沖縄に行く前に!

in a very 犯賤 mode.
i can’t stop thinking about classes when i’m having holidays.
similarly,
i can’t stop thinking about holidays when i was having classes.

can I be a student for life?? So I can learn and hv long holidays and face no competition (as in career-wise)?~~

there are many classes that I wanna take asap so that
1) solely for the holy purpose of learning– self-improvement/ add value, whtever u called it.
2) I could be more equipped with practical knowledge for internship interviews
3) i could share wht i’ve learnt with people or to enrich this blog/daily conversation with more solid info instead of rubbish.
e.g. all the classes that im taking next semester. i really look forward to learning those, especially fluid mechanics, accounting and probability.
e.g. transportation analysis, finance theory, microeconomics, optimization, operations management and game theory.

grrrrrrr………………

anyway. im going to okinawa tomorrow la

okokok….
wont bore you guys with every single details of my academic /daily life anymore
the next entries would be about  沖縄家庭自駕遊!!! ^_____^
time to practice my nihongo!! gogogoo~~~

第一次在校園哭  是在freshman的第一個學期。
那時,我呆站在lobby 7 外的石階,下午12時,轉課上課的學生 來去上落。

明明已經跟自己說了很多遍 “take it easy”,不散的的失望情緒還是讓我有想哭的衝動。原來淚水早已不爭氣地在眼眶裡打轉,正午的陽光一縷一縷地刺入汪汪瞳眸,粼粼淚眼中糊成碎狀的人群在晃動著。我用袖子擦著眼角,淚水卻越抹越多。我淺嘗到了麻省理工式的霎時絕望,如果我當時就能領悟阿爾貝·卡繆在”The Plague”裡中所說“a habit of despair is worse than despair itself”,我怎可能讓這開端熬成當下的chronic 挫敗感。

不知所措的我拿起電話,邊努力回想著xg的香港手提號碼,邊按著家的區號+852。撥通了,熟識的聲線讓我鎮定了點。頭二十秒,聽筒充斥著嘆氣聲,哽咽的呼吸聲和斷續的語句。在同輩前輩後輩前總不能示弱,只有在這哭訴的首選前才可以坦白釋懷。失望的單一原因現在已經微不足道,但處女座的特色總tends to 把煩惱放大伸延,腦裡不停運轉猜想其他分枝問題和潛在的domino effect。

一次又一次的despair,太陽還是照常升起,生活還是如常進行。正如詩人Robert Frost對於生活的三字總結:It goes on. 的確,每天我們都若有所失,不用等到年底的new year’s resolution,又自然重新開始。的確,scientifically speaking,每一天都可以是new year day。每一刻地球都在依據orbital path某一點完成一次revolution。不用理會曆法上的新年,其實每一刻 都可以是 立志定下resolution ,令下一刻更進步的 元旦。

3 Things You Must Know About the Post-Soviet Kremlin

“I noticed, with an involuntary pity, that the Tsar cannot smile with his eyes and his mouth at the same time.” – Marquis de Custine

1) How strong is Russia?
Land giant – An enormous place with 140 million ppl living on 1/9 of Earth’s land area spanning 11 time zones. The country has just celebrated her first population growth in 15 years, slowly recovering from the sharp drop in population since the 1991 Soviet collapse.
“Russia Inc.”– As one of the world’s largest oil provider after Saudi Arabia,  Russia is responsible for a third of Europe’s oil and natural gas. I can’t agree more with journalist Steve LeVine that the energy giant “for the first time burst out of its border not at the point of a gun, but through the strength of its purse” with the ever-elevating oil price since Putin’s first year on throne.
Political giant -With veto power in the UN Security Council and her increasingly strong global influence,  the country never fear condemning or confronting the US with issues on terrorism, Iraq invasion, Kosovo independence and NATO expansion. Within the country, the foundation of its political structure is the fearsome siloviki, intelligence or military officers recruited to the Kremlin under Mr.Putin’s rule, who are well-known for their dark bare-knuckle approach in ensuring stability.

