Author: impromptuz

回看呢個17年嘅老blog，原來「方大同」呢個名居然都出現過4次。

大學period嘅playlist都一定會有幾首佢嘅歌曲，所以好似part of history都消失咗咁。

冇幾耐 like few months ago 先同her問過，點解方大同好似冇咩update。

睇threads話，感覺就係「一個好耐冇見嘅舊同事，甚至有偷偷有好感/暗戀過嘅對象。突然收到佢嘅死訊嘅震撼」。

見到話周杰倫要長命百歲。
如果可以睇live演唱會就去睇，因為唔知道會唔會係最後一次。

才41歲，真係太年輕了。

雖然唔係一個fan，居然我都grieve咗2日，download返d歌，loop返我嘅favorite（三人遊）。

另一個takeaway係，真係唔好以為人生會好長。好多人會set咗個timeline係80歲。其實如果想豐富充實d，應該set做50歲。有咩想做想試，就唔好等。自己舒服係priority，唔好委屈自己。

又有幾多人真係可以做到「無悔」，只可以儘量做。

“Chaos is the only sure thing in this world. The master that rules us all. “

“ Nature has no edges, no hard lines. “

“| This was what Darwin was trying so hard to get his readers to see: that there is never just one way of ranking nature’s organisms. To get stuck on a single hierarchy is to miss the bigger picture, the messy truth of nature, the “whole machinery of life.” The work of good science is to try to peer beyond the “convenient” lines we draw over nature. To peer beyond intuition, where something wilder lives. To know that in every organism at which you gaze, there is complexity you will never comprehend.”

Growing up,” she told me, “is learning to stop believing people’s words about you.”

“The best way of ensuring that you don’t miss them, these gifts, the trick that has helped me squint at the bleakness and see them more clearly, is to admit, with every breath, that you have no idea what you are looking at. To examine each object in the avalanche of Chaos with curiosity, with doubt.”

終於完成咗《魚不存在》，一本我冇諗過會睇嘅書。

故事就係不停反轉再反轉。1）最後發現校長原來係eugenics優生學嘅提倡者，2）原來魚呢個category根本唔存在。

takeaways：

唯一肯定嘅係，改變係永恆。Uncertainty/Entropy/Chaos/Change is the only sure thing in the world.

我地可能會好像有一個mantra、一個好rigid嘅信念去依賴。但可能就係保持開放嘅態度。不需要過份執著，let’s things fall apart, it is OK! Stay curious, with doubt, and be present. Be aware of what’s happening and change course. Keep revising.

本來nature就是充滿無限可能性，隨時都有變數，為何一定要有「有序」？

在偉大的世界的chaos/Darwin’s machinery of life 面前我們謙卑一點。沒有條條框框no hard lines!

“Nowhere is the sky so blue, the grass so green, the sunshine so bright, the shade so welcome, as right here, now, today.”

“the true path to progress is paved not with certainty but doubt, with being “open to revision.”

最近見到安樂死的新聞。如果現在有一個red button我可以選擇，我應該就衝過去了。

但如果在呢個offer之前，有人話比我3億，我當然唔會想死。

所以呢個恐怖嘅真相就係，人嘅生死係contingent upon 金錢。

或者咁講，我認為3億就等同天堂一樣嘅utopia，就唔會再有任何worries需要擔心了。

• 可以同global firm嘅美國總部interview，其實真係好興奮呀！！（尖叫）
• 1.5日 annual leave嘅時間，第一日全日prep，第二日就是interview。
• 早上7:30am第一輪director、之後早上10am第二輪senior director。
• 多謝b係我地兩輪中間，立刻有debrief賽後檢討，立刻re-strategize。
• 知道自己嘅background都真係80%唔fit，都盡力了。我滿意我嘅表現。
• 第一輪嘅comment係“great conversation，lots of transferrable skills”。不過美國人講嘅客套說話真係唔好信呀
• 第二輪嘅comment係”you will talk more with our people”
• 今次有一個問題就係，我d notes係超級亂。HR round準備d嘢又唔知放曬係邊orz，所以立刻開返個google doc要consolidate返。
• 知道自己嘅不足，因為真係冇咩好hardcore嘅工作經驗orz
• 最搞笑嘅係，比人話：“we“同”i“。沒錯，我公司文化係唔會用”i“的。
• 比人chur點樣用數據去有financial impact，errrrr
• 之後真係要快d惡補下storytelling with data/數據的本質/同埋任何有關retail data嘅mooc啦
• 塔羅牌話下一輪應該ok，又抽到“命運之輪”！！！

經過破紀錄咁長嘅seizure-free日子

佢又返來了 :(

身體上突然無法適應

自己都好frustrated /_\

當事情好似好美好嘅時候，就要提防了…..

容許我悲哀一陣子☹️我之後就會回復正常了

不要刻意區分好事和壞事，原來平常心去度過；明天又是新的一天。