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圖一：係成都參加咗一個random嘅日本花道插花班。命名為“正直高雅地一帆風順”。

圖二：夜跑成都5公里！（大家就估下我有冇真係跑完5k啦下，哈哈）

• （我都好耐冇好好紀錄下最近發生嘅事，未來嘅我一定會後悔我冇document好。）
• 8年了wordpress，多謝wordpress給了我這個自言自語園地。wordpress，earphone，床 係我嘅三寶。
• How am I doing? 依然都係一個非常糟糕嘅狀態，我只可以take a deep breath 繼續向前走。唔係點？
• 不過我已經好咗好多啦多謝關心，again啦，一定要scream for help。多謝好多前輩朋友同事嘅開解同分享，一個supportive嘅environment同埋好簡單嘅advice已經可以energize到我少少。
• 要認清楚自己人生嘅priority，而唔係老闆嘅priority。otherwise只會被abuse to death。對自己好d，食好d，訓多d。
• 原因係咁，我返工係photocopy room度虛脫到跌咗落地，之後就同wikipedia所講嘅panic attack一樣嘅symptoms。當超負荷嘅時候，我嘅身體係會跳fuse的。之後比公司車送咗返屋企。
• 我只有一對手，一個腦，24小時嘅時間。而冇人respect呢個fact。當你唔respect我嘅時候，我係冇可能繼續positive，能量滿滿咁做事。
• 我依家只係想ensure一個星期之內至少有一日係do－nothing day…
• btw 琴日右手手指公受傷了要貼膠布，原來冇咗右手手指公係超級唔方便架！surprise 哈哈

“The first is to be just as incredibly or maybe even as delusionally positive as possible. It’s a very cynical place out there sometimes and that cynicism will eat at your energy and your potential. And to fight it, you should smile with every atom in your body, you should smile first thing in the morning, you should even, this is something that I actually do if I’m in a bad mood, force yourself to smile. It releases things in your brain. You should smile with your eyes, your mouth, your face, your body, at every living and non-living thing that you see. You should recognize that the grass is greener on your side of the fence and even in the 1% chance that it’s not, just convincing yourself that it’s greener will be a self-fulfilling prophecy.”

Having 148 tasks on my task list…
Besides complaining to HR that my boss is abusing me,
let’s see what I can do here

1. I slept too late, unable to wake up earlier in the morning.
   (Solution: Take shower earlier, dry hair earlier, go on bed earlier strictly). 
2. Things go crazy in the daytime (phone calls, conference calls, lunch meeting, long meetings), only early morning or late night would allow me to work.
   (Solution: Go to work earlier to clear tasks that need absolute concentration. Unlikely I can do this though given I am nocturnal / always sleepy). 
3. I do not delegate to my direct report properly. I do not trust his ability.
   (Solution: Trust him! Ask yourself ‘can he do this for me’? if it is unimportant and easy to complete). 
4. My accuracy is so low because I am juggling my tasks.
   (Solution: Double check once no matter how busy you are.)
5. Forget have meetings.
   (Solution: Mark all meetings clearly and review the schedule first thing in the morning.)
6. Can’t prioritize well.
   (Solution: Prioritize by importance.) 

吊頸都要抖下氣，
最近嘅心理生理狀態只可以用“defeated” due to abuse來形容。

不過唔緊要，雖然我係被擊倒，端午節假期終於來了！
選址中國北京，一個自從中學時代就冇去過嘅地方。

行程outline如下，一如以往都係冇咩豐富行程，
minimal地去想去嘅地方就夠了。

如果有時間就再深化啦下。

Day 1: 神州專車來了個BMW 5-Series -> 馬艾薩蘭州牛肉麵 lunch-> 太古里 (Ice Monster) -> Opposite House Tea Time -> 四季民福烤鴨店dinner（排隊2.5小時，值！）

Day 2: 遇上大雨和冰雹o_o->芳草地 (我的港女男友買了50％ off的Ted Baker 包包）-> 度小月lunch->踩單車北京798藝術區-> Ace Cafe -> 看X-Men (嘗試了CGV電影院的Sweet Box二人座)

Day 3: 老石餃子lunch (在牆上塗鴉留名了）-> 天安門（天氣特好 APEC blue）->故宮博物館->景山公園（在街邊買了個頭飾扮娘娘哈哈）->踏上”北京市中心點”-> 小吊梨湯dinner->家樂福->在電視看了’Edge of Tomorrow’

Day 4: 白米倉胡同試最新electric bike prototype-> 回去INDIGO吃”中8樓”lunch->bye Beijing!

 

 

其實我最珍貴的回憶 / 達到absolute harmony的時刻，
都是我個人internal mind 與environment的interaction。
並沒有其他人類involve進來的。
這樣會很奇怪嗎？
這個是不能接受的嗎？

“I had lived my life one way and I could just as well have lived it another. I had done this and I hadn’t done that. I hadn’t done this thing but I had done another. And so?”