i want to go back to school…..

life is so suffocating. FML

ppl r soo absurd and phony and fake and cocky

i’m devalued in all sense and it doesn’t make sense

im experiencing time in full length every day

i’m expecting no privacy 24/7

sometimes i think life like this is slow-suicidal

jeez….. i’m absolutely lost

“Among other things, you’ll find that you’re not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You’re by no means alone on that score, you’ll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You’ll learn from them – if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It’s a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn’t education. It’s history. It’s poetry.”

– J.D. Salinger

I am too happy after the easyass BBQ  gathering.
Happiness is not only limited to weekends!!
becoz of this..i’m just going to type
wht i’ve scribbled on my notebook earlier today
welcome to guess wht the original post would be like haaha:

– Modus Operandi synonym = routine

– underwent a spiritual crisis

– sycophantic?

– stranding

– Modern love column

– silence my  own skeptics with truths

– Andriod, Chroms OS, Bing

– enter a new phase

– NYT ‘look up word’ function is so cool

“””When I came to MIT as a freshman more than four years ago, I was excited for the challenge. One of the first things I heard at MIT was the oft-repeated parable about the bell curve, or, as we engineers might call it, a normal distribution. I forget who told me it first. Perhaps it was my freshman advisor, but it goes something like this: “If you were to put every student on a bell curve, MIT accepts only the highest one percent. You’re used to being in that top one percent, but now that you’re here, that curve starts all over. You won’t always be the best. You won’t always even be average.”””” The Tech

so i have just got this news that I can take 1.00 next sem

so…here comes the “thriller”..

1.oo Intro to Computers and Engineering Problem Solving

1.o5o Engineering Mechanics I

1.o18J Ecology I: The Earth System

1.1o1 Intro to CEE Design I

17.541 Japanese Politics

14.01 Principles of Microeconomics

no, i don’t think I can handle it.
yes, I have registered for all of the above.

I won’t let myself start worrying until im in deep sh!t XD

“There is no news today” — BBC , 1930年 good friday

0:35 – 0:51

Release!! I am out of control

I’ m out of body
Release!! I am out of control
Whose here to party
Release !! am out of control
I’m out of body
Release!!I am out of control
I””””m out of……
(Oh, yeah)  -Release, Timbaland

after seeing “release” this word @ 10:00am this morning,
this chorus keep looping in my mind till now…
which is quite sarcastic
becoz I am so not out of body for 10 hours sitting there stilll…

anyway, this chorus is enough summarizing my day.
call me hea, but lemme quote BBC again, there is really no news today.
period.

像水墨畫，人生要留白。

當生活之弦繃得太緊，
應停下來卸下壓抑，來給自己留些空白。
留白，可能才是一天的精髓所在。

偶然的停頓，也是生活的藝術。

靜觀留白處，
有才者韜光養晦，藏鋒避芒
得志者養精蓄銳，修養風范
失意者反省自慰，休養生息。

“處女座狀態好的時候，可以將自己聰明、細膩、能幹、溫情、幽默、有內涵等優良品質完全外展，此時他們顯得如此完美，光芒四射，並且可以表現得非常外向、健 談，容易與人打成一片（這本非他們的性格）。而一旦處女座狀態不好，便會變成另一個人，甚至非常窩囊，一事無成，不過通常此時他們都躲避外在的干擾,所以 讓人感覺有點間歇性自閉症” HOW TRUEEEE ahahha

“要麼便極度冷漠和被動，對誰都不理不睬。其實處女座很清楚自己現在的樣子，但他們無力改變和控制自己的情緒，只能選擇瘋狂地逃避一切。他們想的是：與其很 不自然地面對你，尷尬地和你說些無關痛癢地話，或是因和平時反差太大而被人說成表裡不一，性格怪異，還不如先躲一陣子，等調節好了以後再出來。所以，在與 人交往中，他們只會和不得不交流的人（實在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正無所謂）交談，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏遠。” so true =…….=””

不喜主動，不善交際（也可以熱情，只是今天熱了，終有一天會冷的），不愛表現，不喜拋頭露面（萬一哪天情緒無法把握狀態不好時，豈不大失臉面） gwa gwa gwa gwa