Fakebook status

i really think what people put on their facebook status
is quite an accurate reflection of wht kind of ppl he/she is.
AT LEAST, the image that he/she wanna build up.
here are some examples (they all are real) and see how different they are:

1. XXX got straight-aced in his first semester.
(a very cool statement, fine, ok)
2. XXX aced her xyz test! yay!!!! =D
(i prefer no.1 then this…this is like =>OMG LMAO i got an A!)
3. econ 101   ♥

or like
1. GO MIT TEAM !!!
(but i never see that person getting passionate in any sense in real-life)
2. XXX is doomed.
(ahh~ i like this, seriously, i like to see ppl in deep shit haahaha)

anyway, for myself
what i typed in my facebook status is really very very fake hahaha
it kind of shows what i wanna shape myself as
but totally untruthful XD

I just spent 7 hours on my UROP. FML.

MIT 必勝法

after stumbling through two semesters,
getting lost, falling into deep shit,
getting good grades, crying for bad grades,
doing pset, and anti-group-studying,
here I come up with a MIT ひっしょうほう!
(まあ、人によって違うけどね。)

[disclaimer: i just believe that if i follow the ways below next sem, I will have significant improvement.I failed to do the things below so I guess thats why I am not maximizing my potential at all]
1) Befriend your TA.
they know the answers. they are the one who grade you. they are paid to teach you.

2) Don’t EVER miss recitation sessions.
even lectures are useless, recitations are not.

3) take neat notes.
u’ll lose the passion to study when u’re busy searching for relevant inelligble notes.

4) Don’t feel clueless.
i.e. dont-leave-all-your-stuffs-to-the-day-before-exam-and-study-everything-by-brute-force. it may work but there are better alternatives to get even better grades. …that’s what i do for all exams this term.

5) Some study time every night even there is no homework or tests.
because you will feel so much better and prepared ..instead of ending up begging people to teach you or giving you so-called hints.

6) Don’t miss anything because you won’t want to beg for notes from others.

7) PSETs are much more difficult than exams. i.e. do PSET smartly

8) Don’t have to prepare before class. but must review after class. your professor is not that good.

9) WHAT YOU WORK IS WHAT YOU GET FOR GPA. U ALREADY X-ed your freshman GPA. so please ganbatte.

(man, but i still have U-ROP to do…and then acapella spring concert is coming up…ahh…and then i still hv to wake up at 8 for my part-time job…ahhh but ….)

10) there are still 1 exam 3 and 3 final exams, so please do 1-9 SERIOUSLY next week to try them out.

Heihei hates holidays

relax, i never call myself heihei…
well for the sake of alliteration …hahha

i dun reall like holidays now
becoz everytime after some holidays or some breaks ..
my life after that is always in a mess, no exception.

so i rather keep myself busy and working and hosed…
if not everytime turns disastrous hahha

today:
11-12 noon study a bit
3pm – 5:30pm study in hayden library
5:30 – 6:30pm office hour + dinner
6:30 – 8:30 review session
8:30 – 2:08am , study room angry study

given that i just start my revision today, this timetable is normal ._.

I got a C!!

i got a C for my bio Exam 3 =D

hehehehehe well done well done!!!!! =DDDDDDDDDD

actually instead of getting sad, it is really 抵死 because:
1) i gave up doing 1 of the 2 psets covered, and didnt really do the 2nd one
2) I went to six flags on the day with lecture+recitation
3) the things covered is not covered in Bio IB at all
4) with that said, I still allow myself to study for us with only <24  hours
5) I didnt sleep well
6) I changed all my damn answers to the wrong direction in the last 5 mins
(you know, shit happens like this)
7) but cant really say about 6),
becoz i changed one question back to the right answers in the last 3 secs.

there are times that i want to jump off the windows (given there is 5000 windows in my dorm)
[mum, dont worry, im just joking]
how good if i could put all the problems aside. but it is a very selfish act to give up everything
and escaping from all the consequences that you
have made and leaving others to clear the mess for you.

煙腸

recently i dun really look forward to my summer holiday
becoz i have accepted a ridiculous 3-month challenge

it is so ridiculous that whenever i think about it i feel stressed
becoz
1) i hv never work for 3 months that long before, not even school ..sometimes schools got long weekend
2) i hv to go to work 9am every day from tai wai to central, and very long hours (not really a problem)
3) im working at the tech dept..but the fact is my tech knowledge is really really really really ABC level compared to theirs
4) i duno how big companies work at all
5) normal expectation is, i will do things wrong, making them angry, being scolded, duno whts going on
6) again, my tech knowledge is so bad
7) i duno how to deal with adults like these…
8) im bounded to work for 3 months and should have no excuse to terminate at any point
8.5) about hardcore work instead of blowing water..i duno how to make things impressive anymore
9) my mum said fortune teller said 2009 will be a very tough year for me

i really wanna reject the offer becoz i cant convince myself i could take up such a challenge

but i really have to stay firm and conquer my fear becoz :

0)if just becoz it is near-impossible and i refuse to face the challenge at this young, when im older, i will be too lazy to welcome any difficulties or failures to my life.
1) he knows you know nothing, you are freshman, you got room for mistakes in the beginning. if say, im already a year 3 student and still perform like shit..then that will be a problem…
2) you wont be able to get a job at big companies like this with ur GPA anymore, grasp the chance
3) it will be a very valuable experience and a great start of career, it helps my further job apps too
4) you have made all those promises with ur boss and u hv him on facebook already
5) you still have time to polish ur tech skills a bit after final exams , there is 24 hours per day
6) prove to yourself that you are capable. or prove to yourself that you are not capable but you still tried.
7) to know the fact that i reallly wont like banks.
8) i will be jobless, and i only got 2 more summer for interns. cant waste anytime.
9) econ is bad, get a job like this is precious, dont be a badass.
10) learn to endure, be responsible for decisions that i have made.
11) its just intern, not long job, after 3 month u say bye bye

after this 3 months, if i could survive, i should become bulletproof of anything =D

a know-nothing bak chi work in tech dept for 3 months =
have korean oral exam every day for 3 months without knowing a word in korean

u surived many challenges, and you should ultimately conquer this one too.
no pain, no gain, ok. no regret, ok.
even its a wrong decision, try ur best to make it no regret, ok?