once upon a time
she was so aggressive and ambitious. she stood for all possible elections at school.
she signed up for activities and volunteer services. she participated in different activities.
she was active in class and teachers loved it. she wanted to shine. she wanted to be outstanding.
she was once so into drama performances and speech festivals.
she tried singing in talent quest twice, debating as captain.
she was cheerleader of her school House for 3 years.
she was elected president and even lead a team of 40 to organize a joint school exhibition.
she just has this insatiable desires for challenges.
she wanted to know more interesting people,
so she wouldn’t ever miss a chance in joining student camps and stuffs.
though her innerself, she always prefer to be alone,
wants to avoid eye contact so people wont initiate pointless chats with her.
listen to her favourite songs, immerse into her own little world, and shut the door.
she wants a quiet world, putting on her earplug and watch animes online.
but she knew very clearly thats not the way to success,
or the mainstream norm for a normal student.
she knows an introvert is just too absurd to others.
but gradually she’s so tired of it all and she gave up trying,
she will lead a life just the way she is and makes friends with people she feel comfortable with.
she don’t need a play group or a he-he-ha-ha hang out group, but a group of genuine soulmates.
she didnt surrender in her comfort zone,
but she is trying to fulfil her responsibility in different roles in life
without distorting her realself.
that’s why her favourite writer in all years is always 陶淵明.
it really depends on how u judge wht’s right /wrong, acceptable/unacceptable,
passionate to life/not, responsible to society/ not.
she’s just those kind of person that .neither have passion or disappointment to life.
just don’t trouble her then whatever will do.
one might argue that a life with no strong enthusiasism/motivation =
no improvement/thrill/excitement in life.
again its personal choice and this is the art of foldness.
disclaimer: whtever i typed above could be ignored becoz im kinda in a bad mood right now. bad mood just blinds my rationalilty leading me to type non-sense stuffs.
impromptuz 