impromptuz

“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past. ” – The Great Gatsby

我是一位經驗老到的司機。我這淡雅的軀殼是我的房車。在高速公路上奔馳直衝，就算機件開始生鏽故障，輪胎開始泄氣，我對這愛驅仍然不離不棄。就算傷痕累累，被一輛又一輛耀目的跑車超越，我對這愛驅仍然不離不棄。我心痛地為車門的劃痕塗上色油，慨歎：「朋友，我跟你一樣無力。但請相信我，我不會放棄你。」

Not a well-known blockbuster, “An Education” was one of the nominees for the Oscars’ Best Picture back in 2009. Have briefly heard of the storyline a long time ago: a smart 16-year-old girl decided to give up Oxford for a relationship with a much older guy called David. She was excited that she could gain access to the glamorous life she has always wished for through David – auctions, nightclubs, concerts, restaurants and even her dream city Paris. In the end, her romantic fantasy eventually perished…for some reason.

In the movie she repeatedly questioned herself what truly matters in life. 1) “Action is character”, if we never did anything, then nothing can define our character.  2) “The life I want, there is no shortcut.”, everyone paves his/her own road to success/dream, there is no simple shortcut to say “been there, done that”.

Anyways, similarly I was as “dazzled” when I met my man in the beginning haha. He brought me to the world finest restaurants, drove me around with his Audi and taught me lots of stuff that I had no idea of before. After getting to know him in these 2 years, I realize how tough and challenging it is (in light of his jip jip personality :p)  for this bright young man to become who he is today. Compared to the 24-year-old Her, I was way too aimless and laid back. He motivated me to become more “aware” of what’s going on with my life.

So to start off…might sound very random…I started to track my daily expenses (should have started ages ago.). It’s surprising, no matter how frugal I thought I was, there was quite a number of unavoidable one-off payments :/ ai…errr…ok this post is going out-of-topic…better stop here.

Anyway, one day, I promise I will visit Eleven Madison Park again. With my own power.

It sounds like a biiiigggg number..let’s see.
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Random thoughts

• It’s funny how we would forget things completely after some times..e.g. some websites we used to visit every day, friends’ names, stuff we learnt in classes not too long ago. Eventually all memories would be erased like a blackboard. Nothing really matters at all in the end.
• First time going to ChungKing Mansions. Interesting experience － indians in the building then gwailo in TST. Was I even in HK?!
• First time buying IPO shares..let’s see how it goes!
• First time waking up at 2:00pm in 2013 o_o”
• First time going back to office on a public holiday. No additional aircon service, super stuffy, thanks god there was a fan!!
• You know, It is quite impossible to carry out high volume of repetitive low level work when there is endless phone enquiries and e-mails and inspections in the day…love going back when there was no one in the office, and finally can K.O. those time-consuming tasks with my iTunes playlist on.

只要有足夠的時間，動力和準確的方法，事情基本上都能解決。可惜，缺少其中之一都足以讓我無了期煩悶。

話說下週是training week。Long weekend搭上一星期的training leave理應無比興奮。一方面欣賞公司對我們的積極培訓，另一方面手足無措。1）部門一直聘不了人。在4個vacant positions下，every single person，無論是秘書老闆我，都要一起分擔 at his/her maximum capacity。大家都是juggler，互相拋拋接接各種工作。所以absent for one week，要把事情再度攤分談何容易。2）Leave alone 日常routine工作 (which always peaks at this time of the month -_-)，五月尾將有幾個大deadline來臨。大公司文化，每做一個小動作都需要幾百重approval和簽名。無論我以為自己已start early，無論多次voice out 事情的urgency，還是delay delay delay，只能乾急乾急乾急。3）你會說，why not work from home？Well，我的工作性質沒有這個option…could be good or bad。五月，唔該你快d過去啦，我都想知f10n1會點解決到。thanks!

既然有這個no need work from home的option，我都儘量避免把工作的negativity帶回家，回家休息就是100％的休息。難得耳根清靜，乾淨得不帶一點痕跡。

得知加入residential以後，連續兩天到公司新樓盤showflat參觀。情況墟冚得嚇人。
隨扶手電梯直落，左右立刻有幾十張咭片插過來，幾十個飢渴的西裝少年潮電梯的方向直跑。
想掉頭走？太遲了。在電梯底的你已經被重重包圍。

wai你好危險呀，快d攞張卡片先啦！
一位在旁的經紀哥哥勸喻。

拿了一張咭片在手，有如拿到了免死金牌。大概是行規吧，經紀人潮隨即散開。

無論我多番解釋我在等同事，一位楚楚可憐的經紀女孩還是向我們懇求：
拜託你哋呀!如果我一日帶唔到兩個客入去，我公司會每日扣我哋$100架。。
我應承你哋我一句嘢都唔講，我淨係會跟住你哋咋。

讓她一起進來後，她的確一言不發，全程乖乖跟在後！
何必呢，連最後一丁點的尊嚴都要放下。

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我的b說
我總把70％的精力在fear & hesitation上。於是只剩30％去放在事情本身。

I am paid to outperform, not to fear this and that.