impromptuz

a week of anxiety………..

這週整個人的精神狀態有點hyper，有點離地。
到了星期六，感覺自己好像剛剛從瘋人院出來一樣。
（sorry no offence to anyone，到了2017年的現代，說什麼事情也要小心一點。隨口說“痴線”也會被團體討論的）
原因是什麼我也說不清楚。
只知道其實我很累，很多大大小小的happenings，
其實都在消耗著我的time，effort and money（根據”The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F**k“所說，這三件事情就是你的f*k to give了。）

這一連串emotionally taxing的事情包括：

• 這週其實filled with deadlines，但偏偏我就去了兩日training + 半日annual leave。所以在公司電腦前的機會可謂非常寶貴，所以就有“做得幾多得幾多”嘅mentality。
• 星期二半日annual leave 半日來回東涌和廣播道，其實非常疲累。見到偶像又尷尬又興奮。
• 星期二下班後補習，補習妹妹的爸爸媽媽突然和我家庭會議，說補習妹妹覺得累，不想補兩天。
• 星期三非常早起床出發屯門黃金海岸，由於怕起不了床，前一晚睡不好。又怕miss了免費shuttle bus，所以提早很多就到shuttle bus stop等。
• 星期三下午收到晴天霹靂的消息，我最敬重最崇拜的大老闆辭職了。整天悶悶不樂。真的很影響大家的心情。然後又做了蠢事，怕被告發。謝謝b來訪。
• 星期四training時要做presentation，怕怕羞羞的性格突然出現，被同輩指指點點我也覺得很尷尬。連續兩天的training要扮social扮多野講真的好疲累。
• 星期四發現上司做了一件x到出宇宙的事情，讓我很感概。為什麼有才的大老闆要離開？而活化石卻可以在公司生存這麼久？
• 星期四發現我的training groupmate原來是星巴克某飲品的始創人，因此我的心情又很興奮。
• 星期四下班後回到家，第二次發現小強。雖然被我秒殺，但依然覺得很不安，也不禁可憐自己，居住環境質素真的很差。
• 星期五早上收到活化石的電話，他竟然把矛頭指向我（明明是他的錯）。在公司脾氣不錯的我也真的生氣了。
• 中午跟同事吃飯，因情緒太hyper我也口不擇言了。結果就是，怕自己因太八卦會pk。
• 下午帶了兩個tour（包括一個亞洲xyz協會來參觀），所以情緒更推高了一點。
• 週五ot到8點多，完全出於人道理由去幫我的老闆。他也太可憐了。到了這個point，我也很累了。還要坐一個多小時的車回家。
• 回到家，爸爸帶病回港，也需要提供氣力去主動照顧和安慰。
• 查查銀行戶口，原來搞錯了東西，需要週六早上去銀行。對於自己的不小心真的無話可說了。
• 我的gmail連續12天收不到電郵。
• 我的work email 也因mailbox full而send不到email。

 

 

今天的消息貌似與我無關，但足足讓我悶悶不樂了一整天，嚴重似情侶講分手。

• 雖然碰面機會不多，我的榮幸可以在你leadership的普照下工作了3年多。沒了你這個icon，也絕對是公司的損失。
• 雖然我這個little potato未有資格與你共事，但單單是在不同場合有機會witness到你的做事作風，你絕對是我的偶像。
• 我會記得當年regular meeting被你罵我的minutes冗長不到位（但原來shadow這些minutes，我真的學到由不同angles去看待商場）。
• 我會記得那一次坐上你的白色紅座range rover ，一起到金鐘巡場看footfall，再到JW Marriott lobby cafe 喝茶的半天。我覺得我中了六個彩，開心到今天。
• 我會記得2016年我們在小山一起過冬至晚飯，你坐在我旁邊，看著你應對著6-7人，我拿起杯時你拍拍我，示意不用再喝了。
• 我會記得ball pit一役，看著你如何冷靜拆彈。
• 我會記得你的trade mix ideas（包括好幾個破天荒的ideas），以及巡場時必須留意的事項。
• 有時沒有被邀請與你巡場，我也會偷偷問同事，做點筆記，寫下你說了什麼。
• 我會記得你如何可以把世界上歐洲亞洲不同的good examples 作參考，做零售就是要多看看。
• 你讓我開始閱讀Wallpaper*. 

