Category: I BS

苦悶

苦悶真是愈看愈驚心動魄, 因為生活的意義, 在苦悶時愈想探求愈易走火入魔, 不如先平心正氣, 把”苦”, “悶” 二者拆開, 分頭對付. 捱一下悶, 吃多點苦, 或許就會找到病源, 學奧巴馬, 改變, 改變不了, 失去改變的自由, 那倒不如降低要求, 減低代價, 一無所求故一無所懼, 天之大, 不只一種生活模式, 一種生存方法. 打機為什麼刺激, 就是有了挑戰, 向苦悶挑戰, 何嘗不是樂趣?

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活著” 不是來自於喊叫，也不是來自於進攻，而是忍受，去忍受生命賦予我們的責任，去忍受現實給予我們的幸福和苦難、無聊和平庸。”
“《活著》就是忍耐：對所有逆境苦難，包括最殘酷的，我認為每個人都應該高興地、愉快地去嘗試克服、度過它。”
–余華
《活著》同  《駱駝祥子》 兩書文筆簡潔, 夾雜方言白話,
所以睇《活著》都令我成日聯想起《駱駝祥子》
而且內容亦都差唔多, 講述主人翁進城後捲進種種風波
一個被國民黨捉去做壯丁, 一個比軍閥迫當苦力,
其後二人都承受左一次又一次巨大既苦難
但結果又好唔同, 一個成為走上了末路既行屍走肉,
而一個卻可以反樸歸真, 與老牛共度殘生, 正體現左作者係書背所寫既
“絕望的不存在, 活著的意義就是活著,而不是活著以外的其他東西”
作者/主人翁對命運逆來順受,不自悲,不磋嘆的態度就同《駱駝祥子》既主旨剛剛相反左
前者講述人與運既友情, 而後者卻係對被命運擺佈既控訴…
30年代同90年代既作品, 竟然有咁既異同, 真有趣~
(如果我IB 咁寫實囉1,1,1,1,1 都似 XD)
其實不看也罷, 但如果書展有discount的話, 大家可以一買

wth??

Diary on July 1 2004

好啦, 媽媽同我報左日文班啦, 日文..我最卑視人地學既language
估唔到我自己要學. yeeeee!!!!本來哥哥同我學架麻
但係佢宜家又唔學, 有冇搞錯呀 又要我做埋晒d我完全無興趣既野
唉也,好慘呀, 都唔知做乜, 我好憎日本仔架麻><“!!
你叫我學一d europe既language 我一定好想去學囉

haaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
can’t stop @______@ ing

haha love and hate can be sooo polarized and mutable sometimes

“讓我將生活徹底擊破 砌一個全新的我”

“philip, behave yourself!!!” —by 吳振宇 @ “衝上雲霄”

useless

所有事情只想令我更加快點離開這裡 只想時間快點accelerate
我的理由不夠說服力 就不是理由嗎

當同一告誡每日反覆出現 可以不被pissed off 嗎 你說
請不要再用你們放工回家所見的 就斷定斷言我整天也是這個模樣

不過也不用擔心了 被censor/monitor的日子很快,很快過去
時間快帶我離開這裡, 現在, 立刻, 盡快.
道別誰我也會哭，但唯獨擺脫你們，我誓不哭

most relieving moment:
woke up from a nightmare and realized it was just a dream
most haunting moment:
in deep shit and know clearly that you are in no illusion
difficult moment:
captivated by wild imagination,
and once such big-dream became reality, it loses its luster.
永遠に沈むような,錯覚に抱かれて
就像永遠沉了一樣 一直抱擁著錯覺
何処まで　正気に居られるのか？
究竟要去到那裡為止 才可真正神智清醒地存於此世?

