大dilemma@ bertrand’s paradox

i really think it’s the first time ever that

i feel so excited after reading an internship’s description.

maybe this is my true interest — tech strategic research that is not heavily technical but still relevant?

oh well, congras impromptuz in reaching (not counting myself) 10,000 views!
(i.e. ~in average 18 views per day XD ..orz)
thank you very much m(_      _)m

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so i accidentally felt asleep while i’m waiting for my laundry
supposed to wake up at 5:30pm..and now is 6:42pm

In this one-hour nap, I got a very random *dream:

  1. I witnessed someone, a random stranger, committed suicide falling off a building. I almost cried, the bang is so loud. Hayley’s car appeared and she said she knows the girl.
  2. I asked my mum to take a picture for me and my LPC friend when we are visiting a new Korean temple in Hong Kong. Turn out we suddenly have a lip-to-kip kiss, with his hands on my cheek. (=O=) my mum pushed the LPC friend away. hahahaha (dur i feel so sorry about myself and that friend..@_@ i dun really meant to hv such a thought)
  3. I also spoke with a bunch of cool Korean teenagers in Japanese. (??)
  4. Suddenly all my teeth become so brittle, they started to , not exactly fall off, but fall into pieces. I hv to pick them up one by one from my mouth.

冬日裡洗過的太陽

今天開動了“活躍外向健談” mode
幸好還沒有生鏽，但今天的human interaction完全超出了quota
吖疲れたー

發現用不同語言的自己都會有不同的性格
例如，
普通話的我 是真的比較健談長篇，因為我要用到普通話時都是暢所直言的。還有寫blog都是用普通話輸入法，所以都比較真。
廣東話的我都是比較簡短間斷，因為在香港的自己不太喜歡講話，都在msn，hahaha。
然後英文的我是超級尷尬害羞，帶口音，因為感覺外國人常常都要我講兩次，自信減低。
講日文的我是緊張膽怯，那因為真的不太會講。

開始懂得去平常心面對生活中大大小小的不如意。

a few words on ghost pine.
it is very saddening…i couldn’t really describe my feelings in words.
there’s a natural emotional attachment that has rooted in my heart for so long.
it’s symbolic and important in embodying our maryknoll spirit and memories…
sigh. goodbye ghost pine, you will always be in my 11-year MCS memories.

Spiral into Spring

Classes in Spring, in the order of difficulty...let’s see if I’ll still think in the same way in April :S :

6.041: Probabilistic System Analysis
My second Course 6 (i.e. EECS) class. Notoriously difficult psets, and even more difficult exams. There are lectures, recitations and tutorials. I have no idea how challenging it will go, for the time being I will just try to catch up…: S

1.060: Engineering Mechanics II (Fluid Mechanics)
After leaving MCS, I once swore that I will never ever touch Mechanics again. Surprise, surprise, here comes the 3rd round of Mechanics class in MIT. In Structural Mechanics class its all static..now things will flow omg. The professor is very humorous I like him. and its entirely chalk-and-board teaching, which is great.

1.020: Lab II
I never thought I have to worry too much about lab class. Well, not that it is difficult to ace, but it is time consuming in preparing the pre-labs, weekly lab quizzes, team meetings, plans etc. The class is on electronic signal conditioning/sensor and energy harvesting. First lab today, seems fun, have to keep my lab book clean and neat!

14.01: Principles of Microeconomics

People always said this is a very easy class. Really?? Becoz I dont think 14.02 is easy at all ..the exams and psets are so mathematical, the average is low.  I could have waive this class if I did well in IB though..haha but I didn’t.

15.501: Corporate Financial Accounting
Another class without powerpoint –they use those transparent plastic sheet and project xxx…what is that projector thing called?! There are fill-in-the-blanks in the lecture note..so jin….anyway….accounting is sth I truly want to learn too. coz I never quite understand those Q1 Q2 Q3 Q4 reports. Hope it is as straightforward as I expect la.

Monty Hall Problem

Top-1o-random-List of otaku/hea websites I recommend..and it pretty summarized my virtual life:

  1. Unanimous Choice: facebook. bejeweled, friends’ note and groups recently joined. news feed.
  2. Current Affairs:Yahoo! or Google News. On.cc or appleactionnews is even better. TMZ.com
  3. MIT chapter: MITFML.com, isawyou.mit.edu and classmates.mit.edu. baseline, Stellar. haha
  4. For a laugh: discuss.com.hk, HKGolden, youtube, big bang theory at tudou.com
  5. Intellectually engaging: NYT opinion. friend’s’ blogs. or OCW! haha
  6. Chat with someone: oregle.com, MSN, skype.
  7. Running out of ideas: Read xanga subscription. Yahoo! Movie.PhDcomics.com, woot.com
  8. E-mail. Write some random emails. and wait for response.
  9. Read Lecture powerpoint before hand. SICK…and pathetic.
  10. READ THIS BLOG :)


Arbitrary Realm of Knowledge

3 points:

  1. 估下撞到邊個? 每逢禮拜三路線! 就三秒鐘，就是我三天的快樂糧食。沒有舉頭，慢一秒，就發現不到。

  1. Sense of alienation is killing. Too skeptical. Self-esteem is zero. Mental self-defense is infinite. Allergic to all the ‘others’ outside my intimate Circle of Trust. Data overflow in my mind. People, stop looking at me like that. Stop talking to me like that. Stop treating me like that. I would rather you leave me alone. No, I don’t want to tell you. No, I don’t want to know. Taking everything too seriously. But at least I feel closer to reality. At least it means that my friends and family have been too kind to me all along. This dark internalized fear of dealing with interpersonal activities is consolidating.
  2. 上五樓的快活很耐聽，《心的距離》讓我連想到陳奕迅另一首unplugged國語歌《狂人日記》。《狂人日記》比較收斂冷靜，然後慢慢升溫，層層遞進，有點長嘯問蒼天的激動。個人最喜歡陳演繹這句歌詞－很不羈 “我没有想过改变荒芜了的沙漠  我最疯狂的错 只是幻想童话的王国” 。《心的距離》一開始徘徊於灰淡的憂鬱情感，副歌開始越來越緊湊，然後突然震撼地爆發，特別是eason超具爆炸性的‘連環嘶吼’，歇斯底里地點出整首歌再深一層的情緒，推向高潮。而最愛的歌詞是“衡量你的心直線到我之間  沒有跨越的機會 ”，副畫面感，充分感受到這句詞所藴含的“乏力” 和 “不甘”，感染力十足。 (天音：so IB !!)