have a nice day

just that, as a front desk worker, I can never say “have a nice day” very sincerely
as in Chinese it is like “我希望你會有美好的一天！“how awkward is that to say to a stranger…
in the beginning of the job apparently I have no sense of these american-style front-desk etiquette
man, you know it takes me so long to slur this “have a nice day”  out..haha
and someone said to me that “have a wonderful day!” to me, it sounds like disneyland advertisement

so other things are like
“hey how are you doing”
“good!! you?”
“good!”
this 3 seconds pointless conversation is just long enough to substitute the weird stare/smile.

anyway, I think my english is getting worse.
not just grammar, but my spoken english is so bad haahaha
if you ask me about my regrets in life , one of them would be I could never get rid my Hong Kong accent
well some people will politely pointed out that “hey, you have a slight british accent”
and some will just say “hey where are you from?” …..
well, I think before working on my accent..i better polish my phy/math/bio to the mit standard first…sigh

sigh
3 exams.
i dun wanna study.

sometimes i feel strange that
im just acting the life for myself…duno how to describe it
as language itself limits concepts ,
its like , my soul, is working for this body and this name
trying to fulflil this person personality
but actually, my inner self is not really myself.
u understand wht im saying/

and i always feel like im repeating myself in this blog
i got this feeling that i have actually typed/said the exactly same thing here before
( a deja vu blog-wise?)
maybe its because i tend to store a thread of thought in my mind for so long
and its kind of assimilated and become a part of me
so everything i typed here is so familiar
and i got the ability to say the exact same lines without realizing it,lol

man, am i tired

Friday
Japanese exam 1 (already fried because i woke up late hahhaha)

Sunday
MPhy 9:00pm

Mon
Bio exam 1 12noon-1pm Walker Gym bring calculator (Lecture 1-8)
Japanese Vocab Quiz 19A

Tue
Multi Cal exam 1 1-2pm 4-159 lecture 40-47
Phy (10 questions long – hahaha) PSET 3 due
19A CC 1-3

Wed
work 9-11
18oh3 Exam 1  1-2pm

Thurs
19A CC4
Kanji Quiz 18

Fri
19A CC5
18B reading

障礙

as a folded person for so many years
there are some form of communications i reallllly hate to do
my interpersonal skills are dying hahhahaha

1. talking on phone
i should say, im so weak at chatting on phone..
if u know me, i really hate talking on phone, because i dont know when to stop, who to say byebye first, i afraid deadair, i dont know how to generate topics and sentences in real-time, i always can’t hear clearly, and people always can’t hear what im saying, especially in english.  i just want to cut the phone ASAP.
so im pretty doomed if i need a telephone interview, because i will be freaked out already ..
so if i got a choice, i wont answer , and i really hate my ringtone.

2. face-to-face
my tolerence  VS face-to-face gatherings is e^-kt

3. dinner, shopping, walk on streets
these are pretty fine for me. i can pretend to eat, pretend to drink water, pretend to look at stuffs, pretend to check SMS, so i dont have to deal with one person with full attention.

0. unlike you, its such a pain for me to arrange stuffs in alphabetical order.

1. because i have to sing the ABC song to count from A-Z.

2. I got long hair …back in 1995

3. emoticons: =_+ @_@ =P , + ive explained and promoted “orz” to so many ppl, orz

4. i’m ambidextrous, which means, i can eat noodles + do HW at the same time.

5. i really hate people saying “wahh so red” when im blushed -_-

6. I collect movie/transportation/theme

parks/musical tickets since 2002

7. I actually play the cello

8. I hate talking on the phone, so much.

9. I started and finished all my uni apps in Tokyo.

a. best time in a day: shower, sleeping, eating, commuting

b. My retirement plan: visit a new country every year and learn the language. say join a 1-year language course.

c. i check emails for like 15 times per hour

d. and so do you.

e. follow HK time zone @ US, and follow US time zone @ HK

f. i always use “@” because im confused when to use “at” and “in”, i know its stupid ..”

eason

actually its pretty good to work at night
sleep from 6pm – 1am , the time period when everyone would probably try to annoy you
msn with you, ask you for this and that

then from 1am all the way 8:00am, its only you, with your books and your MP3s on
you got no one to play with, no one to blow water with
the only choice in the absolute silent room is to study, or surf the net until you are bored
and you will find out, you have fully utilized the time in the 8 hours
then you go to sleep again, then go to class at 12 nooon

hey i know it is absolutely abnormal , haha its indeed an option when i got much work to do

頹廢 在最深的夜
一個人獨處 我竟然會
愛上那感覺 安靜的很絕對
喝一口咖啡 繼續打幾頁
累了平躺我就睡 習慣了凌亂中被了解
桌面上厚厚的紙屑 我可以從裡面再寫出一個世界—陳奕迅:煙味