齊物論

before anything, i really wanna say:華懋一定要贏 ng goi…and mr.chan等天收

What I would really do is :

0) Buy a new eyeglasses. one of them broke into two pieces. I want a nerdy one.
1) Watch OCW videos for Engineering Mechanics I every night / weekend

2) write detective novel jointly with my MIT friend in a blog starting from June
(yea maybe next year u will see @ur  hometown bookstore…detective novel by MIT authors!)

3) shop stuffs to decorate my new room into a 和室
(??!)

or buying pictures like

seriously,
how to decorate my room liek a japanese roomm???? any suggestion?

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昔者莊周夢為胡蝶
栩栩然胡蝶也
自喻適志與
不知周也
俄然覺 則蘧蘧然周也
不知周之夢為胡蝶與
胡蝶之夢為周與
—–莊子<齊物論>

春立下分際的標竿時,我作了一個夢。
我夢見我竟然變成了人,走到草原上,
看著自己飛來飛去。
雨水沾濕了翅膀,卻讓花香更清明;
穀雨雖然寒冷,卻讓鮮豔的顏色更磅礡。
當我還是蝴蝶的時候,我不知道自己如此地快樂。

我遇過這叢花嗎?或是這花的誕生是因為我?
我能再遇到他嗎?還是我從未盛開過?
不過,我知道那花從此印記成我的紋路

Chaque papillon etait le fantome d’une fleur passe,
revenant a la recherche de elle-meme

那個隱居的女人,她的朋友說。

Est-ce que j’ai vraiment rencontre cette fleur?
Etait-elle nee pour moi?
Est-ce que je vais la revoir?
N’ai-je jamais eclos?

當我夢為人的時候,我才發覺這被忽略的快樂。
尋找前世的蝴蝶,在夢的觸鬚中成了人;
身體形式是生命的各站停靠。
懂得太多的人,被心眼絆倒,在計較間迷走打轉
而那不怕貘、不懂生死的翅膀,正飛舞在最美的風景間
我期待夢醒的時候,要做一隻順應快樂的蝴蝶。

「每一個蝴蝶都是從前的一朵花的鬼魂,回來尋找它自己。」

懂得太多人被心眼絆倒

yesterday has an interesting talk with a friend
(yea thats what we do for exam preparation)

seems there is a set expected formula for all people in the HK community

1. earn a university degree
2. get a job and earn money to support ur family and urself
3. buy a big house and car
4. get married and have a baby

and the baby will follow step 1-4 again
and the baby’s baby will follow step 1-4 too

generated by natural selection and some traditional thoughts,
this steps of life may have the best survival advantage

what people think is, social pressure:
1. DONT earn a university degree -> you are stupid
2. get a job and earn money to support ur family and urself –> you are not contributing to ur society and being selfish
3. buy a big house and car –> you dont have any label showing your richness
4. get married and have a baby –> you will have no one to take care of you when you are old

is it a must to follow this?
There are many things I wanna do
And what Im looking for is definitely NOT being rich or become an ibanker

sth I must do in my life:
i want to live in Japan for a year
I want to speak Japanese fluently
I want to have a job that is with low risk and high pay (XD)
I want to enjoy my life
I want to have enough sleep every day
I want to travel around the world, alone

thats what im really looking forward to.
so why i really appreciate people getting a gap year

why do we have to slave under the social expectation?
why cant I go to somewhere do some volunteer work
Why should I get straight As if it means I will have no life?

We never know how long our life would be.
人生如白駒過隙,倘不及時行樂,則老大徒傷悲也!

Walk With Giants

(random title again)

Last week of class!

Today i finally recharged my ipod
listening “700 nian hou” at the infinite corridor
is sth so out of place, out of time

recently my dreams are really haunting/weird/scary
i hv no clue whts the sources of these dreams from
i believe if i hv some more normal dreams
i would wake up easier…i mean i will be less fettered by jao-gung

im either being追殺 that i have to hide / run for my life
or is sth super real in life but with many incomprehensible details

fracture

Do you dare stay out?
Do you dare go in?
How much can you lose?
How much can you win?
And if you go in, should you turn left or right?
Or right and there-quarters?
Or maybe not quite?
You can get so confused…that you’ll start in to race…
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace…
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space…
headed i fear towards a most useless place…the waiting place.
For people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go, or for a bus to come, or a plane to go
, or the mail to come, or the rain to go, or the phone to ring
, or the snow to snow, or waiting around for a yes or a no
, or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants, or a wig with curls
, or another chance

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig of curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

Theodor Seuss Geisel
你敢後退嗎 你敢向前嗎 你輸得起多少 你贏得了多少 假如你前進了 應該向左還是向右 還是往右偏四分之三 或也許不用這麼多 你頭腦只有一片困惑 跳上一條彎彎的小路 使勁地跑 以為堅定無疑地跑了很遠 沿路景物古怪又可笑 我怕你會一頭栽進一個最無聊的地方 一個叫做等待的地方 在那裡人們沒完沒了的等 等著火車駛去 等著公車開來 等著飛機起飛 等著郵件寄到 等著雨停 等著電話響 等著雪花紛飛 等著一個答案 等著一串珠寶或一條褲子 或等著一頭波浪般的捲髮 或等著下一個機會飛黃騰達