好耶～終於都最後一個星期！
過多四日咋～hhohoho
決定下學期要摺盡.
actually look back..
randomly found my Form 5 internal school report…
each and every subject (except PE haha) dou higher guo average 20 sth marks..
then my IB (not my final one) are actually pretty ok…
u hv substantial reasons to be confident ah!
things will work out things will work out
maximize effort, maximize result
i feel so sorry for my readers (if there is any) that I haven’t write my blogs for days since I came back.
reasons:
1) my computer is completely broken. after my multiple brutal attempts in fixing it…
2) work Mon- Fri, 10am – 6:30pm
i’ve not much to sayyyy …for days are repetitive and boring.
life without a computer gives me a lot more time to really think about different aspects of life
instead of pointlessly clicking and typing.. responding and waiting for respond,
or getting fed up by the insipid intro music of the songs (being played for over 100 of times in my iTunes…)
in this holiday I have a first taste of being an Office Lady. in a public relations firm.
though its totally unrelated to my major, or not something an MIT student would normally do
still it means something to me. firstly it really helps coz I dun hv any “proper” work experience before except my front desk job
so that at least it will give me some ( better than nothing) advantages in finding summer internship..
well after all skills like communications/public relations/human interaction/basic adminstration are practical for all kind of jobs, i guess.
so its not useless, and i will get $4000 for my 3-week internship.
maybe i just want to prove that i have made a right choice giving up my IAP to stay in Hong Kong.
I think it worths it.
so what i’ve learnt from this job is that:
1. I WONT DO PR JOB FOR SURE IN MY LIFE. TOO HECTIC. dun wanna work 7 days a week!!! XD
2. if i really gonna be an OL..my goal will be:
in a day: fong gung
in a week: saturday
in a year: long holiday
in my life: retirement
another thing is that…
im finding myself more silent (as in less talkative) and less sociable/socialable/whtever how it spelled
and im making up all kind of possible reasons to make it legitimate..
i duno..i duno where i belong now
wht kind of attitude i should hv to wht kind of ppl at wht kind of place ..so tired of it
i dun especially like hong kong..or i dun especially like boston..
just like once i chatted to my colleague..(though he is talking about boyfriends == )
there is nothing perfect. even you think u’ve found a better one
there must be something u dun like..which the previous ones have
which is true for all kind of decision-making process..everything got it own pros and cons
not that i like boston so i hate hong kong, nor i like hong kong then i hate boston…
all it got some good points and bad points…
i dun wanna deal with human relationships anymore..
getting rid of facebook, actually, is such a big relief.
i dun have to care how people are happily doing at that IAP in MIT now
so i dun even hv to compare/jealous/envy as i duno anything
sometimes its better to know less mo liu stuffs.
and know more useful stuffs.
recently i’ve been watching news and reading online news too quite frequently..
reading a lot about the war crime in Gaza
thats really something we should care about.
in 2009 in this century..people are still suffering under violence..
70,000 students are willing to sacrifice their lifes for suicide bomb to show their “loyalty’ to their leaders
leader ordering killing all jewish children in the world.
crazy.
sometimes the world is too absurd for me to understand.
or im too absurd to fit in this normal world.
see, i could write on and on
blog is really important as i hvnt written here for so long
my topic and theme is always so repetitive.
cant help……………………. sorry if i hv bored u guys
i like hong kong but i dun really prefer to be here.
not much freedom, live under orders
i like boston but i dun really prefer to be there too.
too cold, too lonely, too busy.
ai.
生活別過份地童話化
途中花瓣結霜 連手心都凍傷
又再妄想 連呼吸都灼傷 求天賜我膽量
你是千堆雪我是長街,怕日出一到彼此瓦解
hmm every serious post gravitates towards philosophy ne
half year anniversary–
new layout + categorized posts + updated “About”!
looking at people’s facebook status / msn tagline..
i feel pretty fed up by people ridiculously bragging about some very very trivial stuffs
so disgusted by their shameless moves…
(I KNOW im repeating myself really, for a cynic like me, can’t help)
though sometimes i did this too..really wanting others to approve my achievement and stuffs
in order not to be looked down on / avoid looking foolish/
showing that im smarter than i look………
maybe im not those kind of ppl who would appreciate others achievement very much
i will probably treat it as a matter of fact..
but still these wont alter my impression on that person or what
unless its sth reallllllllly big.. like u got an offer from Harvard, then thats sth to congratulate about
.anyway hahaa
Virgo tends to 破壞他人夢想 , so wont feel good when people trying to show off
people just live to impress others..isn’t it …..this is what facebook based upon …
this how this society works…to impress, to be impressed in order to live with FACE
esp. for Chinese …such a face-saving race………….
the more u wanna impress, the more it shows how inept you are,
how insecure you are, how inferior you feel
real hardcore ging ppl wont, or never do sth like this..
like, do u see a 10A ppl…like ‘ABC Chan is get 10As =D !!”…mo ga ma
(im going extreme again..sorry..hahahaha)
anyway went to a hk xmas party today, hv a meaningful chat with my c-hing
yea..engineering u really acquire problem solving SKILLS that you can really apply in many places.
hardcore knowledge.
but things like politics or econ..u study IDEAS and THEORIES came up by different people, then try to blow water and make it seemingly reasonable in ur paper and essay…
very different mode of studying ne,
or its just biased by MIT students. hahaha
humanities subs r so inferior here after all..
She said I think I’ll go to Boston…
I think I’ll start a new life,
I think I’ll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather,
I think I’ll get a lover and fly em out to Spain…
I think I’ll go to Boston,
I think that I’m just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind…
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset,
I hear it’s nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice… oh yeah,
Boston… where no one knows my name… yeah
Where no one knows my name…
Where no one knows my name…
Yeah Boston…
Where no one knows my name.
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officially got 7Ps :)
now aim for 5.0 next term!!
fight against the bin taai genius curve here!!!!!!!
and now i will just turn off my brain till Feb =D
impromptuz 