Category: I BS

maybe bro is right that
the purpose of this  ibank experience is  just to
justify that ibank is really not my cup of tea.
(though cant deny that I’ve learnt a lot too)

at the same time, showing others that
not that Im not capable or too fai to do ibank in the future,
just that I’ve worked in this ‘dream’ workplace since Day 1,
and i dont give a duck.

and after discovering wht the life at a prestigious bank is like,
I can relax and indulge into my own engineering research
without any regrets instead of saying
‘omg i should hv study finance!!! ibank ppl r so cool!’

knowing that the real front-office ppl hv to work 150 hours per week,
u know what? I would really rather sleep all day
or marry to richard li like isabella (if i’ve got this luck..==)
quality of life number 1.
(dilemma: but with those crazy bonuses,
I can retire early and have wud gay quality of life for many years!!)

today dad asked me what I want to be after graduation
I really don’t know, no kidding.

but my boss said to survive in HK
u could only work at FI (financial institution)
he’s got a point..but…

ai =(  so i guess probably
government / consulting / japanese-related

but so far at halfway,  ..generally speaking…
1) scale and scope of an reputational investment bank, integrity is very important
2) applicable to all businesses, profit ( or loss) and clients are the ultimate bosses
3) with that said, efficiency , quality and quantity must be at best level
4) i.e. maximum output in minimum time/resource

At his final stage appearance,
abounded with eulogies and cheers,
the emotional farewell of the KOP finally
concluded with a lone spotlight shone on a darkened, empty stage.

At 4am, I couldn’t possibly hold my tears anymore
at the memorial’s emotional high point ———-
Paris’s unscripted and poignant sharing.

This heartfelt remark has not only humanized the iconic figure
but also reminded us that, after all,
it is a family farewell, a family loss, a very personal loss.

At all at once, he is no longer the god-like trailblazer
but a loving father, brother and son.
No heart ached as much as the Jackson’s family.
How brave they are to put up this public farewell.

Who would have even guessed the rehearsal auditorium
would become the memorial place after 1 weektime?
The same guy was rocking on stage with his moonwalk,
the same guy was here resting inside the casket
going on stage one last time?

“Icon, was only a fraction of what he was”
In Remembrance.

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坐兩座平治跑車還是第一次
如果我現在讀医，
我自己都可以這樣啦
（天音：基本上連學車的打算也沒有）
算啦，安分做一個工程師吧！！

還有，公司的允浩學長是結婚的啦！
我早就猜到他是有家室的說。
算啦，安分等運到吧！！

Stop me if you think I have written a lil bit too much about him.
jus wanna float my thoughts before they are forever forgotten.

Aaron Kwok described him as 前無古人，後無來者
How true.
One fact has been undeniable,
no one moves like mj.
He redefined the possibility of physical embodiment of music.

we’ve lost an irreplaceable global icon
who bridged nations and races
by his powerful performances and superb talents (dance, singing, composing, acting..)
can’t name any other stars with such a wide scope in terms of influence and popularity.

everyone wants you back,
but once again sad reality reminds us that, even as god-like as MJ,
human is mortal.
even dancers as charming as MJ would be motionless after death. (recycled)

“I was wandering in the rain
Mask of life, feelin insane
Swift and sudden fall from grace
Sunny days seem far away
Here abandoned in my fame
Armageddon of the brain
Happy days will drown the pain
On and on and on it came
And again, and again, and again…
Take my name and just let me be”

Have a nice walk on the moon, MJ.

trilogy ends here.
“See you all in July.”

[後記: recently my blog entries are so blog-like..haha]

i’ve nothing much to say today.

“Even in death, may you be triumphant” – Darren Shan
first thing is, i think it is a very silly, crazy and sick idea
to display someone’s body, for public display, in moonwalk pose.
not only it is creepy, it is not respecting the person at all…

Played Texas Hold’em today.
I’m so bad at that… let’s cross away “PSET grader”
and make “Skill up Texas Hold’em and Blackjack in this summer”
as my aim of the year!

another thing is, reading back my ‘new’ year resolution for 2009
做每一件事都全力以赴 不懂就要立刻弄清楚 每天都要複習一下 not really
要有PE 課 多走路上學 no and yes
希望有3科A 至少 要發力 yes!
希望真的實現健康生活年目標 充足睡眠 多吃菜  no
希望可以找到一份有趣而不用programming的UROP yes!!
然後繼而找到一份威猛的summer intern..(eh…)  yes!
希望有更好的 IQ 及 EQ 少發脾氣 contrary haha
一個人時就要甘心一個人 不要埋怨自己的選擇 yes~
希望多點自信及動力 not sure
留意時事 多看新聞 absolutely yes
對人友善一點 not really..
買 heater !  didnt do this haha
少點眼淚 多點傻笑
多用腦…少懶惰
be less cynical !!

For 2 days, the very same thing ran around my mind.
not specifically about MJ,
I’ve been thinking a lot about death and life and fate , etc.

Death has never really been a concept in my mind until recent years.
It is inevitable and unpredictable, no matter how glorious your life is,
but also becoz of this,
From a baby to a body, we cherish coz things will perish.

born to inspire and perform, is it too soon for him? is it fair?
I guess it is not the worst timing,but the only regret, I guess,
is not be able to witness his children growing up.
After watching Living with MJ..i think to myself
this man is truly legendary.
(I am sure I’ve watched it b4..thanks to tammy)

anyways, sooner or later
Death will not only be a concept, but a painful truth for myself and ppl around me.
No one could ever predict when this final day will come.

It further induces into deep thought about the meaning of life
is it about what you have left over? or what you have experienced?
what is the purpose of putting lifes on Earth in finite time?
does civilization actually mean anything?
想太多了。

anyway, I did CO2 laser to remove the wart on my eyebag
and also claim back my HKID and back-to-china pass.
slept for the whole afternoon.
watched many MJ videos.
nice day`

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there is a famous french play called “No exit”
about 3 men have to live in a same room with no exit FOREVER
infinite of time.
so is it becoz there is death, an ending, so it empowers life with a meaning?

actually i’ve got this book bought in harvard square bookstore
‘a very short introduction — the meaning of life’
but the tight schedule in MIT only allows me to flip and read  random pages
grr