Author: impromptuz

Read Only/ Read and Write?

未解決。
Am I suitable for / Am I strong at/ Do I like:
academics / career?
science / arts/ engineering/ econ/ finance/ research?
government/ ibank/ consulting/ R&D/ media?
public speaking/politics/ opinion?

I am already almost 20 years old
and still i have no effing idea What I am
how can an individual with
no talent, no passion, no interest, no preference for 20 years..
pave a unique path for herself..given that being random is not a choice?

i’m still so “undeveloped”
and I have spent so much time “exploring” different area of interests…
and the fact is nothing interests me particularly…dang ._.
after a quarter of a lifetime, I am still confused about who am i …how pathetic.

Future is really sth BEYOND IMAGINATION.
it’s out of bound, its like
how can you imagine an Earth-sized asteroid crash on Jupiter???
A CRASH creating an EARTH?
my future is as unimaginable as this.

i can’t  even identify myself
im always changing
and im always hiding some, and showing some…
ai …. ng g dim

They say bad luck comes in 3’s.
I think that I got signs of Stockholm syndrome. (<–click for wiki)
(its really nothing too well-known,
somehow I’ve read it from a book some years ago…
hmm suddenly recalled it after one night of worrying,)

though might not be 100% appropriate, or even a bit exagerrating,
it might kind of explain why I would start to idolize kazu sempai
or would even feel thankful to my source of worries these days.

hmm 被略施小惠 is the point. hahha

p.s. stephen colbert is really the king of satire hahaha

童年你與誰渡過　聖詩班中唱的歌
再哼一哼可以麼
當時誰與你排著坐　白色恤衫灰褲子
再穿一穿可以麼

遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識　餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
能留下印象　閱覽你家中每道牆
拿著你歌書　與你合唱

從前你與誰路過　逛的公園有幾多
再走一走可以麼
當時誰對你凝望過　是否真的比我多
再演一演可以麼

遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識　餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
遺憾印象　沒有你家中那面牆
拿著你相簿

從前拍過的相
多麼妒忌你昨日同過的窗
早些看著你美麗模樣
對你天真的讚賞
從頭細看　你六歲當天　已是我偶像

“Only Virtue Ennobles” (明德惟馨)
Though a familiar motto since Primary 1,
Orzly, I’ve never even tried to embody this spirit in my daily life

Well, in my stupid opinion,
some other things that could “superficially” ennoble an individual includes:

0. Got common sense. Not pretentious. 沒有懶音
1. speak stunningly fluent English without a trace of a canto accent.
2. brims with charisma and style, with elegant behavior, outfit and speaking
3. hv gd knowledge @ world/local politics and econ, or even better–>science.
4. have talent @ sports, music, lit, or arts. Pick One!
5. Speak more than 2 languages.
6. with constantly good manner ..hygiene…etc. Know about wine, but won’t get drunk.
7. Have no sign of negative immaturity.
8. responsible+reliable, humble+humorous, fair+fearless
9. won’t feel uneasy to be the center of attention, always try his/her best to be inclusive

(disclaimer: i can’t do any 1-9 listed…
please tell me if u know anyone satisfying the above criterias hahaha)

_______________
hou ji:

virtue alone ennobles is so true.
seeing ppl taking pride in putting their
酒池肉林/燈紅酒綠/夜夜升歌/bitchy beach parties,
well, I will respect their way of life,
but I won’t even relate this with anything to be proud of.
absurd, it’s really absurd.