Category: I BS

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=((((((((((((((((((((…especially on pset due dates…………and especiallyu just got a C for that test and the pset grades are going to save you……….

(warning: bad chinese ahead)

凌晨六時，將pset最後一個答案框起。天已微亮。
勞勞碌碌 已功課deadline作為單位的生活，就這樣又過了一個學年
明知故犯的逃避太多，藉口太多，起起跌跌總算捱過去了

老實說麻省理工的課程很簡單 （逃）
番看過往的功課測驗，總覺得
對於有充足準備的學生，有留心上堂的學生，
實在太簡單了 （可惜我這一年沒有很努力）

沒有很努力的原因，是過份的自我體諒
對自己太包容了。
。成績不好是因為身邊的人太聰明，
。睡覺最重要，
。看不懂就skip
。沒耐性
well,其實只要對自己要求高一點點，
比其他人做多一點點，
將勤補拙的話，是沒問題的說

“專家提醒，留學不僅僅是為了拿學位，還要吸取國外的文化精華，盡早融入當地社會，与优秀的同學交往，了解當地的思維模式、語言規范和文化”
well, besides
還有花了很多時間精力去適應新環境
我說的不是什麼 文化差異 什麼 文化飢渴症
而是。留學海外 如何監官／照顧及交代自己
。如何認知及接受 由” 讀書=強項” 到 “身邊所有人都比你聰明勤力，大家 都在併命” 這事實
。慢慢懂得去無視他人目光 享受獨處  。理財，時間管理 etcetc
+不幸地花了不少情感在妒忌及自卑上

sleep, study, social,在這裡我有朋友嗎
大慨讀書是這裡生活的backbone, and given i hate group studying
只可以有書友吧，其他人都不敢放太大信任各有各忙，
這裡，我沒有朋友圈子
我亦都開始覺得一個clique並沒有很重要
亦開始覺得星期六日不一定要離開校園才算得上是weekend

就是說，生活的廣度雖然縮成了小小的自我
但理性的深度及觀點的高度卻從沒變低過

last but not least, angelababy is so cute !!

Tonight, I decided not to do anything. (just like any other late nights.)

I think the only problem is– I should stop welcoming my own lame excuses

any kind that will stop my progress.

I think I should stay in the student center except for sleeping

one is for the air-conditioning, second is, the environment would really push me

dang, instead of going back to work, i dont mind taking summer classes

another thing is, i dont really like people asking how my MIT life is: as in, to me,
they r trying to find out whether I am folded, doomed, antisocial or what
sample question: so what do you do in weekends? who do you hang out with?
how’s classes? do you have anything to do except studying? how well are you doin.
my interpretation: what im doing now is JUST exactly enough to deal with these
kind of questions. honestly, non-academic stuffs are really just to tell myself and tell
others im not a nerd , well

Last thingI wanna say today is,
I dont like random strangers bumping into my blog ,
or people that i totally have no relationship with
as mentioned in my previous entry, how i shape myself in front of people
is a totally contradiction with my honest self- presentation in this blog
sometimes, i dont want random people knowing me in deep-shit.
keep the good image is good enough. too much info is no good.
anyway…if you are reading this blog, it is still kind of 緣份, so, ok la

im worried
i dun want summer to come, i wont e able to make any positive contribution
i duno what to do if im paid to do something
that i have 95% probability to screw up
and its for 3 months, i will be defeated every day ….=((((((
feeling sad and inferior for my whole summer…every week…
i will keep letting people’s down, making myself and others disappointed
but they are bounded to keep me becoz is 3 months long….and i have to do it too
and ppl will be very harsh and demanding..
they will scold me and hurt my dignity….
but im just a piece of rubbish going there….
the things i hate most is appearing being foolish….
but now im in a situation that i cant avoid being very foolish and a bak chi…
i dun nothing about these……..
wuwuwuuuuuuuuuuuuwuwuwuuwuu

but this is namely challenge.
doing something out of your ability but within your potential.
damn but isnt 3 months just too long, its like 25% of a year!!!!

im truly very worried.
but i guess they wont have high expectations on me neither =_=

relax, i never call myself heihei…
well for the sake of alliteration …hahha

i dun reall like holidays now
becoz everytime after some holidays or some breaks ..
my life after that is always in a mess, no exception.

so i rather keep myself busy and working and hosed…
if not everytime turns disastrous hahha

today:
11-12 noon study a bit
3pm – 5:30pm study in hayden library
5:30 – 6:30pm office hour + dinner
6:30 – 8:30 review session
8:30 – 2:08am , study room angry study

given that i just start my revision today, this timetable is normal ._.