Author: impromptuz

And the truth is

i want to go back to school…..

life is so suffocating. FML

ppl r soo absurd and phony and fake and cocky

i’m devalued in all sense and it doesn’t make sense

im experiencing time in full length every day

i’m expecting no privacy 24/7

sometimes i think life like this is slow-suicidal

jeez….. i’m absolutely lost

“Among other things, you’ll find that you’re not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You’re by no means alone on that score, you’ll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You’ll learn from them – if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It’s a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn’t education. It’s history. It’s poetry.”

– J.D. Salinger

Aren’t we pathetic

Life is but an empty dream
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Whenever someone is doing the same thing I’m doing / could be doing,
no matter how trivial it is,
I can’t help engaging my mind into an Imaginary Rivalry.

Living in intense competition,
Unconsciously we compare and calculate,
(who is better at this, who deserve that, who doesn’t deserve that)
The weak is teased, the strong is attacked,
and everyone judges /being judged on.

Maybe this is why,
My boss would quantify everything by scores.
My dad would relate every single thing with rankings.
And everyone defines a successful life by income and status.

btw, today hv half-day training at Exchange Square
the lecturer is from Ohio , so quite ‘american’
hope there could be more these kind of picnic-training sessions la XD

And I hope that

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well, only if I can.
that’s why the life after retirement
is always the greatest motivation for me to move on.

小一 五歲  一百一十公分

  • 我跟媽媽說  小息 沒有朋友跟我玩，媽媽買了跳繩給我，希望我會邀請同學跟我玩，最後，整整一年都是吃完食物盒的香腸後，自己跳。
  • 前文說過，把人家用來比賽的中文英文朗誦都練好，在家裡每天表演。
  • 作弊事件1：dictation要用student handbook 蓋著答案，我在handbook的第一頁寫好了要寫的字。其實完全沒有作弊的需要，只是好玩而已
  • 作弊事件2：聖經作業遲交了半個月，最後自己幫自己改薄，用紅筆打了勾，再寫一個 G- ，最後老師打給我媽瑪投訴，我在家裡哭，奇怪著為甚麼媽媽沒有罵。
  • 在校車上會跟五六年級的人玩包青天 （電視在播），坐在最後中間 （就是最危險那個位）是六年級包拯，小一二的是護衛，還有展昭等人。
  • 數學科 加減數不懂，每一次測驗前畫 一百個圈圈，再一個一個數出來，一個一個劃掉。

Modus Operandi

I am too happy after the easyass BBQ  gathering.
Happiness is not only limited to weekends!!
becoz of this..i’m just going to type
wht i’ve scribbled on my notebook earlier today
welcome to guess wht the original post would be like haaha:

– Modus Operandi synonym = routine

– underwent a spiritual crisis

– sycophantic?

– stranding

– Modern love column

– silence my  own skeptics with truths

– Andriod, Chroms OS, Bing

– enter a new phase

– NYT ‘look up word’ function is so cool

小三

跟爸爸聊天
突然記起了本來已經沈底的片段
but looking back, everything is like a dream.

七歲   小三  130cm高 數學功課
交功課前 跟好朋友對過後  我把答案全都改了
但是那時候  全錯的 steps 卻沒有改過

終於  副校長的數學老師  Miss Fong 發現了

一個下午  沒有說明目的   她叫我去副學長室見她
她要我站著  她一邊拿著我的功課薄
一邊用紅筆大力地 在我面前 一個一個圈去‘奇怪’的答案
一邊很嚴重地一問再問 ：“為甚麼你要這樣？為甚麼？”
一邊要我立刻答她 正確的答案應該是甚麼

我一句也沒有回答      我羞恥得 一邊低著頭
腳在震 手在震  耳鳴的很厲害  甚麼也聽不清
全身已經虛脫得沒力去應付這樣沈重的審判

最後 我半暈過去了

一撞就撞去桌邊   嘴角破了 在流血嘴角
我整個人沒力的  整個扒在地上面。。

然後怎樣
我也忘了
但同樣程度 的 我自犯的罪惡  同樣之後四年內
在 MCS 發生了六遍。

嚴重的 班主任激動地破口大罵：
“你做這樣可恥沒家教的事情 你還覺得你可以升中學嗎？”

完.