http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGHt5mLQ8U8
my favourite 插楽 in 鋼之鍊金術師 (..ah i really like this anime so much)
So finally my first round of 4-midterm-battle is over.
my motto now is be happy with marks thats above class average
(considering im competing with MIT students…well am I not one though? lol)
and treat getting As as a bonus/blessing/unusual achievement
and rmb my reachable aim is: getting A for japanese 1802 1803
and getting B for biology and physics
A word on physics. remember one of the happiest things to get into LPC is that
I can finally get rid of physics. hmm I never had a good physics teacher …
and kind of within expectation that I got Bs for all the quantitative subjects in HKCEE
so getting into MIT and pulling myself into all these physics-engineering-math again
at first I was unwilling and freaked out, but for the sake of the school as an technology institute,
plus I dun really wanna give up my identity as a science student (which in fact I quite enjoyed)
I chose to pave a not-easy path towards sth that might not (and proven) be my best talent nor top interest
(I love languages and writing and reading parody and culture and data analysis and stalking)
therefore many legendary examples within my friend circle, are somehow encouraging.
how ppl who used to suck at math and become a math major,
how a person F jor physics and major mechanical engineering,
how a failed-many-subjects medic student managed to be an outstanding doctor now
When I said I got 66 marks, my dad will usually say “so 70 is the full mark?”
and now he also adjusted to say “so can you get a B?” haha
I am really thankful on how my parents understand the transition I am going through now.
the most frequent encouragement I got after I come here is: “要有信心先得架麻”
and I really see how the lost of confidence in me has seriously hindered my mental health
i felt im endlessly running downhill ..
living by the stereotypes that asians/international students should be really wud gay
and you know, since primary 1 academic achievement was once something I am most proud of.
I am not smart but I (…occasionally) work my ass off ,
e.g. 18oh3 I got a B after I studied sooooooo much.
but actually I didnt feel sad, because I have really practiced so much
and the test has pushed me to clear concepts and I am happy that I’ve learnt from my mistakes.
the entry is getting too long, what I wanna say is
as time goes by, I gradually know how to cope with the hosed life in here
Don’t compare and give my best work. STOP SELF-PITYING.
and avoid @ deep-sh!t situation…
and after all, academic is no BIGGGG deal, happiness no.1 !
impromptuz 