have a nice day

just that, as a front desk worker, I can never say “have a nice day” very sincerely
as in Chinese it is like “我希望你會有美好的一天!“how awkward is that to say to a stranger…
in the beginning of the job apparently I have no sense of these american-style front-desk etiquette
man, you know it takes me so long to slur this “have a nice day”  out..haha
and someone said to me that “have a wonderful day!” to me, it sounds like disneyland advertisement

so other things are like
“hey how are you doing”
“good!! you?”
“good!”

this 3 seconds pointless conversation is just long enough to substitute the weird stare/smile.

anyway, I think my english is getting worse.
not just grammar, but my spoken english is so bad haahaha
if you ask me about my regrets in life , one of them would be I could never get rid my Hong Kong accent
well some people will politely pointed out that “hey, you have a slight british accent”
and some will just say “hey where are you from?” …..
well, I think before working on my accent..i better polish my phy/math/bio to the mit standard first…sigh

sigh
3 exams.
i dun wanna study.

sometimes i feel strange that
im just acting the life for myself…duno how to describe it
as language itself limits concepts ,
its like , my soul, is working for this body and this name
trying to fulflil this person personality
but actually, my inner self is not really myself.
u understand wht im saying/

and i always feel like im repeating myself in this blog
i got this feeling that i have actually typed/said the exactly same thing here before
( a deja vu blog-wise?)
maybe its because i tend to store a thread of thought in my mind for so long
and its kind of assimilated and become a part of me
so everything i typed here is so familiar
and i got the ability to say the exact same lines without realizing it,lol

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