always feel like I am in a dream.
never hv this concrete feeling that
I am ACTUALLY present @ the “present” of @ USA/MIT/Cambridge/MA
im always lost in contemplation..
or simply blank out by emptiness in mind
or hving random thoughts threading up randomly…
or when i closed my eyes, psets, numbers, problems just spontaneously appear..
or the more serious case, when i hv my iPod earphone on, i just cant figure out why the hell im here.
hving Eason Chan’s, Bump of Chicken’s songs looping at my ear, mentally im 0% present in the US.
perhaps songs hv become my Madeleine*
(*Western cultural symbol of involuntary memory which stimulates an intense emotional response,
learnt in 21F.076 class today XD)

I can’t imagine how i can 渾噩 for 4 more years in here with such an attitude
that nothing seems to be real, but in fact everything is even more real than real.

I go to class, I come back from class, I do homework, I play, I talk, I eat, I sleep.
when life become insipid and mechanical, don’t you know i’m so tired of it all.
(naa i know it’s damn lame to wrap up a blog entry with my blog title again, and again @_@)

不~~~~~~~~~~~

again finding my social circle is shrinking

i know some ppl manage to hv busy life and hv time to hang out with friends

seems that im losing the ability to do this anymore

one is becoz i dun really like to study / do HW with others..unless is HW ‘sharing session’ haahaa

second is that i found it tiring to interact with too many ppl sometimes…

maybe just that i still hvnt find any friends comparable to “high school best friends” “family friends” in here

hmm maybe its my problem, or maybe its not a problem at all

is a clique essential really?

i duno why i hv this question mark again

becoz not long time ago im happy to realize that solitude is

completely acceptable/embraced by some in here

the urge to know-more-new-friends just dimmed …

anyway…oh my Fall Formal is next Friday!! so quick then November comes….

Fat ——— seriously I feel that I eat too much every day.

actually my lifestyle dooesn’t ever have “Breakfast” already..

but wht i eat at lunch and dinner is just too much!!! ahhhh

you better stop eating fried foods !!!

beyoni :: 說:
maybe i can major in urban planning?
DicksonB 說:
i believed all the urban areas have been planned already

alright XD crossed-out course 11. ahahaha

Major:
Course 1 – Environmental Engineering Science
or
Course 15 – Management with concentration in Information Technologies

Minor:
Course 21F- Japanese

膚淺 + 100% honest Remark:
becoz course 1 is sth i always wanna study.
but i think i cant manage the engineering/mechanics part.
but then it seems a waste not to do engineering in MIT.
management with IT seems fun and practical.
and with IT so my degree seems to hv some relations with the “T” part
but then course 15 ppl r often labeled as hea ppl.
well but i dun mind being labeled in this way.

becoz after all, i dun hv any specific interest or talent (besides Japanese)
i hv no idea about my future career path,
which i think is either government/consulting/banking
and my only aim is to graduate from here,
dun hv the slightest intention to continue grad school,
then go back to Hong Kong, find a job, earn some money then get married.

好想逃出校園

好想答68K 去沙田新城市食雞翼 行好運中心

好想答馬鐵 去Sunshine 食雞翼 行三聯書店

好想放學行去新世紀 食雞翼 行大眾

我呢度有無商場係有McDonalds 比我hea 架呢?

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sometimes i just cant help being data-sensitive

when skepticism dominates my mind ..

everything appears to have multi-meaning

a simple facebook status could be so annoying

becoz there could be many connotations …

really fed up by ppl being so directly-indirect @ bragging about their ‘workdone’

i mean..wht’s the difference between completing a work a month earlier

or a day before the deadline… if “get things done” can be achieved

the time doesnt really matter right

wht’ so good to brag about -_-

(alright i know im a slacker and is very 不爽 in these kind of stuffs @_@)

–_–

anyway, each decision made there r always a domino of reasons behind

its fun to analyze wht’s the true fundamental motivation/reason/push

e.g.  diction in conversation, facial expression in a photos, gestures while talking

ah is there psychology / behavior study major in MIT???

ok as im very 不爽 so i hv to brag wht i hv done too!! (hmm=.=)
phy pset completed, mastering phy completed, vocab quiz studied
CC2 memorized, japanese SP homework done, bought air ticket
bought textbook in amazon, laundry done…

big challenge of the week:

18.01A Final (Tonight) , Japanese Interview Test (tomororw morning)

Phy Quiz (Friday morning), 5.112 PSET (Thursday Night)

well a long weekend means a shorter weekdays too =)

决定了, 就要走到终点

Intended Major: Environmental Engineering, Biology, Management (Concentration in Information Technology), Urban Planning and Studies (Please Choose 1)

媽媽生日快樂 ^_^