僕は君を 信じたけど 君が消えたらどうしよう
考えると止まらないよ 何も解らなくなる
僕は嫌だよ 君がいいよ 離れたくないな
飴玉食べた 君が笑う
僕は君を 信じたから

my bro’s visit triggered me to really think and evaluate my life right now.

|who m i. what am i . am i too lonesome?
even i think i could be independent, i feel so relaxed when my nro is here as i got someone to rely on
i could burst into tears by any kind of encouragement or criticism.

i really appreciate someone appreciating or acknowledging my hard work.
i want approval and congratulations.

i am generally hostile but is self-protective-nature-driven

i need entertainment and a kiddish mind sometimes
i am very weak to criticism, so i choose to block all feedback pathways,
becoz i care about feedback so much, so i better kill the chance of seeing them.

i love and is good at data collection and sharing.

i hv  risk-phobia. but if it could ease my pain, i will go for it.

im an introvert.

i like to escape fromignore//postpone tackling big problems

i love to sleep and play.

i have unbearable an unpreditable emotional change.

i am still immature in many aspects.

i am not ambitious in nature. just to survive i reluctantly strive for competitive advantage

i have my strength but is faded by my constant fear of being foolish / failure

i need help. but have no courage to ask for help

i love my bro and my family. they are my spiritual backbone.

after all im no one special,

just a shy sister who needs support and love.

(eh my entry title got nothing related to anything here XDDD)

went to six flags today, wow so cool to go to an amusement park on weekdays:
1) No queueing needed for any rides or taking pics with cartoon characters
2) super goood weather!!
3) got the batman ride photo for free XDDD originally is $10, but their computer short jor
4) bought candies..and found out its Sweet Tooth Wednesday 20% off !!
5) of course, won a super big Dino the Dinosaur XDDD now its put beside my bed hahhaa~~~
6) 1.5 hours drive from boston, listened to eason’s new album on the way
7) definitely fun to play with my bro

yeahh ^^