vacuum

“Question: how can one manage not to lose time? Answer: experience it at its full length. Means: spend days in the dentist’s waiting room in an uncomfortable chair; listen to lectures in a language that one does not understand, …” – ‘The Plague’ Albert Camus

TBH, i don’t enjoy this summer at all.
(a) the heat could instantly melt me down
(b) got plugged by an energy drain , namely internship, in weekdays
(c) and many of my friends are going through (b)
(d) with that said, all fun-fun-fun 86’d.

but one good thing is that,
on top of usual singk-movie-shopping-gatherings,
I’ve got quality time in solace of thoughtful solitude.

Not that I am losing the human touch,
but sometimes I tend to value the hums of aircon and compu
over the meaningless gags and fake burst of laughter.

today is tomorrow’s yesterday.
today is 30-years-later’s 30-years-ago.
today is 2000-years-later’s 2000-years-ago.
I’m living in history, and an eyewitness to history,
a point at the infinite time-line of mankind.
What I do today is for the 60-years-old to look back.
then I will proudly tell my children without regrets
what I have been doing in 2009, or 2012, or 1995.

this thought dashed through my mind when I was in TW KCR station,
after hundred years, will it become a 古蹟? or, will IFC appear
in documentaries, with people wearing ‘old-fashioned’ clothes
as we see the 1960s people now?

People said studying in Ivy Leagues =/= cream of the crop
it only means your will be at high priority during HR job screening.
oh well, career is not the one and only thing that matters right?
Now I really think 求學是求學,
wht u’ve learnt and how much u’ve grown matter way more.

(Im ashamed to hv lost the ability to write long paragraphs,
[tin yum: sadly it won’t make you a Ballad writer, ..well, you wish..]
I truly love how people write blogs so beautifully, unlike mine, duh.)

“Hm, I do lie a lot. To myself and to others. At the end of the day, though, there’s no objective truth and everything we say are partial lies in one way or the other because language itself is an imperfect representation of concepts. Gee I sound so pretentious.” hedy