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(1) Veil Lifted on China’s Next Top Duo:

Often portrayed as solemn, bland and emotionless in public appearances, the Chinese leaders (習近平 and 李克強)for the first time revealed their humanized personalities and characters. Behind the scene, they are just casual people who enjoy watching Hollywood movies and DVDs. It’s also encouraging to know that they are not blind to the corruption, legislation and the east-west income disparity.

“the level of detail in them could still embarrass Messrs. Xi and Li…” how is it so? (besides the ‘man-made’ GDP claim..but i doubt how non-man-made US GDP is)  the US press has tried so hard to play up the China ‘uncivilized dictatorship’ in all these years. Thanks to Wikileaks… this rare unveiling has already backfired to the US media..while they still arrogantly claim that it is a shame for China.

I recalled my friend from China once proudly admitted how he could take advantage on China’s 腐敗 and 黑暗 as his career advances. Changes won’t happen overnight, it’s still a long way for China to make intrinsic differences on its people’s values and working style (the “soft” asset of the country). At least we should be glad that our future leaders are reasonable people..going top-down..hopefully one day such culture would ripple across the entire government.

Anyways, imagine how difficult it is to enforce policies across a country as populous as China..to rise from ruins of the emperor system amidst the years of wars and revolutions (credit to 義海豪情)..salute to our leaders, coz things could have gone far worse.

(2) 名校教了我什麼——女校生的反思“:

校友都在紛紛討論在Yahoo! 新聞上一篇文章”周日話題﹕名校教了我什麼——女校生的反思“,大家都突然感激母校對她們的改變影響。

曾經也是女名校生的我,雖然會有一定程度的共鳴,但我更強烈感覺到的 卻是筆者在字裡行間流露出的inferiority complex,自卑型的自大。筆者都已經是在社會打滾了十多年的成人了,過了這麼多年還是不能get over 一些幼稚自我的想法。內文一面倒地指出種種不公現象,筆者看不過眼,到了現今還是同樣不屑。

筆者身為記者,具有新聞觸覺,理應看透世事,有能力理性分析事情的twofold,pros and cons。豈能加添自己的不憤,如此籠統地一慨而論,為天下每一個名校生冠上”追逐名利,趨炎附勢”的罪名?”反思“自己的過去,卻還是這般積怨重重,與十多年前的那個“o靚妹”毫無改變昇華,這何來叫反思?勉強可以說是“女校生的童年陰影陳述”,筆者在結尾不忘標榜一下自己的“胸襟之廣“,可悲又可笑。

文章裡有大量沒有必要包括的炫耀細節,讓讀者我摸不著頭腦。目的何在?

“我是班長,自發貼了大堆剪報,發起同學手纏黑布”

“我被編入全級最top的A班”

“中六那年,我被同學選了當Head Girl”

”到今天我最好的朋友,雖然她們不讀報、不關心時事,但都有一顆溫柔的心。“ (這是對自己最好的朋友發好人卡嗎?)

as 一個過來人,如果要我寫我對母校的反思,我只會寫一句話,”Sola Nobilitas Virtus,明德惟馨。”11年在mcs的歲月,那些這些不快誤解,早早就風吹雲散了。況且這種競爭環境又非名校獨有,早已見慣司空,不足為奇。

活在當下

。<–my circle of trust.

在yoga班的課室有這樣的一個poster。像一個exponential decay graph 一樣,heart rate 會隨年齡變慢。
想深,特別覺得technically自己不再是小孩子了。
不再被任何年齡限制fetter。將要迎接人生裡最後一個暑假。踏入大學生活的第三個年頭。
2000年已經是十年前的事。 加入jsecs已經是5年前的事。也不會再長高,皮膚需要保養,眉頭間的皺紋也明顯了。上上一代的人都到天上保佑我們了。最年幼的表弟都是中學生了。還是中學生的“朋友”也所剩無幾。同年的同學都陸陸續續出來做事了。爸媽都要退休了。要回饋社會了。

“那就問心無愧,全力以赴,好好加油就好了。”

….,play on.

me: u know
actually im always drunk

me: no matter i am sober or drunk
i am always drunk
the decisions i made, the things i did
were not too rational or logical

me: life is about newton 3rd law
action reaction

aug 15,2010 4:44am.

__________

this is the most honest line i’ve ever confessed recently

thanks xg!

ecs makes me feel nostalgic like hell

inception: all possibilities?

my interpretation:

(1) straightforward-happy-ending
the totem stopped spinning. mission completed. conquered the death/guilt of his wife. happily ever after.

(2) forever in Limbo
the totem  spins forever ..trapped in limbo.

(3) n-th level exist
the so-called reality on the aeroplane maybe is still a dream …who can tell what is reality anyway?

(4) the wife is not dead. dicaprio is the sick one.
the wife keep appearing in all of his dreams because he wanted to pull him out from his sick indulgence/obsession in the N-level of dreams. so Dicaprio is the one who can’t believe/perceive what  real or fake is instead. not his wife.

Day 66-73

  • 然而在綿綿不絕的漫遊途中,十字路口並不比單純往前的大道顯示出幾分猶豫。
    -<鮮血梅花> 餘華
  • 住了三個月,開始對你有點認識了,卻又不得不離你而去,當然感觸良多,又不知如何寫起。
  • 原來,nonlinear regression是如此的強大。
  • 箱根之旅短片結尾竟配上了Bump of Chicken的’天体観測’,傳情達意、箇中醞含的心思情誼、真摯得凝在筆端,非筆墨能容。
  •  這夜心血來潮,我用滑鼠點向你名字前那久沒碰過的綠點。 這緊張時刻你卻偏偏一瞬轉紅,心裡一沉,只好輕嘆一聲天意。
  • 張小姐,如今你墮落了,回歸後請你務必背水一戰,否則還有何顏面對於張門上下列祖列宗?
  • 昨晚徹夜難眠,興起執筆練字,一撇一捺勾起了小學時的一段軼事。小學四年級有毛筆書法的功課–分大楷小楷。媽媽堅持不讓我買小階毛筆。明明全班也理所當然地用小楷筆寫小階,為什麼卻只有我 要用筆尖粗大的大楷筆在小小的方格上雕字?心裡萬個抱怨,因為每一筆也得小心奕奕,更花時間,更考功夫。
    現今我終理解這磨練背後的道理。
  • 近兩年家人關係exponentially變溫馨了。大概大家也深知要四人在同一屋簷下聚首一堂的機會也exponentially變少吧。
  • 浸淫在英日語世界久了,粵語中的俚語更顯怪趣。