2) How is Putin engineering his return to the presidency?
Never stop flexing his political muscle – He will be more active in meeting foreign leaders (for example, the list of world leaders in Beijing Olympics 2008), dutifully appear more on state-controlled television than the current President, Dmitry Medvedev. He is still powerful in foreign policy and energy security issues. For the first time in his career, in May 2009 he also started writing columns to express his political views.
Never stop displaying his abs muscle – To boost his 57-year-old personal charisma, in the presence of photographers, he will continue spend time on bare-chest fishing, shirtless horse riding, black-belt judo, tiger killing, swimming with dolphins, hunting…or any kind of vivid display of testosterone. He shows his gentle fatherly side by singing with a nervous schoolgirl at a national-broadcast school visit. (In my opinion, all these deliberate PR approaches are very successful in keeping his high 80-percent approval rating.)
Coached questioners – When being asked about his return with millions watching on the state-run television, he hinted”I will think about it. There is plenty of time”.  The phone-in questioner is in fact one of the coached members in his own communications team.

3) Looking back into history, why is the general populace in Russia indifferent towards the state violence–or as described by NYT, a political system which  activists are murdered with impunity and oligarchs are thrown in jail?
History created culture –
In the six hundred years of Russian history, Russians are accustomed to the tradition of fear-based rule. From Ivan the Terrible, Josef Stalin or even the most-admired Peter the Great, the Soviet population was fearful of the wave of violence, but at the same time, they also seemed to defend the Tsar as a symbol of patriotism in bringing glory and pride. This long-rooted fundamental contradiction preserves until today.
Culture created history – Though I say they maybe accustomed to such atmosphere of impunity, I never think anyone would favor dictatorship. That is why when democratic election is available as an alternative in the Post-Soviet area, the new system is applauded. As long as there is prosperity and political stability,  the general populace is therefore not motivated to challenge the system at all. The detachment or passiveness may simply the lack of inclination to care as caring is in vain.

galileo

given my days now are entertained by:
1) mr. brain
2) galileo
3) 法證先鋒
4) putin’s labyrinth
5) putin and the rise of russia
6) linear algebra (?!)
i’m not far from reaching a conspiracy theorist’s mindset…=_=

Structural Mechanics
Fluid Mechanics
Ecology
Sustainability

Microeconomics
Macroeconomics
Probabilistic System Analaysis
Financial Accounting

Logistics System
Operations Management
System Dynamics
Finance Theory
Statistical Thinking and Data Analysis
Computer and Problem Solving
Data Analysis for Management
Business Communication
Managerial Psychology
Optimization Method
Linear Algebra
Differential Equation
Japanese 4,5,6

Japanese Politics
Post-Soviet Politics
Globalization
Calculus
Electromagnetism
Classical Physics
Biology
Chemical Principle
Global Positioning System

People of the year

top 1o category: affection and appreciation in the year of 2009.

(1) Vladimir Putin
From the intriguing mystery of all those polonium-210 poisoning and KGB experience….his outwardly emotionless expressions…his obvious implication in returning to the presidency.. to the recent super hot shirtless hunting photo release! <3
(2) THE gar-jai / My cup of tea
For his breathtaking beauty, intelligence, konjo and our kieta go-en.
(3) Jim Parsons / Dr. Sheldon Cooper
The source of my weekend laughter….and he proved nerdy is indeeeed the new sexy :3
(4) Michael Jackson
Around half of my free time in the summer is dedicated to MJ’s music videos, gossips, funeral and news.
(5) Ji Xiao-Lan (紀曉嵐)
Wholly captivated by the TV program. I almost rename myself as Aisin Gioro Ka Hei / could time-travel to the Qing Dynasty.

to be continued.

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21H.467 Soviet and Post-Soviet Politics and Society, 1917-Present (17.57J)

Explores the political and historical evolution of Soviet and post-Soviet state and society from the Revolution of 1917 to the present.  Organized around three main topics:  1) the creation of the Soviet state (with parallels to Putin’s Russia today);  2) the development of a Stalinist pattern of relations between state and society; and 3) the transformation of the Soviet system, its ultimate collapse, and rebirth as the Russian state under Yeltsin and Putin.  We will read primary and secondary sources with some film clips and web exercises.”!!!!!!!
mannn…..if there is no time clash…or there is no such thing as paper/grade……..i would totally take this class……..
Learning is about learning things happening on this world that you realllly want to know more about right?
and after taking so many classes – and even summer intern- related to Japan, i wanna learn more about my 2nd favorite country~