Essential, yet appealed

beyoni’s song list for 5am snowy nights (2008):
土星環 – Eason Chan 倒帶人生 – Eason Chan 全世界失眠–Eason Chan Boston – Augustana 手望 – Ivana Wong How to Save a Life- The Fray Don’t Panic- Coldplay Hey There Delilah- Plain White Ts embrace- Bump of Chicken もう君がいない- Funky Monkey Babys 小さな星 – 奥華子 我愛你 – A-lin 天亮 – 信樂團 Run Run Run- Phoenix If I Ever Feel Better- Phoenix

“他用力的在自己臉上連打了兩個嘴巴,似乎打的是自己,被打的是別一個自己,不久也就彷彿是自己打了別個一般–雖然還有些刺熱熱—心滿意足的得勝的倘下了” –阿Q正傳

reading my 2003-2005 blog AGAIN..to get some inspiration orz (coz i wanna c did i mention anything about university or future major)
its quite haunting to look at your past, and u will start to understand
what shape your personality /your fear/ your behavior now. ”
and completely understand why ppl hate me so much before haaha
seriously, i was such a dumbass /jerk/ whtever haahaha i will hate her too
(天音: 其實而家咪又係咁…= =)
anyway.. should keep this in mind:

diary on 25.4.2004

好野, 真係好咀喪, 我又白白咁浪費左呢三日既七十二個中..”” 唉,d maths,做又好似識,唔做又覺得唔識,功課又冇做,又冇睇書 呀!!!!張家A呀!!!!!!你d資質好削架咋!!!!!!!!! 仲唔努力又打回原形架啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!RAORAORORAORAOOAAORA! 好,聽日開始,我要過番d又規律既生活.” 唔可以再咁頹!

我依家真係好驚exam囉, 真係每一科都係由頭考到尾架囉
d人依家已經溫緊啦!!唉..我呢d..我係白癡底,所以, 冇三五七年都唔會溫得好囉, 但係最慘, 我係懶, 所以,到左個日前都唔會realize係幾咁重要  就好似依家咁,依家夜晚八點,仲未溫聽日個英文test!!

conclusion: 原來我完全冇講過我自己大學想讀乜的 XD

Try me.

(ok..K.O.ed  surprise me/bite me/try me series….)
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Christmas Eve….
didn’t feel like xmas at all in Boston
my feeling is — empty, white, cold, windy, slippery

b.lau comes to town!!! chiu gao siu that we got same LPC sweatshirt..
good to meet you laaa after these many months of MSN chats!

have listened to “Boston” for over 30 times now…
i could just sooo relate myself to this song
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oh yea regarding the comment..
b.lau phoned me all the way from 12:01pm to 12:34pm ,
almost one call per minute
and my mobile alarm also rang all the way from 12:05pm every 5 mins…
and I didnt manage to wake up…oh my goodness….this is so scary hahaha

Anyway
Merry XMAS , no more XSAM

So What? Bite me.

生活別過份地童話化
途中花瓣結霜 連手心都凍傷
又再妄想 連呼吸都灼傷 求天賜我膽量
你是千堆雪我是長街,怕日出一到彼此瓦解

hmm every serious post gravitates towards philosophy ne
half year anniversary–
new layout + categorized posts + updated “About”!


looking at people’s facebook status / msn tagline..
i feel pretty fed up by people ridiculously bragging about some very very trivial stuffs
so disgusted by their shameless moves…
(I KNOW im repeating myself really, for a cynic like me, can’t help)
though sometimes i did this too..really wanting others to approve my achievement and stuffs
in order not to be looked down on / avoid looking foolish/
showing that im smarter than i look………
maybe im not those kind of ppl who would appreciate others achievement very much
i will probably treat it as a matter of fact..
but still these wont alter my impression on that person or what
unless its sth reallllllllly big.. like u got an offer from Harvard, then thats sth to congratulate about
.anyway hahaa
Virgo tends to 破壞他人夢想 , so wont feel good when people trying to show off

people just live to impress others..isn’t it …..this is what facebook based upon …
this how this society works…to impress, to be impressed in order to live with FACE
esp. for Chinese …such a face-saving race………….

the more u wanna impress, the more it shows how inept you are,
how insecure you are, how inferior you feel
real hardcore ging ppl wont, or never do sth like this..

like, do u see a 10A ppl…like ‘ABC Chan is get 10As =D !!”…mo ga ma
(im going extreme again..sorry..hahahaha)

anyway went to a hk xmas party today, hv a meaningful chat with my c-hing
yea..engineering u really acquire problem solving SKILLS that you can really apply in many places.
hardcore knowledge.

but things like politics or econ..u study IDEAS and THEORIES came up by different people, then try to blow water and make it seemingly reasonable in ur paper and essay…

very different mode of studying ne,
or its just biased by MIT students. hahaha
humanities subs r so inferior here after all..

Boston

She said I think I’ll go to Boston…
I think I’ll start a new life,
I think I’ll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather,
I think I’ll get a lover and fly em out to Spain…
I think I’ll go to Boston,
I think that I’m just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind…
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset,
I hear it’s nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice… oh yeah,

Boston… where no one knows my name… yeah
Where no one knows my name…
Where no one knows my name…
Yeah Boston…
Where no one knows my name.

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officially got 7Ps :)
now aim for 5.0 next term!!
fight against the bin taai genius curve here!!!!!!!

and now i will just turn off my brain till Feb =D