december 2007.

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But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

僕は君を 信じたけど 君が消えたらどうしよう
考えると止まらないよ 何も解らなくなる
僕は嫌だよ 君がいいよ 離れたくないな
飴玉食べた 君が笑う
僕は君を 信じたから

my bro’s visit triggered me to really think and evaluate my life right now.

|who m i. what am i . am i too lonesome?
even i think i could be independent, i feel so relaxed when my nro is here as i got someone to rely on
i could burst into tears by any kind of encouragement or criticism.

i really appreciate someone appreciating or acknowledging my hard work.
i want approval and congratulations.

i am generally hostile but is self-protective-nature-driven

i need entertainment and a kiddish mind sometimes
i am very weak to criticism, so i choose to block all feedback pathways,
becoz i care about feedback so much, so i better kill the chance of seeing them.

i love and is good at data collection and sharing.

i hv  risk-phobia. but if it could ease my pain, i will go for it.

im an introvert.

i like to escape fromignore//postpone tackling big problems

i love to sleep and play.

i have unbearable an unpreditable emotional change.

i am still immature in many aspects.

i am not ambitious in nature. just to survive i reluctantly strive for competitive advantage

i have my strength but is faded by my constant fear of being foolish / failure

i need help. but have no courage to ask for help

i love my bro and my family. they are my spiritual backbone.

after all im no one special,

just a shy sister who needs support and love.

(eh my entry title got nothing related to anything here XDDD)

went to six flags today, wow so cool to go to an amusement park on weekdays:
1) No queueing needed for any rides or taking pics with cartoon characters
2) super goood weather!!
3) got the batman ride photo for free XDDD originally is $10, but their computer short jor
4) bought candies..and found out its Sweet Tooth Wednesday 20% off !!
5) of course, won a super big Dino the Dinosaur XDDD now its put beside my bed hahhaa~~~
6) 1.5 hours drive from boston, listened to eason’s new album on the way
7) definitely fun to play with my bro

yeahh ^^

1）剪頭髮選擇:
間間都幾好咁，間間都試得過 VS 間間都樓上褪色紅字 標階體 髮廊 ，間間都試唔過

2) 髮型師:
潮童 VS 潮州女子

3) 可hea的地方:
三聯千色買衫買鞋 VS 行街，literally 條街

4) 食:
脆香雞翼 盛惠港銀5蚊  鹽水雞飯 盛惠美金5蚊

星期一 VS 剪頭髮

1) both means = 由今日開始，我要重新開始拼命努力!

really annoying moments in life applied to everyone:
1) your experiment goes wrong, u called ur TA, and the experiment goes perfect right in front of him.
alright, then after he left, the thing screwed up again.

1.1) you can’t think of the solution to the exam problem, ah i duno i duno, and u know right away once
the examiner said” time’s up!!” …

2) you saw a bee in your room, u called for help, say sadia or my bro, then when u asked them to come,
the thing just DISAPPEARED..but in the middle of the night, it buzzed again …

3) your microsoft word autosaved every useless documents you have, besides the super important report.

4) dang, u need to call for help and your mobile phone ran of battery. and your phone charger is BROKEN = =

5) when you are so about to kill a mosquito, it just disappeared RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!!! =_=

I have told
all of my enemies,
very politely,
to go home

I have seen all of your remedies,
now won’t you let me please
go home

I can’t find anything to be sad about
They say I’m doomed but I feel fine

I have tried so very hard as hell
to stay away from hell
and live upstairs

But when I see all of your remedies
I try quite desperately to go home

But if I’m sitting here lonely
with no-one to hold me
At least I’ll have my health
I’m trying to control myself

I’ve been acting irresponsibly,
oh what could possibly go wrong
I have choked on all your remedies
now won’t you let me please go home

From:     xx@MIT.EDU
Subject:     8.02 Exam 2 Grade: Congratulations!

Dear Fi0n!,

Congratulations!  You scored 90 on Exam 2.  This is an impressive score,
with good improvement from the previous exam

yeah~~my first A in a phy midterm…XD