by ben jones

  1. Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.
  2. Call someone you love back home a few times a week, even if just for a few minutes.
  3. In college more than ever before, songs will attach themselves to memories. Every month or two, make a mix cd, mp3 folder, whatever – just make sure you keep copies of these songs. Ten years out, they’ll be as effective as a journal in taking you back to your favorite moments.
  4. Take naps in the middle of the afternoon with reckless abandon.
  5. Adjust your schedule around when you are most productive and creative. If you’re nocturnal and do your best work late at night, embrace that. It may be the only time in your life when you can.
  6. If you write your best papers the night before they are due, don’t let people tell you that you “should be more organized” or that you “should plan better.” Different things work for different people. Personally, I worked best under pressure – so I always procrastinated… and always kicked ass (which annoyed my friends to no end). ;-) Use the freedom that comes with not having grades first semester to experiment and see what works best for you.
  7. At least a few times in your college career, do something fun and irresponsible when you should be studying. The night before my freshman year psych final, my roommate somehow scored front row seats to the Indigo Girls at a venue 2 hours away. I didn’t do so well on the final, but I haven’t thought about psych since 1993. I’ve thought about the experience of going to that show (with the guy who is now my son’s godfather) at least once a month ever since.
  8. Become friends with your favorite professors. Recognize that they can learn from you too – in fact, that’s part of the reason they chose to be professors.
  9. Carve out an hour every single day to be alone. (Sleeping doesn’t count.)
  10. Go on dates. Don’t feel like every date has to turn into a relationship.
  11. Don’t date someone your roommate has been in a relationship with.
  12. When your friends’ parents visit, include them. You’ll get free food, etc., and you’ll help them to feel like they’re cool, hangin’ with the hip college kids.
  13. In the first month of college, send a hand-written letter to someone who made college possible for you and describe your adventures thus far. It will mean a lot to him/her now, and it will mean a lot to you in ten years when he/she shows it to you.
  14. Embrace the differences between you and your classmates. Always be asking yourself, “what can I learn from this person?” More of your education will come from this than from any classroom.
  15. All-nighters are entirely overrated.
  16. For those of you who have come to college in a long-distance relationship with someone from high school: despite what many will tell you, it can work. The key is to not let your relationship interfere with your college experience. If you don’t want to date anyone else, that’s totally fine! What’s not fine, however, is missing out on a lot of defining experiences because you’re on the phone with your boyfriend/girlfriend for three hours every day.
  17. Working things out between friends is best done in person, not over email. (IM does not count as “in person.”) Often someone’s facial expressions will tell you more than his/her words.
  18. Take risks.
  19. Don’t be afraid of (or excited by) the co-ed bathrooms. The thrill is over in about 2 seconds.
  20. Wednesday is the middle of the week; therefore on wednesday night the week is more than half over. You should celebrate accordingly. (It makes thursday and friday a lot more fun.)
  21. Welcome failure into your lives. It’s how we grow. What matters is not that you failed, but that you recovered.
  22. Take some classes that have nothing to do with your major(s), purely for the fun of it.
  23. It’s important to think about the future, but it’s more important to be present in the now. You won’t get the most out of college if you think of it as a stepping stone.
  24. When you’re living on a college campus with 400 things going on every second of every day, watching TV is pretty much a waste of your time and a waste of your parents’ money. If you’re going to watch, watch with friends so at least you can call it a “valuable social experience.”
  25. Don’t be afraid to fall in love. When it happens, don’t take it for granted. Celebrate it, but don’t let it define your college experience.
  26. Much of the time you once had for pleasure reading is going to disappear. Keep a list of the books you would have read had you had the time, so that you can start reading them when you graduate.
  27. Things that seem like the end of the world really do become funny with a little time and distance. Knowing this, forget the embarassment and skip to the good part.
  28. Every once in awhile, there will come an especially powerful moment when you can actually feel that an experience has changed who you are. Embrace these, even if they are painful.
  29. No matter what your political or religious beliefs, be open-minded. You’re going to be challenged over the next four years in ways you can’t imagine, across all fronts. You can’t learn if you’re closed off.
  30. If you need to get a job, find something that you actually enjoy. Just because it’s work doesn’t mean it has to suck.
  31. Don’t always lead. It’s good to follow sometimes.
  32. Take a lot of pictures. One of my major regrets in life is that I didn’t take more pictures in college. My excuse was the cost of film and processing. Digital cameras are cheap and you have plenty of hard drive space, so you have no excuse.
  33. Your health and safety are more important than anything.
  34. Ask for help. Often.
  35. Half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at any given moment. Way more than half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at some point in the next four years. Get used to it.
  36. In ten years very few of you will look as good as you do right now, so secretly revel in how hot you are before it’s too late.
  37. In the long run, where you go to college doesn’t matter as much as what you do with the opportunities you’re given there. The MIT name on your resume won’t mean much if that’s the only thing on your resume. As a student here, you will have access to a variety of unique opportunities that no one else will ever have – don’t waste them.
  38. On the flip side, don’t try to do everything. Balance = well-being.
  39. Make perspective a priority. If you’re too close to something to have good perspective, rely on your friends to help you.
  40. Eat badly sometimes. It’s the last time in your life when you can do this without feeling guilty about it.
  41. Make a complete ass of yourself at least once, preferably more. It builds character.
  42. Wash your sheets more than once a year. Trust me on this one.
  43. If you are in a relationship and none of your friends want to hang out with you and your significant other, pay attention. They usually know better than you do.
  44. Don’t be afraid of the weird pizza topping combinations that your new friend from across the country loves. Some of the truly awful ones actually taste pretty good. Expand your horizons.
  45. Explore the campus thoroughly. Don’t get caught.
  46. Life is too short to stick with a course of study that you’re no longer excited about. Switch, even if it complicates things.
  47. Tattoos are permanent. Be very certain.
  48. Don’t make fun of prefrosh. That was you like 2 hours ago.
  49. Enjoy every second of the next four years. It is impossible to describe how quickly they pass.
  50. This is the only time in your lives when your only real responsibility is to learn. Try to remember how lucky you are every day.

Be yourself. Create. Inspire, and be inspired. Grow. Laugh. Learn. Love.

Welcome to some of the best years of your lives.

-B

very inspiring.
never bold so many lines before in a single post….