So Long、表参道。(4)

听筒的另一端,泪水令他连一句话都说不完整。

泣不成声的他,心裡的激荡被缓缓的秒针冲淡後,
电话中只剩下一抹沈默。

「到底发生甚麽事了?」未及,我开腔了。
「。。没事」
「工作不顺利?」
「。。不是」
「家里出事了?」
「。。没有」
「那到底怎麽了?你还好吧?」
「其实有些事情,我一直没告诉你。。我没有这份勇气。」
他哽咽著,似乎快要说不下去。

「例如甚麽?」
「我一直都在谈恋爱,直到昨天。」
「。。。她是?」我惊讶,亦顿时心碎了。
「你见过Vincent吧?他。。他不要我了。过去十个月真的好快樂,好快樂。。」
他真的说不下去了。

而我,也真的说不出话来了。

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他出神地凝视著他那深锁的眉头。
Vincent弹了弹烟灰,淡淡说道:
「你要明白,炽热是不可以,亦不可能永远延续。」
过了这沈重如坯的三句钟,他吸一口气,
然後,男孩终於落泪。
哭是哭了,却连丝毫哽咽声也没有。

对著这突如其来的无声泪,男人只懂一味摸著无名指上的婚戒。
在摇曳的烛光下,泪水跟戒指的光与影 暧昧地闪耀交错。
遗憾的是,男人与男孩,却从此分道矣。

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品讀余秋雨

課堂淺析余秋雨作品《一個王朝的背影》和《都江堰》
重新燃點了我對中國文學與華夏文化追溯反思的小小熱情。

余在《一》為少數民族平反,歌頌大清王朝,
在漢化的中國社會中大力宣揚民族平等論,
竟然喚醒了我體內那半個沈睡多年的蒙族靈魂。
(其實我都係混血兒黎架~yeah)

余在《都》介紹這公元前最激動人心的偉大水利工程,
對於李冰父子的治水偉業,作者以一句總結:
“都江堰不坍,李冰的精魄便不會消散,轟鳴的江水就是至聖至善的遺言”
讓我意識到我現今正修讀的dams and gates, 確能造福萬民。

記得五年前在深圳書城千挑萬選,買下了他的散文集《文化苦旅》
可惜書的主人總被簡體字挫敗,書只好一直待在書架上原封不動。
啊,很敬仰那些字字珠機的文學賞析人!~

Who will walk me back to reality?

這個夏天越來越荒誕,題材泛濫。就來個與別不同的週末白晝,独りぼっち喫茶店でpull thoughts together,我覺得有這個需要 before things drive me crazy。(and one could truly enjoy a cup of coffee only @ holiday :p )

(1)星期五大老闆特意走過來拍拍小妹肩膀:「f10n1, well done, very very impressive」。二老闆也寄個email過來cc給老闆,subject line為:「thanks for all your help this week. Stellar (dictionary-ed –>似星的,主要的,顯著的) job!」「踩行油」make a difference 的決心沒有白費!

(2) 今早石鏡泉在「投資新世代」電台節目旳股票推介竟然in line with my stock ideas,hehe。可惜「眼看手勿動」,擺明有upside又點。Another thing is,這裡的trade下下都幾十幾百million\球\buck USD,in fact 我係無感覺的,因為it’s totally out of scope to 領會,I have no idea how much it actually means..unless one day I become a billionaire myself lar har. Anyways it’s gd that I hv such an exposure to this surreal segment of the world haha.

(3)Social quota 已經爆滿,三分鐘熱情到此為止。
如果getting back late once=全家擔心+每五分鐘收SMS/電話+比人問lee問lo+又比人bring up 我有病+搞到其他人擔心而內疚,諗起都無癮,我棄權。要搞清楚這裡是full of constraints的level 0 reality(像inception一樣的原理),不是美國日本lpc,要把年少輕狂的「why not」思想盡量收細。But 沒有紅燈的束縛那會有綠燈的自由?Well..my friends 你地慢慢玩啦~adios!

(4)遺留了手機,媽媽來了ifc拿給我。紅色花紋紙袋還有:1. 手機 2. 一條香蕉 3. 記事本 4. 頸巾

Appendix:
i. 到1881附近的mont blanc分店 試筆,店員一來就一句普通話:「小姐你好!」
ii. Lasalle仔老闆(yes 我有好多個老闆) 話 I do look like a maryknoller…really? Like how?

舒服哂~明天休稿哈哈

earthquake aftermath (a layman’s perspective)

(this entry is going to be very long….becoz I have no pset due tomorrow..hahaha)

(1) Nuclear Crisis

The nuclear crisis is a wake-up call for everyone–another high-risk, high-return investment.
but this time it’s not merely monetary risk, it’s real health risks to ppl nearby

ended up my Japan summer research was not entirely irrelevant to the nuclear crisis. What I studied and simulated is boiler tube deformation, or ultimately failure, under extreme high temperature and pressure in power plant. It is somewhat loosely applicable to the nuclear reactor meltdown in the Japan nuclear plant.

Earlier today I attended a technical briefing by the M1T Dept of Nuclear Science and Engineering, an absolute full-house packed with professors, students, Japanese community in Boston and even our MIT President. Given the short timeframe and the amount of concrete information available, it is understandable, but a bit disappointing, that the panelists weren’t able to answer many questions raised from the floor. Nevertheless, it is a clear summary of what have happened to the Fukushima Dainichi plant so far since Friday.

Long story short, after automatic shutdown of the reactor, decay heat has to be cooled down by coolant circulation. However the tsunami has disabled the pumping connection and the backup generator, so the cooling system failed. They are trying to inject seawater, but the water replacement rate is not quick enough to offset the boiling rate, then the fuel rod is uncovered. due to overheat and pressure, the containment vessel might breach, and release volatile radioactive materials.

Some other points that I haven’t heard before are: long-term implication of saltwater injection might have corrosive effect within weeks. Given its vulnerability to extreme tsunami,  a 2-meter tsunami barrier is not enough. the coastal nuclear plant itself or the backup generator/battery should be built at an elevated level in the future.

I think the department blog and this interactive feature of NYT explained pretty well. Thanks LCH for the latter link.

(2) Why does Yen appreciate after earthquake?
While I am cashing in on the earthquake through my yen savings,  I didn’t really bother to think why yen would strengthen recently…thanks blau for asking haha. Though this spike may probably be short-lived, it’s interesting to learn more about what’s going on in the FX world.

People normally would expect a weakened currency after disasters, e.g. NZ/Aus dollars dropped significantly after the Christchurch earthquake..coz everything is damaged and ppl won’t really expect the economy to recover fully in a short time. For yen, it is somehow appreciating in the past few days, what makes this Japan earthquake (or Japan in general, as Kobe earthquake in 1995 also triggered a +20% spike) different then?

At the end of the day it’s always about investors’ expectations. Domestic investors are buying back yen for different reasons for now, this substantial yen-cash inflow pushes the value of yen up. Some 自圓其說 reasons are:

  • Inflow of yen-capital for immediate domestic funding needs: companies might cash yen for reconstructions, insurance claims and possibly massive donations. To do this, they gotta repatriate their foreign savings and investments, i.e. a halt in cash outflow at the moment.
  • To limit equity loss: individual investors might sell their stocks (-16% in 2 days) and increase their cash holdings.
  • Hope: Some investors might expect a long-term increase in economic activity in an effort to rebuild the nation
  • Safe haven: safe yen is still highly demanded against other major currencies at global uncertainties. (though I dont really buy this)
  • Speculation

For why this appreciation could be a “knee-jerk” response, read here.