Bayesian Time Series

今天早上跟xg 聊了挺值得深思的問題。

世界上所有東西都是 a function of t,都是time-specific的

都各有expiry date,都有phase-in,phase-out的一刻。

例如說,

當年自以為最愛就是演話劇了,很投入很投入,但現在回想,

實在不能再解釋,也再不可能明白當年的心態。

例如說,

當年為了買偶像演唱會門票豪花2000大元,但現在已經沒再在乎這偶像的動向。

例如說,

以前天天在玩的icq跟xanga跟hkflash。

例如說,

一段友誼,當年明明是無所不談的摯友,現在彷如陌路人。

好,就算再timeless的友情,始終都會有一方死先。(orz)

所以說,

zoom out 一點,把 t-axis 的range拉長,

可以在地球混的日子已經夠短了,

在時間洪流裡的我們實在很眇小。

煩惱來到也實在是 no big deal,就像board game 《game of life》一樣,

因為很快就會過期,一格就跳過了。

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驚覺,大學生涯就快過一半了。
嗚。。時間可以放慢一點麻?
The institute is truly my home far away from home.
拖鞋,睡褲,凌晨,教授,課室,可樂,埋頭苦幹。
infinite corridor,vassar street。
我怕我老了會記不起這不平凡的四年:(

虎年试笔

自從相遇魔鏡後,小貓就堅信,堅信自己是老虎了。

虎年的重頭戲包括:

  • 日本三個月的實習-對我而言,日本で働く是在‘嫁去日本’後的第二大夢想成真  萬一分的期待!
  • 二十一歲生日,要跟vicky lam 大戰賭城 .\_/.
  • 重回義工行行列:alternative spring break !! pledge alpha phi omega!!

虎年的小小目標包括:

  • 睡眠充足。因為睡眠+洗澡是一天裡最放鬆的時段~~
  • 做事要有交代。放少點飛機。
  • 停止乏味homogenous生活,掌握每任何機會。因為都可以作blog的題材(病態)

About

You can tell that she was nervous. she really was.

She was looking around unnaturally,
jiggling her dorm key,
biting her nails,
playing with her earlobe with the other hand.

still not sure what to do.
she unzipped her handbag, for nothing.
inside it contains the usual stuffs- wallet, mobile, ipod or maybe a DC.
she reached inside and pretended to look for something.

Well, not like anyone would notice her at all anyways.

good, mobile phone, great thing to keep my hands busy, she thought.
Hoping no one would notice that she actually already has a watch on her arm,
she grabbed it and checked the time.
she changed the phone from Normal Mode to Silent Mode. then Silent Mode to Vibrate Mode.
then Vibrate Mode to Normal Mode.
Put it back. Zipped the bag.
Running out of stuffs to play with, she felt as embarrassed as being naked. Sick.

Elevators.
Mixers.
Arriving early.
Waiting for someone who’s late.
Waiting to be called.

now you know why she always got her 4.7-pound macbook in her bag.
it’s her ultimate shell from awkwardness by making herself awkward. haha.

One of the Phonies Mourn JD Salinger

To me, JD Salinger’s life/work would be the closest thing to religion.
It’s something out of scope to understand or to follow, but it is an unexplainable, enigmatic inspiration.

It’s funny how I sort of ‘saw’ this book thrice in less than a month, I mean this month Jan 2010, no kidding. First time, it’s the favorite book of the protagonist in the movie played on the plane. Second time, the woman sat next to me on the airbus was reading the red-cover Catcher in the rye. Third time,  the day he died and before knowing he’s dead, I spotted this book in my friend’s bookshelf and we even talked about it and all. Boy ,was it scary. It’s sort of depressing , though, when you really think about it.

  • 媽媽,他是《麥田捕手》的作者。
  • In his 91-year-old life, there are only a few rare photos of him officially published.
  • Only one long novel is published in his life.
  • Though controversial, it is a required reading for every Eng dept in US high schools.
  • He has lived in complete seclusion and silence for half a century–to protect himself and his privacy from the entire world.
  • Even death, to protect his privacy, there will be no service or funeral wtsoever.
  • He had not received interview since 1980. His few rare interviews are — one with a local high school newspaper in 1953, one with the Times to express his anger on unauthorized publishing of his work, by phone in 1974.
  • He has 15 unpublished manuscripts in his safe. He considered publishing as a “terrible invasion” of his privacy.
  • And has its own labeling system, red– publish after his death, blue — with some editing.
  • His book is lethal /brainwashing— several assassination attempts are associated with this ‘bible’ in the murder’s pockets or hotel room, which they connect themselves with Caulfield’s feeling of alienation.
  • His love life was captivating. Joyce Maynard got a letter from Salinger (when he was 53 years old) at the age of 18 after publishing a story on the New York Sunday Magazine. They then lived together for 8 months after exchanging 25 letters. Then Salinger asked her to leave.
  • Joyce M. then wrote a memoir on their relationship after keeping secret for N years.
  • Joyce M.later  even sold the letters through Sotheby’s auction house! =O= but good that the winner decided to return the letters to JDS.
  • What’s interesting is that, Salinger has actually sent almost-identical letters to several young female writers and started relationship with, including his wife, his nurse, etc.
  • Such a legendary man.

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For quotes of Mr. Salinger, go search “salinger” or “rye” in this blog or even my xanga. Or some random ones below:

  • “It was that kind of a crazy afternoon, terrifically cold, and no sun out or anything, and you felt like you were disappearing every time you crossed a road”
  • “Boy, when you’re dead, they really fix you up. I hope to hell when I do die somebody has sense enough to just dump me in the river or something. Anything except sticking me in a goddam cemetery. People coming and putting a bunch of flowers on your stomach on Sunday, and all that crap. Who wants flowers when you’re dead? Nobody.”
  • “Don’t ever tell anybody anything.”
  • “I’m sick of just liking people. I wish to God I could meet somebody I could respect.”
  • “It’s funny. All you have to do is say something nobody understands and they’ll do practically anything you want them to.”
  • “That’s the whole trouble. You can’t ever find a place that’s nice and peaceful, because there isn’t any. You may think there is, but once you get there, when you’re not looking, somebody’ll sneak up and write “F*** you” right under your nose.”

沖縄に行く前に!

in a very 犯賤 mode.
i can’t stop thinking about classes when i’m having holidays.
similarly,
i can’t stop thinking about holidays when i was having classes.

can I be a student for life?? So I can learn and hv long holidays and face no competition (as in career-wise)?~~

there are many classes that I wanna take asap so that
1) solely for the holy purpose of learning– self-improvement/ add value, whtever u called it.
2) I could be more equipped with practical knowledge for internship interviews
3) i could share wht i’ve learnt with people or to enrich this blog/daily conversation with more solid info instead of rubbish.
e.g. all the classes that im taking next semester. i really look forward to learning those, especially fluid mechanics, accounting and probability.
e.g. transportation analysis, finance theory, microeconomics, optimization, operations management and game theory.

grrrrrrr………………

anyway. im going to okinawa tomorrow la

okokok….
wont bore you guys with every single details of my academic /daily life anymore
the next entries would be about  沖縄家庭自駕遊!!! ^_____^
time to practice my nihongo!! gogogoo~~~