So What? Bite me.

生活別過份地童話化
途中花瓣結霜 連手心都凍傷
又再妄想 連呼吸都灼傷 求天賜我膽量
你是千堆雪我是長街,怕日出一到彼此瓦解

hmm every serious post gravitates towards philosophy ne
half year anniversary–
new layout + categorized posts + updated “About”!


looking at people’s facebook status / msn tagline..
i feel pretty fed up by people ridiculously bragging about some very very trivial stuffs
so disgusted by their shameless moves…
(I KNOW im repeating myself really, for a cynic like me, can’t help)
though sometimes i did this too..really wanting others to approve my achievement and stuffs
in order not to be looked down on / avoid looking foolish/
showing that im smarter than i look………
maybe im not those kind of ppl who would appreciate others achievement very much
i will probably treat it as a matter of fact..
but still these wont alter my impression on that person or what
unless its sth reallllllllly big.. like u got an offer from Harvard, then thats sth to congratulate about
.anyway hahaa
Virgo tends to 破壞他人夢想 , so wont feel good when people trying to show off

people just live to impress others..isn’t it …..this is what facebook based upon …
this how this society works…to impress, to be impressed in order to live with FACE
esp. for Chinese …such a face-saving race………….

the more u wanna impress, the more it shows how inept you are,
how insecure you are, how inferior you feel
real hardcore ging ppl wont, or never do sth like this..

like, do u see a 10A ppl…like ‘ABC Chan is get 10As =D !!”…mo ga ma
(im going extreme again..sorry..hahahaha)

anyway went to a hk xmas party today, hv a meaningful chat with my c-hing
yea..engineering u really acquire problem solving SKILLS that you can really apply in many places.
hardcore knowledge.

but things like politics or econ..u study IDEAS and THEORIES came up by different people, then try to blow water and make it seemingly reasonable in ur paper and essay…

very different mode of studying ne,
or its just biased by MIT students. hahaha
humanities subs r so inferior here after all..

Boston

She said I think I’ll go to Boston…
I think I’ll start a new life,
I think I’ll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather,
I think I’ll get a lover and fly em out to Spain…
I think I’ll go to Boston,
I think that I’m just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind…
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset,
I hear it’s nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice… oh yeah,

Boston… where no one knows my name… yeah
Where no one knows my name…
Where no one knows my name…
Yeah Boston…
Where no one knows my name.

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officially got 7Ps :)
now aim for 5.0 next term!!
fight against the bin taai genius curve here!!!!!!!

and now i will just turn off my brain till Feb =D

閒想

一個人得閒時就有好多時間去真係思考一下 去回想去展望
(anyway..今日K.O.了 11 集的魔女の条件)
當”2008″ 感覺仲係”新既一年” 時 唔驚唔覺原來又一年了
就黎年未 就黎新年了 每年都呢個時後都有 new year resolution
一年回望咁… 但今年冇乜呢個打算… 因為2008年過得太奇怪了吧?

仲記得一年前既自己係日本東京玩了超難忘的17日
橫濱新宿迪士尼 (暫時都係快樂時光榜首)

一年後自己竟然會係美國波士頓 冰天雪地
變了麻省理工大學生 係度頹廢

2008年頭仲為cambridge rejection 頹了一星期
感覺 已經好似係 好耐好耐好耐 應該係歷史書出現咁耐既事了

人真係奇怪呢 事件就隨住時間帶唔快又唔慢咁發生
一件一件 然後自己又不停地回望

“年未” 既感覺真係唔係好強…anyway 如果要summarize 2008
大慨就係
January-March 前路茫茫 LPC
March- May Hea爆 LPC
May- Aug 宅女在家中
Aug-Dec 生活突變去左美國讀 phy chem calculus..

MIT的生活吧.. 有友人同我講
“你好似個個星期都咁唔開心, 不如真係轉校啦”
唔開心係因為 同好多新生一樣 無親無故 好多野要適認
功課又唔係難 突然又 hea爆March-Aug 去左turbo每星期
朋友HEA又可以囉高分 但自己就算唔hea都未必囉到高分
然後越黎越cynical, 覺得deal with 自己問題已經夠煩
仲要deal with d 唔係好想deal with 既人時 真係好火大
anyway..係呢度應該喊過..十次? 但其實只要捱過左都冇乜野了
而我又唔覺 喊 係一個錯既舒發方法 我覺得有幫助既話……….

好啦好啦 黎一個 new year resolution DRAFT 1 吧

1) 努力讀書 aim GPA at least 要有 4.6
2) 要去office hour
3) 做人要開心d 唔開心就睇日劇聽歌msn facebook 玩game 整面食 飲可樂
4) 獨處唔係罪 唔駛因為摺而內咎
5) 參加活動既attendance 要好一d
6) 在每一件事 都用心認真 maximize effort, maximize result do or not do.
7) 要想好major, + summer internship

確かに、8月同12月既自己比較
係悲觀左少少 自卑左少少 離群左少少
勤力左少少 燥底左少少 憤世嫉俗左少少

但值得開心既係
係呢四個月 去左3次旅行 which 好多人都做唔到 and given that 我真係好中意去旅行
發力60% 所有科都有A/B
只有兩個freshman take到 Japanese 5 and終於有機會接受專業的日語教育 XD
acapella 表演了
識到一班好amazing, 比LPC 好多人更有傳奇色彩既天才同學朋友
開心boston 有chinatown at least 都有油雞飯食

L00k F0rward

So, its time to look forward. I’ve been looking at my 4-year plan again
well i got 4yearplan_course1, 4yearplan_course9 and 4yearplan_course15
anyhow…the subjects i’ve decided to take next sem wont really affect anything..
coz i’ve to take them anyway….

so seems now im still (surprisingly) inclined to Course 1..which is environmental engineering science
despite my poor result in Phy this term…(though its still a B overall)
and my usual physics-phobic ..
for once in my lifetime I feel an urge to accept an challenge
becoz I guess if I work hard I could do it. maybe its just to impress myself and others.
Or to prove that I’m really a science student after all these years

the question i always ask is that..
“is this subject, if you work realllly hard, then u can get a satisfying result?”
if 3 hours of studying is not enough, if lecture and recitations are not enough,
the angel side of fi0ni, u know what to do.

or honestly I dont have any special preference or hobbies…
I guess I wont graduate with flying colors in any of the 24 majors in here
so why not something thats not TOOO challenging, but still challenging
to render my college life with excitement, daunting moments, and satisfaction?

next sem–>calulus, physics, biology, japanese, linguistics
next sem–>finance theory, engin mechanics, CEE lab, Ecology, 1.00