recently i dun really look forward to my summer holiday
becoz i have accepted a ridiculous 3-month challenge

it is so ridiculous that whenever i think about it i feel stressed
becoz
1) i hv never work for 3 months that long before, not even school ..sometimes schools got long weekend
2) i hv to go to work 9am every day from tai wai to central, and very long hours (not really a problem)
3) im working at the tech dept..but the fact is my tech knowledge is really really really really ABC level compared to theirs
4) i duno how big companies work at all
5) normal expectation is, i will do things wrong, making them angry, being scolded, duno whts going on
6) again, my tech knowledge is so bad
7) i duno how to deal with adults like these…
8) im bounded to work for 3 months and should have no excuse to terminate at any point
8.5) about hardcore work instead of blowing water..i duno how to make things impressive anymore
9) my mum said fortune teller said 2009 will be a very tough year for me

i really wanna reject the offer becoz i cant convince myself i could take up such a challenge

but i really have to stay firm and conquer my fear becoz :

0)if just becoz it is near-impossible and i refuse to face the challenge at this young, when im older, i will be too lazy to welcome any difficulties or failures to my life.
1) he knows you know nothing, you are freshman, you got room for mistakes in the beginning. if say, im already a year 3 student and still perform like shit..then that will be a problem…
2) you wont be able to get a job at big companies like this with ur GPA anymore, grasp the chance
3) it will be a very valuable experience and a great start of career, it helps my further job apps too
4) you have made all those promises with ur boss and u hv him on facebook already
5) you still have time to polish ur tech skills a bit after final exams , there is 24 hours per day
6) prove to yourself that you are capable. or prove to yourself that you are not capable but you still tried.
7) to know the fact that i reallly wont like banks.
8) i will be jobless, and i only got 2 more summer for interns. cant waste anytime.
9) econ is bad, get a job like this is precious, dont be a badass.
10) learn to endure, be responsible for decisions that i have made.
11) its just intern, not long job, after 3 month u say bye bye

after this 3 months, if i could survive, i should become bulletproof of anything =D

a know-nothing bak chi work in tech dept for 3 months =
have korean oral exam every day for 3 months without knowing a word in korean

u surived many challenges, and you should ultimately conquer this one too.
no pain, no gain, ok. no regret, ok.
even its a wrong decision, try ur best to make it no regret, ok?

臨急抱彿腳 自學mode
都無辦法。。

can anyone explain this trend?!

Required subjects: 168

Core
1.018J Ecology I: The Earth System, 12 (REST, CI-M); 7.012/7.013/7.014 recommended
1.020 Ecology II: Engineering for Sustainability, 12
1.050 Engineering Mechanics I, 12; 8.01, 18.02
1.060 Engineering Mechanics II, 12; 18.03
18.03 Differential Equations, 12 (REST); 18.02
1.013 Senior Civil and Environmental Engineering Design, 12 (CI-M); permission of instructor
One of the following two subjects:
1.00 Introduction to Computers and Engineering Problem Solving, 12 (REST); 18.01
1.010 Uncertainty in Engineering, 12; 18.02

Environmental Engineering Science
1.061 Transport Processes in the Environment, 12; 1.060, 1.070, 1.106
1.070J Hydrology, 12; 1.060, 1.061, 1.106
1.080 Environmental Chemistry and Biology, 12; 5.111/5.112 or 3.091; 7.012/7.013/7.014 or 7.015, 1.107
1.083 Environmental Health, 12; 1.061
1.106 Environmental Transport and Hydrology Laboratory, 6, 1/2 LAB; 1.061, 1.070
1.107 Environmental Chemistry and Biology Laboratory, 6, 1/2 LAB; 1.080

Economics and Public Policy
One of the following four subjects:
1.801J Environmental Law, Policy and Economics: Pollution Prevention and Control, 12 (HASS)
11.002J Fundamentals of Public Policy, 12 (HASS-D, CI-H)
11.122 Society and Environment, 12 (HASS)
14.01 Principles of Microeconomics, 12 (HASS)

Laboratory
1.101 Introduction to Civil & Environmental Engineering Design I, 6, 1/2 LAB; 1.050, 1.018
1.102 Introduction to Civil & Environmental Engineering Design II, 6, 1/2 LAB; 1.060

Restricted Elective
One advanced subject from the following list:
1.071J Global Change Science, 12; 18.03, 5.60
1.64 Physical Limnology, 12; 1.061
1.69 Introduction to Coastal Engineering, 12; 1.061
1.72 Groundwater Hydrology, 12; 1.061
1.731 Water Resources Systems, 12; 1.070
1.77 Water Quality Control, 12; 1.060
1.83 Environmental Organic Chemistry, 12; 5.12, 5.60
1.89 Environmental Microbiology, 12; 7.014

find me? =)

發覺這世界永遠太少空間
因此花一天支配一切時間
發覺這世界永遠太晒心機
因此花一天思索一切道理

慢慢地邁向聽朝
靜靜地懷念昨日
再決定今天只要相信愛
叫皺紋散開 喚青春歸來
因此我喜歡花一天感覺一切是愛

發覺這世界永遠太少深刻
因此花一天改變一切習慣
發覺這世界永遠太多蹺蹊
因此花一天擁有一切運氣

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people.

today i did a short introduction to some Sloan (that’s MIT’s wharton) students about my research
and after that a Chinese Sloan Student asked for my email to see if cogen tech could be extended to China and to see whether we could work tgt

this is satisfaction from work =))))))

“Probably my worst quality is that I get very passionate about what I think is right.”

Hilary Clinton

this weekend is uneventful, I really have no idea what I was doing the past few days.
I tried hard to switch back to US time zone, and fashionably failed.
anyway, it doesn’t hurt to live in another time zone because my schedule allowed me to do so.

ah right, I was always playing Restaurtant City, while all my friends went to their partays
this is one thing im never ashamed about. what’s so bad about not joining in parties and stuffs.
while u guys despise im still at the stage of playing flash games instead of partying, or, MIT-style,
屁setting , studying, u-roping..im enjoying myself so much!
ahh but it’s really so addictive….

hahaha , if u always read my blog, ok i always have this tendency thinking people are despising me
that’s a very prominent symptom of inferior complex XD
i guess its sth about my childhood, im never approved for anything,
if i got any achievement, then people will start to relate ‘ah just becoz ur mum is who who who’

and gradually i give up , becoz seems im not supposed to hv any achievement, if yes, that’s in vain.
i won’t deny that my parents helped me a lot since birth, in all kind of aspects, well, but so do yours
anyway, talking about respect (tin yum: we are not even mentioning about respect at all )
i think its really mutual. if i want people to respect me playing restaurant city
i have to respect them partying all day long too, even in fact down in my heart i will pathetic for them.
so ok, cancel out, win-win, you have your life, i have my life.

ahhh ok im getting random
i really wonder who is reading my blog actually. did this help you understand me more?

things to do next:
1) tidy up my room
2) do mastering physics [so geng, i took a very long nap then i thought i missed the deadline!! luckily its postponed]
3) print pset, do u-rop, read pset, do japanese hw..etc

and lastly,

MY BRO IS COMING TOMORROW!!!!!! YEAHHHH
homework of the week: make my brother happy!

expected response/comment of this entry:
1. omg f!0ni is so childish in thinking…when will she grow up??
2. kui dou soh soh dei……
3. yau beng, this girl thinks too much

anyway, wht i lack is
1. determination to wake up
2. concentration span
3 . the spell — ” i can do it”
if i got these back, then jau ok la

an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people.
-how true.

你知道當你需要個夏天 我會拼了命努力
我知道你會做我的掩護 當我是個逃兵