緣份

Tonight, I decided not to do anything. (just like any other late nights.)

I think the only problem is– I should stop welcoming my own lame excuses

any kind that will stop my progress.

I think I should stay in the student center except for sleeping

one is for the air-conditioning, second is, the environment would really push me

dang, instead of going back to work, i dont mind taking summer classes

another thing is, i dont really like people asking how my MIT life is: as in, to me,
they r trying to find out whether I am folded, doomed, antisocial or what
sample question: so what do you do in weekends? who do you hang out with?
how’s classes? do you have anything to do except studying? how well are you doin.
my interpretation: what im doing now is JUST exactly enough to deal with these
kind of questions. honestly, non-academic stuffs are really just to tell myself and tell
others im not a nerd , well

Last thingI wanna say today is,
I dont like random strangers bumping into my blog ,
or people that i totally have no relationship with
as mentioned in my previous entry, how i shape myself in front of people
is a totally contradiction with my honest self- presentation in this blog
sometimes, i dont want random people knowing me in deep-shit.
keep the good image is good enough. too much info is no good.
anyway…if you are reading this blog, it is still kind of 緣份, so, ok la

hot hot hot

very hot…no aircon…30 degree. T-T

today acapella i went for audtion for singing soloist again
but as i didnt prepare at all so i didnt get it
well anyway, chances are given to the prepared ones
but i do think i sing quite okay =P happy~

Major: Environmental Engineering Science
Minor: Management and Japanese or Energy

=(

im worried
i dun want summer to come, i wont e able to make any positive contribution
i duno what to do if im paid to do something
that i have 95% probability to screw up
and its for 3 months, i will be defeated every day ….=((((((
feeling sad and inferior for my whole summer…every week…
i will keep letting people’s down, making myself and others disappointed
but they are bounded to keep me becoz is 3 months long….and i have to do it too
and ppl will be very harsh and demanding..
they will scold me and hurt my dignity….
but im just a piece of rubbish going there….
the things i hate most is appearing being foolish….
but now im in a situation that i cant avoid being very foolish and a bak chi…
i dun nothing about these……..
wuwuwuuuuuuuuuuuuwuwuwuuwuu

but this is namely challenge.
doing something out of your ability but within your potential.
damn but isnt 3 months just too long, its like 25% of a year!!!!

im truly very worried.
but i guess they wont have high expectations on me neither =_=

Fakebook status

i really think what people put on their facebook status
is quite an accurate reflection of wht kind of ppl he/she is.
AT LEAST, the image that he/she wanna build up.
here are some examples (they all are real) and see how different they are:

1. XXX got straight-aced in his first semester.
(a very cool statement, fine, ok)
2. XXX aced her xyz test! yay!!!! =D
(i prefer no.1 then this…this is like =>OMG LMAO i got an A!)
3. econ 101   ♥

or like
1. GO MIT TEAM !!!
(but i never see that person getting passionate in any sense in real-life)
2. XXX is doomed.
(ahh~ i like this, seriously, i like to see ppl in deep shit haahaha)

anyway, for myself
what i typed in my facebook status is really very very fake hahaha
it kind of shows what i wanna shape myself as
but totally untruthful XD

I just spent 7 hours on my UROP. FML.

MIT 必勝法

after stumbling through two semesters,
getting lost, falling into deep shit,
getting good grades, crying for bad grades,
doing pset, and anti-group-studying,
here I come up with a MIT ひっしょうほう！
（まあ、人によって違うけどね。）

[disclaimer: i just believe that if i follow the ways below next sem, I will have significant improvement.I failed to do the things below so I guess thats why I am not maximizing my potential at all]
1) Befriend your TA.
they know the answers. they are the one who grade you. they are paid to teach you.

2) Don’t EVER miss recitation sessions.
even lectures are useless, recitations are not.

3) take neat notes.
u’ll lose the passion to study when u’re busy searching for relevant inelligble notes.

4) Don’t feel clueless.
i.e. dont-leave-all-your-stuffs-to-the-day-before-exam-and-study-everything-by-brute-force. it may work but there are better alternatives to get even better grades. …that’s what i do for all exams this term.

5) Some study time every night even there is no homework or tests.
because you will feel so much better and prepared ..instead of ending up begging people to teach you or giving you so-called hints.

6) Don’t miss anything because you won’t want to beg for notes from others.

7) PSETs are much more difficult than exams. i.e. do PSET smartly

8) Don’t have to prepare before class. but must review after class. your professor is not that good.

9) WHAT YOU WORK IS WHAT YOU GET FOR GPA. U ALREADY X-ed your freshman GPA. so please ganbatte.

(man, but i still have U-ROP to do…and then acapella spring concert is coming up…ahh…and then i still hv to wake up at 8 for my part-time job…ahhh but ….)

10) there are still 1 exam 3 and 3 final exams, so please do 1-9 SERIOUSLY next week to try them out.