懂得太多人被心眼絆倒

yesterday has an interesting talk with a friend
(yea thats what we do for exam preparation)

seems there is a set expected formula for all people in the HK community

1. earn a university degree
2. get a job and earn money to support ur family and urself
3. buy a big house and car
4. get married and have a baby

and the baby will follow step 1-4 again
and the baby’s baby will follow step 1-4 too

generated by natural selection and some traditional thoughts,
this steps of life may have the best survival advantage

what people think is, social pressure:
1. DONT earn a university degree -> you are stupid
2. get a job and earn money to support ur family and urself –> you are not contributing to ur society and being selfish
3. buy a big house and car –> you dont have any label showing your richness
4. get married and have a baby –> you will have no one to take care of you when you are old

is it a must to follow this?
There are many things I wanna do
And what Im looking for is definitely NOT being rich or become an ibanker

sth I must do in my life:
i want to live in Japan for a year
I want to speak Japanese fluently
I want to have a job that is with low risk and high pay (XD)
I want to enjoy my life
I want to have enough sleep every day
I want to travel around the world, alone

thats what im really looking forward to.
so why i really appreciate people getting a gap year

why do we have to slave under the social expectation?
why cant I go to somewhere do some volunteer work
Why should I get straight As if it means I will have no life?

We never know how long our life would be.
人生如白駒過隙，倘不及時行樂，則老大徒傷悲也！

Walk With Giants

(random title again)

Last week of class!

Today i finally recharged my ipod
listening “700 nian hou” at the infinite corridor
is sth so out of place, out of time

recently my dreams are really haunting/weird/scary
i hv no clue whts the sources of these dreams from
i believe if i hv some more normal dreams
i would wake up easier…i mean i will be less fettered by jao-gung

im either being追殺 that i have to hide / run for my life
or is sth super real in life but with many incomprehensible details

fracture

Do you dare stay out?
Do you dare go in?
How much can you lose?
How much can you win?
And if you go in, should you turn left or right?
Or right and there-quarters?
Or maybe not quite?
You can get so confused…that you’ll start in to race…
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace…
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space…
headed i fear towards a most useless place…the waiting place.
For people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go, or for a bus to come, or a plane to go
, or the mail to come, or the rain to go, or the phone to ring
, or the snow to snow, or waiting around for a yes or a no
, or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants, or a wig with curls
, or another chance

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig of curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

Theodor Seuss Geisel
你敢後退嗎　你敢向前嗎 你輸得起多少　你贏得了多少 假如你前進了　應該向左還是向右 還是往右偏四分之三　或也許不用這麼多 你頭腦只有一片困惑 跳上一條彎彎的小路　使勁地跑 以為堅定無疑地跑了很遠 沿路景物古怪又可笑 我怕你會一頭栽進一個最無聊的地方 一個叫做等待的地方 在那裡人們沒完沒了的等 等著火車駛去　等著公車開來 等著飛機起飛　等著郵件寄到 等著雨停　等著電話響 等著雪花紛飛　等著一個答案 等著一串珠寶或一條褲子 或等著一頭波浪般的捲髮 或等著下一個機會飛黃騰達

i got a double

becoz of our low rank , we got a double room.
even my future roomate wants a single room so much, we have to stay together.

stupid ranking system.

as a sophomore,
i cant afford getting irritated again by roomate’s noises
i hate people looking at me when im trying to concentrate 100% for studying
i hate someone’s walking around when im doing my problem set
i hate people intruding to my privacy
i hate people knowing what i am doing 24 hours a day and judge me
i hate looking at people studying when im taking a rest
i HATE someone who can suddenly open the door and come in without knocking

anyway,

suen so.

im so going to move out next spring.

i believe, i ABSOLUTELY believe,
i could study much much much much much better when im alone

im energetic when im alone

i dun have to care who else is in my room suddenly

i hate i hate i hate i hate sharing my private place with others

i have enough pressure outside my room already

why i have to be bothered too when im in my own room?