lostman

1. went to MIT send-off party today…FINALLY met Sungki and Sam (not the 1st time though) after msn chats for 5 months..hahaaa , felt so warm !! finally i got this ‘slim’ sense of belonging..it should strengthen by time!!

chishio once told me ロストマン is his favourite song out of all bump songs..now i know why..colored one r inspiring lines (節錄):

状況はどうだい 僕は僕に尋ねる
現在怎樣呢  我向自己尋求答案
旅の始まりを 今も 思い出せるかい
旅程的開始 現在何還記得嗎
選んできた道のりの 正しさを 祈った
我祈禱 選定了的道路是正確的

いろんな種類の 足音 耳にしたよ
我聽見了各式各樣的腳步聲
沢山のソレが 重なって また離れて
很多的在重疊著 現後又遠離了

淋しさなら 忘れるさ 繰り返す事だろう
忘卻寂寞 只是一直重複在做的事吧
どんなふうに夜を過ごしても 昇る日は 同じ
就算過渡了怎麼樣的夜晚 明晨又是一樣

破り損なった 手造りの地図 破爛的手畫地圖
辿った途中の 現在地 攀山涉水途中的現在地
動かないコンパス 片手に乗せて
一手拿著 不動的指南針
霞んだ目 凝らしている 集中矇矓的視目
君を失った この世界で
在這失去了你 的世界裡
僕は何を求め続ける
我究竟在繼續祈求什麼

迷子って 気付いていたって
明明注意到自己迷路了
気付かないフリをした
卻假裝不知

あぁ ロストマン 気付いたろう
呀 迷路的人 你注意到了吧
僕らが 丁寧に切り取った
我們小心地剪取的
その絵の 名前は 思い出
這幅畫 叫做回憶

君を忘れたこの世界を 愛せた時は会いに行くよ
當我可愛上這忘卻了你的世界 我就會來見你
間違った 旅路の果てに 正しさを 祈りながら
在這錯誤的旅路盡頭  一邊祈禱方向正確
再会を 祈りながら
一邊祈求再會

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Elixir of Quietude*

so my final Saturday before leaving was over.
had a big gathering with 28th jsecs committee and family friends.
3:08am. absolute silence.

all nights i was viewing some on-campus jobs available for freshman..and also any potential ‘winter’ internship. i know its kinda late for me to finally realize the importance of concrete work experience (as i’m re-structuring my CV again) honestly i’ve sent out my CV to around 8 companies in June but got no reply..just becoz my CV is very fai with no ‘work experience’ column. its like a jobless spiral then i will forever looping in (touchwood!)..and to start with, on-campus jobs/research assistants/ UROP should kick off my career life..well anyway..at last i couldn’t find any short winter internship, but there is IAP on-campus jobs…

after ‘confuzzling’ about my interns, then im thinking about my future career paths. usually follow by ‘when r u leaving’, ppl will ask ‘actually wht u really wanna do’..my answers are like ‘environmental consultant or government’ which i’ve no idea with. -_- would I end up in banking /consulting stuffs again (quite likely)? or give up my interest and study econ? (impossible-.-)..or goin to japan and get married??? (fine, dream on…@@)
future is still a big blank, but wht’s great about life is that, future is always in my hand. goin to college will (hopefully) give me a direction wht i really wanna do…(which ppl told me the same thing before going to LPC…LPC will let u know wht major u wanna do! =_+)

*a comment on martini made by E.B. White (the one who wrote Charlotte’s Web!)..well then this blog is probably my martini :) p.s. my next attempt is to write a blog without ANY emoticons..see how it works haha

殘忍不失慈悲

“中伸書院送iPhone招副學士 教育界轟助長送禮搶學生歪風”
佢真係送我即刻去報名!!

