飴玉の唄 What am I

僕は君を 信じたけど 君が消えたらどうしよう
考えると止まらないよ 何も解らなくなる
僕は嫌だよ 君がいいよ 離れたくないな
飴玉食べた 君が笑う
僕は君を 信じたから

my bro’s visit triggered me to really think and evaluate my life right now.

|who m i. what am i . am i too lonesome?
even i think i could be independent, i feel so relaxed when my nro is here as i got someone to rely on
i could burst into tears by any kind of encouragement or criticism.

i really appreciate someone appreciating or acknowledging my hard work.
i want approval and congratulations.

i am generally hostile but is self-protective-nature-driven

i need entertainment and a kiddish mind sometimes
i am very weak to criticism, so i choose to block all feedback pathways,
becoz i care about feedback so much, so i better kill the chance of seeing them.

i love and is good at data collection and sharing.

i hv  risk-phobia. but if it could ease my pain, i will go for it.

im an introvert.

i like to escape fromignore//postpone tackling big problems

i love to sleep and play.

i have unbearable an unpreditable emotional change.

i am still immature in many aspects.

i am not ambitious in nature. just to survive i reluctantly strive for competitive advantage

i have my strength but is faded by my constant fear of being foolish / failure

i need help. but have no courage to ask for help

i love my bro and my family. they are my spiritual backbone.

after all im no one special,

just a shy sister who needs support and love.