我還有好多東西想跟你學習，可惜，我才加入公司5年，你卻突然要走了。

all the best boss! 

(urgh didn’t bring my macbook home, need to type in English tim… sadly now I only know how to write in business English..)

Back in MIT, there was a compulsory Humanities, Arts, and Social Sciences (HASS) Requirement for all undergraduates. I have always wanted to learn more about Philosophy / Psychology / Anthropology / Linguistics, etc..but ended up I only took one Linguistics course due to GPA concerns =_=”

Thanks to edX and Coursera, now I could take whatever classes I want! (so far I had only completed Gamification  and Designing Cities coincidentally both by UPenn)

Hope I could finish both of these by 31 Dec 2017!! (So far only finished reading ‘Option B’ this year =____=) 

(1) Justice – HarvardX by Michael Sandel 

Learning about Utilitarianism (Jeremy Bentham / JS Mill), Libertarianism (Robert Nozick), self-ownership, Locke’s property rights..

(2) Sapiens – A Brief History of Mankind 

#SpoilerAlert

• cognitive revolution (70,000 years ago) -> agricultural revolution (10,000 years ago)->scientific revolution (500 years ago)
• prehistoric humans were nothing outstanding compared to other animals. Many different species of ‘homo’ simultaneously existed on earth (unlike the ‘evolution’ photo we often see).
• love how he reiterates the power of “imagination” for homo sapiens (i.e. human beings) throughout the book which enables us to overcome natural selection / DNA genetic changes and eventually dominated the world!! thanks to our unique language and ability to gossip (~150 people max). 
• With an imaginative culture (nations, gods, human rights, companies, money, politics, myths, beliefs, all are indeed imaginary / unnatural/fictional in some sense!) , unlike other animals/species, we are able to cooperate in a large numbers flexibly.
• DUAL reality (even today!): physical reality and imagined reality. 
• so inspired by how he pointed out agricultural revolution is a bad thing to humankind. We were born to be hunter-gatherers, but now it has limited our option of food (i.e. not as nutritious vs. diverse range of food), more prone to risks (e.g. drought, diseases, etc) , and we no longer move around. We are domesticated by wheats..and lead to populations booms (even unremarkable genes could pass on since no more natural selections). Humans, cows, chickens, all suffer more. 
• also very saddened by the fact that human beings have lead to the extinctions of many animals (e.g. once we arrived Australia, almost all large animals were killed and extincted!!) and how we have violently treated other animals even now…:< not sure what I could do about it. I won’t become a vegan, becoz it’s against nature ..still need a diverse diet. =_=
• Human has a large brain compared to our body size. (That’s why our baby was so little becoz otherwise the skull will be too big for birth!! vs. other animals like horse / cats). Thanks to fire and cooked food, we have shorter intestine and i.e. larger portion can dedicate to the brain.

(reading this in simplified Chinese though. struggled a bit whether to read this in English/Chinese initially)

Attended a Wine Tasting 101 class today. Taken some notes that I found interesting / useful.

Variety of White Wine (3)
– Chardonnay (“Shar-dun-nay”)
– Riesling (“Reese-ling”)
[Smile when you read this! Germany]
– Sauvignon Blanc  (“Saw-vin-yawn Blonk”) 
[New Zealand]

Variety of Red Wine (4) 
– Pinot Noir (“Pee-no Nwar”)
– Cabernet Sauvignon (“Cab-er-nay Saw-vin-yawn”)
[Or simply ‘Cab’] 
– Syrah/Shiraz (“Sear-ah”)
– Merlot

Random Notes Enough for you to Bluff!

• All wines smell like fruit.  “Fantastic fruit!”
• Yeast + Sugar –> heat + bubble + alcohol
• more ripe, more alcohol! 
• Strong Aroma Intensity (can smell below chin) –> New World Wine (i.e. outside Europe),“Powerful fruit! Robust!” 
• Weaker Aroma Intensity (can smell above chin) –> European / Old World Wine “Smells elegant! ” 

 

 

這幾年特別留意到，眼部旁邊的皺紋開始更明顯。

這時才驚覺其實我也差不多30歲了。

很多護膚產品都在sell 可以讓你保持年輕。

如果不是太嚴重，其實為什麼需要刻意掩飾自己的年齡？

有白頭髮就有白頭髮，有皺紋就有皺紋。這些都是自然的，必然的。