無論多麼壞 好心態
若早知最壞 尚能更壞
凡事都很壞 仍能 愉快
才是崇高境界
by the way, 以前非常迷“日本文化” ／”日本語“，
我依家嘅對日本野嘅興趣係得個零。
所以世界上每一件事都係有個expiry date的。
Feels like home
呢個weekend終於唔駛搭飛機，唔駛招呼任何人（好多時weekend都要見客），唔需要趕功課（雖然其實我可以早少少做），終於可以flexible少少，個pace放慢少少去渡過星期日嘅24小時。
當我係呢89平方米嘅空間遊蕩，我突然發覺到原來我對於呢個新居終於有”feels like home”嘅gan jue。來了蓉城10個月，至少我對於呢個新居已經冇咗「我其實身在異地」嘅不安感。
記得有一晚，11點幾外面落好大雨。而我就係屋入面開著吊燈開著冷氣開著電視睇新聞報導，個感覺真係好安全。（雖然呢間屋會甩磚哈哈）
當我突然連續兩日都咁有雅興寫blog，應該我姨媽又快到了～呢個indicator係非常準確的哈哈
凡事都很壞 仍能愉快 才是崇高境界
圖一：係成都參加咗一個random嘅日本花道插花班。命名為“正直高雅地一帆風順”。
圖二：夜跑成都5公里！（大家就估下我有冇真係跑完5k啦下，哈哈）
- （我都好耐冇好好紀錄下最近發生嘅事，未來嘅我一定會後悔我冇document好。）
- 8年了wordpress，多謝wordpress給了我這個自言自語園地。wordpress，earphone，床 係我嘅三寶。
- How am I doing? 依然都係一個非常糟糕嘅狀態，我只可以take a deep breath 繼續向前走。唔係點？
- 不過我已經好咗好多啦多謝關心，again啦，一定要scream for help。多謝好多前輩朋友同事嘅開解同分享，一個supportive嘅environment同埋好簡單嘅advice已經可以energize到我少少。
- 要認清楚自己人生嘅priority，而唔係老闆嘅priority。otherwise只會被abuse to death。對自己好d，食好d，訓多d。
- 原因係咁，我返工係photocopy room度虛脫到跌咗落地，之後就同wikipedia所講嘅panic attack一樣嘅symptoms。當超負荷嘅時候，我嘅身體係會跳fuse的。之後比公司車送咗返屋企。
- 我只有一對手，一個腦，24小時嘅時間。而冇人respect呢個fact。當你唔respect我嘅時候，我係冇可能繼續positive，能量滿滿咁做事。
- 我依家只係想ensure一個星期之內至少有一日係do－nothing day…
- btw 琴日右手手指公受傷了要貼膠布，原來冇咗右手手指公係超級唔方便架！surprise 哈哈
“The first is to be just as incredibly or maybe even as delusionally positive as possible. It’s a very cynical place out there sometimes and that cynicism will eat at your energy and your potential. And to fight it, you should smile with every atom in your body, you should smile first thing in the morning, you should even, this is something that I actually do if I’m in a bad mood, force yourself to smile. It releases things in your brain. You should smile with your eyes, your mouth, your face, your body, at every living and non-living thing that you see. You should recognize that the grass is greener on your side of the fence and even in the 1% chance that it’s not, just convincing yourself that it’s greener will be a self-fulfilling prophecy.”
what’s the problem?
Having 148 tasks on my task list…
Besides complaining to HR that my boss is abusing me,
let’s see what I can do here
- I slept too late, unable to wake up earlier in the morning.
(Solution: Take shower earlier, dry hair earlier, go on bed earlier strictly). - Things go crazy in the daytime (phone calls, conference calls, lunch meeting, long meetings), only early morning or late night would allow me to work.
(Solution: Go to work earlier to clear tasks that need absolute concentration. Unlikely I can do this though given I am nocturnal / always sleepy). - I do not delegate to my direct report properly. I do not trust his ability.
(Solution: Trust him! Ask yourself ‘can he do this for me’? if it is unimportant and easy to complete). - My accuracy is so low because I am juggling my tasks.
(Solution: Double check once no matter how busy you are.) - Forget have meetings.
(Solution: Mark all meetings clearly and review the schedule first thing in the morning.) - Can’t prioritize well.
(Solution: Prioritize by importance.)
2016北京之旅（4日3夜）
吊頸都要抖下氣，
最近嘅心理生理狀態只可以用“defeated” due to abuse來形容。
不過唔緊要，雖然我係被擊倒，端午節假期終於來了！
選址中國北京，一個自從中學時代就冇去過嘅地方。
行程outline如下，一如以往都係冇咩豐富行程，
minimal地去想去嘅地方就夠了。
如果有時間就再深化啦下。
Day 1: 神州專車來了個BMW 5-Series -> 馬艾薩蘭州牛肉麵 lunch-> 太古里 (Ice Monster) -> Opposite House Tea Time -> 四季民福烤鴨店dinner（排隊2.5小時，值！）
Day 2: 遇上大雨和冰雹o_o->芳草地 (我的港女男友買了50％ off的Ted Baker 包包）-> 度小月lunch->踩單車北京798藝術區-> Ace Cafe -> 看X-Men (嘗試了CGV電影院的Sweet Box二人座)
Day 3: 老石餃子lunch (在牆上塗鴉留名了）-> 天安門（天氣特好 APEC blue）->故宮博物館->景山公園（在街邊買了個頭飾扮娘娘哈哈）->踏上”北京市中心點”-> 小吊梨湯dinner->家樂福->在電視看了’Edge of Tomorrow’
Day 4: 白米倉胡同試最新electric bike prototype-> 回去INDIGO吃”中8樓”lunch->bye Beijing!