tonight bought a new schedule book (again..) while im filling in the tiny boxes “day by day” happily, i realized seriously there is no more free day. such a schedule ..won’t allow me to take Chem ASE, so better just leave it =D .. man, i can find a thousand reasons more for this..coz if i took Chem too, the only subject im dealing with is Math and Physics, which obviously is NOT the most thrilling combination to take. but anyway, im sure i will pass 18.01..and bio i still can’t find any substantial study materials..

pardon my unncessary parionoic-act..the word ‘school’ just automatically drives me academic :(

nah, so whtever i will be taking Chem, Math, Physics and Japanese in first term. then Phy,(Bio),War, Age of Reason, and Japanese VI in second term…. (well.. i should draft a statistic on the no. of posts i’ve written about my different courses choices….=__=)

some school-unrelated stuffs..going to comics festival !! yay!! but sadly im not wearing my yukata becoz i think its a very 7 act [sosad]..and hv da-bin-lo dinner afterward..how could i go da-bin-lo with my japanese costume on..? @_@ …

anyway..Happy August.

堅強不失溫柔

罪があるのは  諦めているから
有罪  是因為輕言放棄
罰があるのは  求めすぎるから
受罰  是因為奢望太多

15 nights later..i’ll be typing my wordpress in Cambridge. still, there r full-day fai hea days left in my schedule book..well luckily i’ve met those i would really like to chat with already in my early holidays. The next few big gatherings are ECS, family friends, disneyland with my mum (?), MCS friends, and relatives, then jao really byebye. I tried to study..but after my 3-day book hunting i still cant find my bio textbook..maybe i should rely on wikipedia? done 1/2 of the math syllabus..well integrals, its not sth i completely hv no idea with, at least i hv some sketchy concept remained in my mind (hopefully XD) suddenly i started to hv this strange feeling…i would miss my room, i would miss 68k to shatin plaza, and also my family except my dad. wht’s in front of me its sth i cannot define (yet), i cannot figure out, wht would happen, wht kind of incidents and ppl i gonna deal with…its a ‘wow’ thing but its also a ‘aiii’ thing…u get wht i mean..

so ppl i hv to really thanks are: benedict for proofreading everything for me, parents for financial support, gor gor for experienced advising, xg for undying support, amy bertha fiona-san my forever kizuna-ed frens, hayley and beenthai from LPC helped springing my best 2 years in life, MCS ppl reminding me i always hv a ‘last resort’, ECS ppl eliciting my confidence that i did successfully do sth big, kazu sempai unknowingly become my spiritual prop in my 2-year high school life; Li Ping for inspiring me in all facets; and everyone who has made an impact on me in these 18 years..sincerely..thanks a lot.

lastly, a random quote from the admission blog
“I also made it my personal mission to make sure everybody on the planet earth knew I had gotten in. No, don’t give me that humility crap, you get in and try to keep it a secret. I was excited! For that week and the week after I was probably unbearable but everybody was nice about it and put up with me.” quite true..”””” haha

step/fall in love

1st stop: Swindon, can’t find my book..again. no book no study. damn
2nd stop: World trade spaghetti house dinner! with been-thai with denise, max wu,keith, finally met gabby in this summer! and the food is really goood :) then da gay for a while
3rd stop: Club Sugar, no min charge and no entrance fee XDD whoo~ ordered Vodka Martini, haha such a crazy drink…(to me =_=) …anyway..happy chat with keith and kennetth back home, shatin ppl are always nicer heehee
4th stop: gotta go to shatin commercial press and cityU bookstore to find my book!! and hv to print some photos :) ..ah and get my back-up eyeglasses in shatin

definition of 宅男/宅女:

有上BBS、班版或部落格發表意見的習慣,現實生活中則不太喜歡跟同學講話。他們總是說:要瞭解我,去看我的部落格,不要現在問我。嚴重影響現代學生人際關係。
@_____________________@”” well..just ppl wont give a damn to ur bullsh!ting face-to-face, so ppl prefer writing it expressively,detailedly and thoughtfully in solitude ..but if this is one of the definition of otaku, then im definitely one of them hahaha

[unrelated title again hahahaha]