一一都唔會實現。

內心掙扎了很久，還是forfeit了去日本intern的機會，
就證明我是一個conformist。:(  如果真的選了去東京office，
興奮度應該是現在的一千倍。:((  但如果真的follow自己的意願，
就會變成“不切實際”，“自私”，“任意妄為”，
不理理long-run的小伙子。我自己也過不了“不義不孝”這一關。

不過算了，useless to look back。甚麼都定下來了。
it is to remain as a dream.
if u know me well…
im not particularly interested/passionate about anything other than this.

我承认自己是个懦夫。我没有勇气。
i could never be entirely proud of my choice.

羨ましいわ。夢を叶える人達！

這位在日本讀大學的同學，那位在日本工作的朋友，我好眼紅。><

－完－

maybe you can tell something about your friend’s personality from his/her ipod touch apps….:p
with games like coin frenzy and bubble..yup i know i know..XD

剛剛看完義海豪情。
來了美國三年，這是第一套有緊貼的香港電視劇。

人生衝衝幾十年，怎樣光輝怎樣傳奇，
到最後還是會老還是會死。

最後一句在草坪上的對白
“唔知將來我走既時候 有邊個係天上面等我”
身邊的人都會陸續離去。只是先後問題。
終身伴侶，知己和家庭成員就會陪你走到最後。

記得電視訪問過一個老歌手，他說
“這一年我已經收到九十多個喪禮的邀請，我不想再去了。”

人生不同的階段，
生日會，畢業禮，婚禮，滿月，大壽，喪禮。

在晴晴的哀悼會上，陽揚讀出了他的生前日記。
萬一我有甚麼三長兩短，請click上面的”Selections“，
自己選幾遍來讀吧。haha

hmm recent posts are lil bit over-sentimental and girly…i apologize m(_ _)m haha.

• —>hotpot leftovers 一鍋熟。
• So I just found out that my summer research project “derivation of a simple mathematical method of xxyzz creep deformation” has a fancy academic name called spline regression. my professor kind of mentioned it in lecture today and im like “!!!”
• 山下智久 is coming to HK for concert on Jan 29 , right after i left sighhhh@_@ well if it’s bump of chicken’s concert..no doubt i would change my air ticket for it.
• A:”r u one of those math genius?”
  me: “YES!!”
  A:” what’s 1+1?”
  me: “3 ^_^”
  A:”okay..partial credit for u.”
  me:”partial??=o= from where”
  A:”for your effort to attempt. undergrad grading system haha”
  me:”right.the programming class that im grading now…ppl  got 30% for typing their names and TA names…then another 20% if the program could at least compile hahaha”
• while i thought such generous grading would apply to today’s linguistics quiz too by marking “I AM NOT A NATIVE SPEAKER, SORRY”, they READ out each word for phonetic transcription..then no method la im not deaf…:s
• “Why We Can’t Stop Playing Angry Birds” …the average mobile-phone game player is 45 years old ?!?! so i am now in the c9 league too…..
• famous quotes from SS : (1) “我拿了個D還有4.8~”  (2) ” interview with Credit Susie (suisse)” (3) “Miso Raymond (ramen)?” (4) “我有一個hinge! (hunch)”
• was looking at some serviced apartments in hong kong….An apartment (even smaller than my current home)could cost 188,000 HKD PER MONTH?! seriously??? ok i know it is the Four Seasons place…but why not buy a legit apartment? @_@ man..that’s why it’s called “LUXURY” apartment
• could totally graduate by Fall 2011 as only 12 classes left…: S but do i have to? the workload would only jeopardize my eff-up GPA even more…why not enjoy your time here more in a more chill manner?
• the most international place on campus — Sloan! with all kinds of english accent…
• my first week beginner virtual attempt~i like green!

• back on the same topic again .. on how our decisions are ultimately driven by selfishness.
• contemplation of human relationship always boils down to one sad fact — ‘no
  one cares about nobody’. parental/family love is the only kind that is truly selfless, genuine and unconditional (yet in such a soulless/absurd generation…it’s not surprising to find news that violate this fundamental notion)
• what is love anyway. true love is….hmm.. if Im willing to give my last piece of McWing to that person, I love him/her more than myself.
• “对你不好的人，你不要太介怀，在你一生中，没有人有义务要对你好，除了我和你妈妈。至于那些对你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，也请多防备一点，因为，每个人做每件事，总有一个原因，他对你好，未必真的是因为喜欢你，请你必须搞清楚，而不必太快将对方看作真朋友。”
• it’s true that 防人之心不可無…but honestly i dun hv so many calculations/reasons when I make friends…maybe I already intuitively do but just that I hvnt realized yet? or maybe that’s how i differentiate between a ‘connection’ and a ‘friend’
• so i feel particularly sad when my friend treated me as a connection….or vice versa. : <

• i am required to list my beneficiaries in the case of my death and the percentage to each individual. this is probably the very first life-death-level legal decision i have ever made in my 21 years of life
• 有些人觉得成功是应分，失败是不幸。但我却强烈的觉得成功是侥幸，失败是正常。这就是实力派与呃饭食派的区别。
• a brief eye contact at 77 mass ave makes my day
• the root of all evil — addiction. all these unblock-me tetris bejweled …ai
• my lifestyle totally got altered after the death of my macbook screen.
• lost hope in my dorm dining hall… my appetite =/=HALAL islamic arabian vegan indian food
• stories in my dream = ‘u-must-be-dreaming’ type of stuff…..too dreamy to be true >w< if the content of my dream is the determinant of my happiness…then what are the determinants/ingredients of dreams?