In The Midst of Serenity

For years I have described my life as sin curve..
now I would rather say it is a simple straight horizontal line
no ups and downs, nothing particularly excited about,
nor especially feel sad about.
何を専門にするかまだ決めてないから、いったい何のために勉強してるの?
未来が見えない。唯我讀芒乎?

once again i asked myself this stupid questiion..why the heck im @ MIT
im so out of place..duno how to talk in ways like..
“so u cancel out the theta.. then u either take log on both side……”
“for problem 3, on pset 4, i mean 3b), the locus of the…..”
“in here you use the __Law, im absolutely certain that you are wrong”
and i really feel that ppl talks in a way generally which i found offensive…sosad.

下一個目標就大慨是找工作了,
which im totally not ready / dun even hv this mindset yet
我仍未找到努力的理由/推動力/火
太懶了,毫不積極, 又凍又難又多野做又剩
nothing happens to me..and im making nothing happen.

“每個人都在走自己的路,搞自己的遊戲,設定自己的對和錯的標準.
一切都是少少的,個人的,我們的時代彷彿是個沒有標記的年代,
連叛逆的題目都找不到,因此我們退到小小的自我”

最近すごく寒くなってきた。。いやぁぁぁ

sat for 1.050 review session tonight……..man……
i duno wht to choose really..summary
Environmental Engineering— Challenging +remarkable but low GPA
Management–being despised on but high GPA with good job
Biology–challenging + high GPA + no job

must try item.

The Kawamura Fellowship is open to students at Harvard University and MIT. Each year, the Kawamura Fellowship invites up to four students, with keen interests in Japan and diverse academic and extra-curricular backgrounds, to visit Nagoya, Tokyo, and other parts of Japan for approximately five weeks during the summer.The approximate duration of the fellowship is from July 5, 2009 to August 8, 2009. The fellowship covers all transportation, accomodation, and related costs when in Japan, and offers a $1000 stipend to each Fellow, often used for travel in Asia after the end of the program.

大陸人飯局

今晚random 地去左一個 pure 內地人既飯局

果然風格同文化好唔同 認識下都好既

“同志們, 咱們結帳吧!”  我即刻望下大家既表情 大家都正常樣

但我其實係勁想笑

well anyway 今天學了什麼叫做”保送”

然後原來全台人都係 “保送” ~

3:59am

可以只因不想睡而不睡,幸福.

帶著耳機,在暖氣發熱板前,放鬆神經

在星期與星期的中間悄悄歇息,忙裡偷閒

不用對話,只與心靈對話,幸福.

不用介懷英文文法,不用理會修辭典故

鍵盤流露出來的思緒,就是最真實的情感

從 Fall Formal 回來,總結就是,這樣的生活真的不適合我

偶然抱著見識的心態去一兩次就好了,總覺得無謂

就當是穿穿裙子的機會吧
if decision/choice-making progress could be
completely independent to others’ feedback,
solely following my own true will,
what kind of person i would become now?
how distorted i am from my true self?
i’ll never find out.

________________________________ face the reality.

Sat
Laundry
Print PSETS
FAS Field Measurement at 1pm
Sycopasian Practice 3:00pm
Hotpot 6:00
Sun
MPhy due 11:30pm
Syncopasian 2:00pm – 4:00pm
Mon
L25B CC3
Reading 25B(1-3)
Goldman Sachs :  12.30pm – 2.00pm Room W20-307
Prepare Expt 4 + read 8.3-8.4
Tue
*Call dad say happy birthday at 12:00noon
MPhy due 11:30pm
Kanji Quiz #7 (L25B)
Reading 25B(4-9)
First version of Essay # 2 due
Read OCW site for “Black ships and Samurai”
Wed
Lesson Quiz #3 (L25)
Reading 25B(10,11)
read Phy 8.6
Thurs
L26A CC1
Vocabulary Quiz  26A
Structural Pattern の宿題(26A)提出日
8.01 PSET due 11:00am
18.02A PSET due 12:45pm

Read The Sushi Economy selections. (Stellar)
Fri
5.112 PSET 6B due
Phy Quiz 4 Momentum