happiness is my caffeine

its 4:58 am over here now
when i got really excited by something, i just cant fall into sleep at all.
this physical response shows how happy im to get the urop
(urop = undergrad research opportunities program)
and how ngao dai im at the same time because i duno wht’s gonna happen after accepting this “challenge”
am i capable? will i die becoz of extra 10 hours of workload? can i really take up the jobs?

see, asking all these stupid questions make me losing lots of sweet sleeping hours.
deah== and it makes me even more ngao dai because i hv to do my final study for physics tmr.

and its my 4th post on the same day. = =

@w20

recently watched movies:

(i never expect i will like this movie)

its 2:06am and im in this group study room at student center

bad news : 50% of my socks are lost. as in, 全部得一隻。。

anyway, i think i should stop the excess use of “anyway”……

anyway..i think...after getting this UROP
now i really seriously have to take things seriously  (see, double serious)
becoz its absolutely fine to upset myself or disappoint myself (maybe not)
but im at no position to upset my research lo barn , especially he chose me out of all the candidates (?)
so, in order to give good work in the research, i mean
i needa hv good balanced life too, if i screwed my schoolwork, i cant do the research well too
its really about responsibility,
its not mickey mouse game that i can pretend sick/headache/stomache to escape work
let’s prove to everyone that i am capable, legitimately capable

so seriously, its time to pull myself together seriously. (i got this 覺悟 everytime i screw sth up..=0=)

and btw
, i found that for good work, the one i wanna tell most is my dad. becoz i can feel he is really proud about it
then bad  stuffs i will tell my mum. becoz she will comfort me and makes me feel better, and lemme know that im not alone. ^3^
then for academic stuffs or real problems need to be solved, i will ‘consult’/farn my bro for professional advice
and i got this blog to share every single detail of my life!  this 4 important roles are like the 4 legs of a table. (?)

got the urop!!!

got the urop!!!!!!!!

so it means that there is 10 fewer hours in each week for procrastination
hopefully this tighter schedule with a wider variety will really push me to render my college life fruitfully

yayy urop!

hao la upon vicky’s request ~ i actually kind of did nothing in my interview
so i sent a kind  of long email to my professor afterwards

Dear Professor _____,

(deleted it..= = suan la hahaha~)

cogeneration

today i hv interview with my potential u-r-o-p lo barn
he asked me to do some prior reading on cogeneration and district heating
you know
I actually enjoy learning new stuffs /reading new stuffs that dont need exam or pset
things that really interested me, I will really pay my full attention to it
and i really want to keep reading more about it
so even MAYBE unfortunately I cannot be the research assistant at last (he said the competition is big)
i am glad that I have learnt more about this through his introduction and my reading
so…wish me luck la!

and his research paper is pretty interesting too
simply speaking it is to build greenhouses around power plants , so the CO2 can supply the greenhouse
and the research is about how to change current existing power plants into thermodyamically efficient cogeneration plants
which makes district heating possible in the US

ahhh so cool
suen la =_= good to learn some new stuffs.

鬱悶

boston’s weather fluctuates as much as my mood
2 days ago it was still warm and sunny, a soothing 12oC

and today it suddenly snows again with no sign..
and my dear professors finally did not reply my email for the weekend (cry)
anyway i still sent them one more to show how eager i am..
but hey, indeed i really wanna do this research ma……>o<
gum its really ying ma the project scope >o<
hope its not taken by other people yet…. ai suen la
slim chance…aaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

back from chester’s 3-hour-long office hour
god its so crowded soh dic..=_=
anyway gotta rest for an hour or so now and see wht to do next
and chester said its gonna be super difficult ……..Orz

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whenever i listened to 狂人日記 i will feel pretty 沈重….

another week started again, with a snowstorm.