OnthePlane

Currently Playing: Asian Kung Fu Generation 転がる岩，君に朝が降る (and songs in the album)
(this entry is typed at 10058 km above ground.)

thanks to Cathay’s superb Studio and my movie-lover-friend, I have watched so many truly amazing films this semester
each and every of them changed my perspective or my life a bit…
ladies and gentlemen, here comes the list showing  where my time has gone [or the reason why I ‘lost 0.3 point in my GPA? ) :  (but im sure Ive watched much more than these haha)

The Reader  *****
“majestically-sombre”
It is now one of the fav favourite film. Bought the book afterwards  It is those kind of movie that I would really like to watch one more time.
Not becoz of the sex scenes, but the more about  how gripping the film is.  I love these kind of films, twisted and oddly solemn.
Milk *****
“triumph over prejudice”
Oscar-winning Sean Penn, at first I thought I would feel uncomfortable watching  movies about gay rights and stuffs, but It is so powerfully moving that in a few key scenes I actually shed tears. One for their victory, one for the lover’s suicide.  And its a true story! (hv to wiki about Harvey Milk later…=p)
Capote******
“In Cold Blood”
Hoffman’s Oscar performance is truly astonishing. I wonder how long he spent in studying the real Truman Capote to act with such depth. The Chin name is translated as 冷血自傳., quite appropriate. Anyway, it is about how Capote wrote his book “in cold blood”..in fact I would like to read the book…but Im not sure if I can stand the terrifying details of the books = =”
An Inconvenient Truth ***
I watched it on the plane, I thought that it might be a shame for an environmental engineer for not watching this documentary. Maybe Im too sleepy I feel like Im sitting at a 100-min lecture. Its quite convincing and revealing (is there such an adjective as ‘revealing’?=_=) And I feel glad that I have actually met Al Gore in person , haha.
Valkyrie (unfinished)
by chance I have watched the ending of this film..and  I’ve lost interest watching from the beginning ..so I didnt really watch it (random voice: icheating! Remove this from ur movie list)
Fracture  ****
I just LOVEEE this kind of movie. I promised I will try to write a detective novel after watching this movie.  Everything is so smartly planned !!!
The Wrestler ***.5
just like The Reader, didnt like it is  三級片 until I finished it…a very saddening life-story with a bitterly glorious ending ..many terrible scenes though…== “
Revolutionary Road ***
watched it with sungki, I have anticipated watching this so much, becoz its DiCarpio and Winslet again!! It actually portrayed a not-very-special story about a couple in the 50s..a bit disappointing, or maybe I am too young to understand the true bitterness of marriage, nor the suburban life in the 50s ?
Twilight
Yes Man
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
Transformer
Bride Wars
神愴手
葉問
敗犬

and actually, what’s the difference between” movies” and “film”?
Is  it parallel to like  the difference between anime and cartoon?

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O-my-god. Is it because I havent read literature books for too long? Or is it because I haven’t taken inspiring literature classes since LPC time?
Reading a few pages of the Readers, I am so astonished by how writers could so PRECISELY melt thoughts into words, it is just beautiful, really beautiful
even its a translated novel , Im  really ashamed of writing this blog with bad english……-_-”
feels like, I could only appreciate the beauty of literature, but not able to let ink flow like silk.
Ist just like, I could only watch soccer game, cheer for the players, but I could never play soccer that well.
I feel even more ashamed that I have read so little in my life, a few simple lines in the first chapter of a random book I bought could already suck me in with its power.

Some nice lines
“a seductiveness that had nothing to do with breasts and hips and legs, but was an invitation to forget the world in the recesses of the body.”
“Desires, memories, fears, passions form labyrinths in which we lose and find and then lose ourselves again.”
“I think, I reach a conclusion, I turn the conclusion into a decision, and then I discover that acting on the decision is sth else entirely, and that doing so may proceed from the decision, but then again it may not….but behavior does not merely enact whatever has already been thought through and decided. It has its own sources, and is my behavior quite indepenently, just as my thoughts are my thoughts, and my decision my decisions”

and this’s how I feeling:
“I wasn’t relieved, the way you can sometimes be when you feel funny about a certain decision and afraid of the consequences and then relived that you’ve managed to carry out the former without incurring the latter. Nor was I disappointed”

and the movie really followed the book! Which is great
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I have stopped reading the book..becoz it is 1:48 am US time..and I realized Im the only one turning on the light, fine I know it is disturbing.
Trying my best to distract myself from thinking about the internship, movies, books, mp3s….
now nothing can silence my fear.  Nothing.
5 more days I have to face the real trouble My boss asked me to phone him upon my arrival. Shit.
What am I suppose to say? And it is only the very first thing I have to do….
how many challenges ahead that that will completely crash my dignity and confidence ?
Doing things that I can never do up to  their standards?
Im always questioned why I could get this internship or why I would accept this offer.
Man, if you were me , how can you turn down the offer ?
Boy, am I stressed. How contradicting it is, at the time I could meet my family , it is the time to accept the invitation from hell.
Aai….so I have to phone him?

It is something that I have never mentioned. Its about committing suicide.  RELAX RELAX Im not going to end my life= = haha
after watching those movies, many ppl choose ending their life in escaping from unsolvable problems.
But I guess, committing suicide needs the biggest determination ever, stronger than any decision in life.
And as im a coward..i would rather accepting the challenges painfully instead of ending my life..which is even more painful haha~~
ok I know it is morally incorrect to write sth like this. I better go to sleep now.

I am so scared…3 months…I am so disturbed in making a phone call to my boss already.
What about he first day of work? What about the weeks and weeks of jobs that I have no idea about?
Man, this is indeed the biggest problem I have ever faced in my 20-year-of-life.

I am so stressed that I can hardly breath when I think about it. (no worry, not swine flu)
aiiiiiiii……..>o< I need a 強心針 …but if my heart is hollow my mind is blind my ability is empty, what could be done?
Man..I think I need to talk to someone…………..

Fi0ni, you know you are expecting this.
It is definitely not new that you are putting yourself into deep shit, just that, this time is really a deep huge shit.

How could I possibly sleep with this thread of horrifying thought keep tightening up exponentially?

I love university life. I love studying. Can I refuse facing the challenge?
Not that “dont you know Im so tired of it all.” but its ..don’t you know Im so incapable of it all?
Call me Lor Lai Jin.

I will be so tense up every day, drain off my energy , confidence and credit, and embrace my dear precious uni life again at Aug 29, as a wounded hollow shell.
How I love MIT.