Enhance yourself or face inferiority

簡述一下我上個星期的晝夜節律 (circadian rhythm)。

把一天二十四小時除二,一天當兩天用,一天睡兩次,一星期就當十四天用。六點到十點睡覺,十點到六點上課,六點到九點睡覺,九點到六點溫習。打個比喻,電話快沒電,充電一下,又用一下,又充電一下的意思。總之,就是妄想要加速生理時鐘,加強清醒時的集中力跟效率。因為如此顛倒的生活節奏屬高度危險活動,精神反覆波動透支讓我神智不清,不過三天,自我摧殘也只好告吹。

潑墨,

雨讓我惆悵 雪讓我冷靜
失去重心的生活頻率
我活著的脈搏 好比散亂的樂章

凭窗,

這個查理斯河岸讓我著魔了。

greece in turmoil

助教:
orz thing of the semester: going to help TAing for 1.00 $$$$$$$
i.e. intro to compu and engin problem solving …hahhaha

L 的來信:
see what I found in my mailbox……Lから日本語で書いた手紙?!なにこれっー!

腳踏一星,安碌山是也:

實在很無聊,但發現腳板生jor一lup痣/墨!!
7.脚底长痣:是所谓的「峰候带相」,这类的人可以做地方之长,统领一方,像安碌山节度使脚底就有长痣。

hi~ I am 安碌山 desu~

caliber of vain existence

希望とは独りでは抱えきれない宝物のようなものである”

I Saw You …
running into you , twice, made my day really.
we both know how rare it is.

I Saw You …
lecturing about japanese anime and hip-hop.
how I hope my future would be, at least, half as interesting as yours.

I Saw You …reality,
where one’s success and value
are universally defined, scaled , measured , positioned by money, power and rankings.
the ruler of respect is pathetically reduced to these quantifiable yet soulless standards.

The once diversified dreams and ambitions in our childhood that we were proud of,
are altogether bottlenecking, singularizing,centrifuging towards one overrated goal.

Living in you, I am a walking oxymoron.

*inspired by さよなら絶望先生 ep.4

paradigm shift

  • Pledged – Alpha Phi Omega!
  • 愛恨分明卻可霎時交替。
  • 勉強のやる気に火がつく!
  • Were asked what my personal motto is —be lazy and happy
  • Someone was asked what her favorite fictional character is — Lady Gaga
  • 好友說我是埋頭苦幹discipline人,(尷尬),hmm 這就是矛盾的地方了。沒有立刻的必要去工作,會先去睡覺當是養足精神,然後希望可以爆發力地吭吭吭,到最後一刻鐘,不擇手段作奸犯科,求神拜佛賭運氣,死都死出黎。er,所以就是沒有積穀防飢的mentality。
  • 多數是這樣,請看下圖:
  • Japanese is most undingable for their 有口難言 attitude, it kills me.
  • You know you are from UWC when..fb group –my favorites are:
  • “You respect your second years, you worship your Third Years.”
  • “You procrastinate like someone is paying you to do it.”
  • i’m the queen of lame excuses…
  • attention to detail is wht i need/lack
  • STALKER FOUND !!!!! so scary …though im a bit 暗暗高興hahaa
  • SOUL OF ANIME training !! interesting facts: they earned 2 billion per year from the anime itself, but 20 billion per year from the merchandise !! 60% of the world cartoon is made by Japan !! the animator dun really care about the fansub, but they r unhappy becoz of the low quality ..as they spent most of the time in adjusting colors , drawing, etc.
  • 3 MIDTERMS ON A DAY!! = . =
  • double major form done !! finally !!!
  • started our wave energy generator project ~~ woooot . met with D-lab professor today!!
  • hv to tool on 6.041 tonight !!!!
  • the list is getting too long..
“You respect your second years, you worship your Third Years.”

Bayesian Time Series

今天早上跟xg 聊了挺值得深思的問題。

世界上所有東西都是 a function of t,都是time-specific的

都各有expiry date,都有phase-in,phase-out的一刻。

例如說,

當年自以為最愛就是演話劇了,很投入很投入,但現在回想,

實在不能再解釋,也再不可能明白當年的心態。

例如說,

當年為了買偶像演唱會門票豪花2000大元,但現在已經沒再在乎這偶像的動向。

例如說,

以前天天在玩的icq跟xanga跟hkflash。

例如說,

一段友誼,當年明明是無所不談的摯友,現在彷如陌路人。

好,就算再timeless的友情,始終都會有一方死先。(orz)

所以說,

zoom out 一點,把 t-axis 的range拉長,

可以在地球混的日子已經夠短了,

在時間洪流裡的我們實在很眇小。

煩惱來到也實在是 no big deal,就像board game 《game of life》一樣,

因為很快就會過期,一格就跳過了。

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驚覺,大學生涯就快過一半了。
嗚。。時間可以放慢一點麻?
The institute is truly my home far away from home.
拖鞋,睡褲,凌晨,教授,課室,可樂,埋頭苦幹。
infinite corridor,vassar street。
我怕我老了會記不起這不平凡的四年:(